This is why I am never truly happy,
usually, I'm just content and calm, because I'm afraid that when I'm happy, something will suddenly happen to make me despressed or sad,
so, in a way, it's sorta my own protection against depression or something.

God, you know, I just wish that sometimes, I didn't care so much.
Real talk, I'm actually shy even online, so, that's why I rarely comment on anything on here, not because I'm lazy or selfish,
I'm just so scared that I will say something stupid and annoy everyone,
even though it's just my own paranoid mind playing tricks. :S