I'm like...ANGRY, Depressed and confused all at the same time right now...
I feel angry because of an issue that has lasted for too long. My extended family has held a grudge against my family for years...over something crazy mind you...but they refuse to drop it...to just let it die. I WANT to speak with my cousins again...but when I try to talk to them...I'm treated like I have the plague. I can't even get a single word out of them...it's like....I'm yelling into the silence...trying to find my echo and yet...it won't answer me.
What makes this whole thing even WORSE is....I didn't do anything wrong. It's not even between me and my cousins...it has to do with my parents and my uncles. That's why I'm depressed...it's like they can't even think for themselves...yet I keep hearing how much they WANT to talk with me. If you WANT to then FREAKIN do it....I can't last forever....I can only try so hard before I break you know?
I'm sorry everyone for crying on your shoulder...but I feel like if I don't let it out I'll burst. TT~TT
Okay...I'm thinking I need to post more in this world...really, I should. >.>' Anyway! I'm going to the coast today! WOOHOO! So I'll see you all Thursday!
OH! I'm also really happy with the way the Kingdom is going! Thanx everyone for joining and I just hope you enjoy yourselves! >.< I wanted to be able to post before I left...but I've been so insanely busy I haven't had the chance to finish my post! It's almost done...sorry!!! ^^' I'll do it as soon as I get back!
See ya Later!!
Hehe...I totally did it...I cut my hair. I marched right into that salon and said....DO IT BEFORE I CHICKEN OUT! LOL. The length is now about, to the middle of my back...whereas it used to be a little past my hips. o_o You cannot believe how LIGHT it is....heh....I didn't realize my hair was uh...heavy before. >.>' But that's not the freakiest part. I HAVE BANGS! THAT'S RIGHT...I HAD THEM DO IT! They're at about my eyebrows, while the sides are just a bit longer...kinda framing my eyes! I looked in the mirror and was like..."Who's that?" But it wasn't just me...I seriously wasn't even recognized by people i KNOW...-_-' Yes...it's been THAT long since I've had bangs. rofl.
Overall though...IT'S CUTE! AND I LOVE IT! If it hadn't turned out so well...I swear I would be in some emo corner right now crying.
So there ya go...Kira had the guts to do it...I think I deserve a round of applause...but hey that's just me! lol.
Okay...so for everyone's knowledge...I have REALLY long hair. Well...not as long as some ppl...but it's down a little past my hips. Heh...you're probably thinking...yeah...why do I care? T.T Well...tomorrow I'm going to cut it. OMG...I didn't realize how attached I'd become to it...until I realized it's gonna be gone. AND then I was thinking of cutting it to where I have bangs too. o>O WHICH I HAVEN'T HAD SINCE THE SIXTH GRADE!! It's gonna be so wierd...
Sorry to waste ur time...just wanted to get out my fear so that maybe I can actually GO THROUGH WITH IT!! Heh...wish me luck...I'll let you know the outcome. >.>
Yeah so...it's almost Valentines Day and to be honest...I never really liked the holiday. Eh...I mean...it's a nice thought and all...but come on. Do you have to have a specific "day" to tell someone you love them? Or to actually give them a gift?? I never thought so......
Well you can call me bitter or whatever...but like many people I think it's a ploy by the card companies! >:} That must be it...seriously...how much do they make in candy sales and card profits?!
And then there's the whole...there was a MASSACRE on this day!!! OUCH...talk about something horrible with something that's supposed to be lovey dovey. O>o
Okay...forgive me everyone for wasting your time on this rant. *clears throat*
I hope you all have a very wonderful Valentine's Day...but just do me a favor alright....don't ONLY tell the person you love that you love them on Valentine's Day...Seriously...if you love them...say it more often. Or...even better. Express it. Cuz Actions are louder than words!
See ya...Kira OUT. <-wierd mood right now....>.>