This is a place where I post just general stuff.
As you can see, it is obviously a rip-off of my old world, Atomic Ramen. XD
But udon noodles are good, too. :3
Boring stuff about me:
Favorite music genre: Jazz
Favorite musician: Claude DeBussy :D
Uh, favorite modern musician: marasy8
Favorite food: Uh... udon noodles. I guess. XD
Favorite artist: Can't decide. Everyone's so wonderful. o3o
Hobbies: Art, piano, bass guitar, ukulele, tennis, running
Likes: Calm music, calm atmosphere, cloudy skies, the sky at night, the sky in general, foxes, traveling, astronomy, drawing, music (piano in general, general science, God
Dislikes: Screamo music (& anything that hurts my ears), my bad vision, scary things, clowns (*cough cough* Ronald McDonald *cough*), noisy people (I dislike the noise from the person; not the person xD), nightmares
Yeah, hope you learned something there. XD
Anyways, welcome to this world. And stuff. :3
BAHAHAH IT'S BEEN WAY TOO LONG I WAS JUST DOING MATH AND I THOUGHT "OH CRAP I MISS THEOTAKU I'VE BEEN MISSING THE OTAKU AND IT'S TIME TO GO BACK OH GOSH IT'S TIME"
I am so so so sorry for being gone for the past few months, I didn't even check in periodically!
Guys, please know that I think about you really often and I consider you good friends. Just because I may have let a thick layer of dust settle over this account here doesn't mean I'm not thinking of you :>
I've been facing some challenges with my health lately, physically and mentally. For a while I was diagnosed with a type of autoimmune disease (my immune system develops antibodies against itself, and attacks itself). It really brought me under the weather-- I even had to travel across the world to see an immunologist.
Apparently none of the doctors here agreed with my diagnosis, and instead said it was severe de-conditioning, perhaps a serious long-lasting virus that repaired itself over time, or low thyroid count.
I got really discouraged for a while and, uh, my sickness came with depression, and with that the anxiety I've had for all of my life worsened with it. I felt so incredibly fatigued that I would be panting after climbing up a flight of stairs and couldn't turn the lock on my locker in the mornings. I'd get extremely dizzy and sweaty and see nothing but white spots floating in my vision just by standing up from my desk. My dreams got so vivid and disturbing that every morning I felt more tired than I did before going to bed.
In January I couldn't handle it anymore and I started cutting... It ended in an accident where I slashed open my left middle finger almost to the fat tissue. It was just gushing blood like a faucet... And guys, please do not make the stupid mistake I did. It required stitches, but by the time I decided to go to the clinic it was too late, and it was kept in a splint and took weeks to heal.
Even 4 months later, though it looks almost normal, it hurts to press it, and that has put a damper on my piano playing.
Obviously I was taken to a psychiatrist, on meds and I'm seeing a therapist now. And slowly things are going uphill. And down again, but ultimately, slowly, up.
Yesterday after 4 months without cutting I picked up a knife from the kitchen (I told my mom to hide all the razors). My brother saw me and stopped me after chasing me around the block (of course I'd dropped the knife immediately; I was just too embarrassed to face him and sort of took a walk...). I actually had a respiratory infection and a fever, and I got so disconnected I was sprinting for 1/4 a mile or so. Aaaand now all knives in the house are hidden.
I got baptized on Easter, March 31st. Things are getting better, sometimes I just lose my cool, eheh. I'm getting there.
Well well that was rather upsetting XD perhaps this sounds more crazy than the last few paragraphs but please don't worry about me, I am getting help and it's friends who help me most (: and i really do like my therapist, and she's been a huge help to me. Please don't feel it necessary to act as a therapist for me, because friends are friends and therapists are therapists (a big mistake I've made in the past, taking on others' problems as my own). I really don't lose my cool often anymore, yesterday was just a bit... Blah. It's a struggle but y'know.
At any rate, how've you been? I don't consider myself much of an otaku anymore, but I'll keep coming back for you guys. Hahah now I'm more addicted to books, movies and TV XD Lord of the rings, Sherlock, supernatural, doctor who, things of that sort. Oh, and theatre and performing! I'm a bit of a newbie to that but I love love love musicals.
The thing is now the main site I use is tumblr (my blog is pifflepickle), and occasionally deviantArt (link in the introduction). So please follow me or drop me a note at either one so we can keep in touch more! :-D
LAWL RANDOM TITLE.
That song has been sweeping the internet. o.o
DANCE WITH MEEEE. >:D
I actually did the dance down a rather long hallway at school a few days ago... I usually don't like KPop, but this time I can't resist it; it's so catchy. XD
(alsdjflaksdjfl;ak I was about to post this but then my computer crashed and I had to reload the page and I only copy and pasted up to here alkfdjalkdjflasdkjflkd ;A; NOOOOO)
...oh! I almost forgot, I haven't been on here much lately, have I? =u=; but really it's nothing to worry about. Just school and such, I have more challenging classes this year, and it'll be a big extracurricular year too, so the work takes more time. It's pretty much my last year of piano, so I want to make it a good one :D and this year I might play bass for my church worship team as well. I also signed up for my school's intensive science club... if I make it, then... o.o` phew! I'll have a lot on my hands. But I really don't mind the opportunities :D
Therefore less internet time. D: I think it's important to get work done first, but I will try to come on here when I can. :D
As a result, I've been in an art slump lately oTL I haven't drawn for 2 weeks straight, so I'm getting some sort of withdrawal symptoms, you could say. XD
Even on weekends I don't have too much time, so.. I'll just have to wait :D
bahhh enough about my boring life. xD How've you guys been?? ;u; asdfghjlk I don't come on here often, but you guys are in my thoughts frequently. I remember I used to have sooo much fun on here with you guys~ XD I wish I could tell you guys how awesome you are, but it would be hard to condense it into one sentence. But I shall try.. :O
RONALD MCDONALD UNCIRON VOMIT RAINBOW SKITTLES EXPLOSION HNNNGGGG ALDJFL;AKDJFL;AJ
...nope, can't do it :D
But I'd love to hear from you guys, whether or not it's just boring school life as well. XD
Hey thar gaiz. XD
I finished the dangos for MangaKid and LightFykki! XD They're posted.
They look a bit overdone. ;u; But enjoy anyways~ xD
On another note, I tried my hand at cell shading upon realization that I've relied too much on blending. Too much blending makes the shading color sort of disappear, so my art looked very bland up until now. :O
LOL I KNOW RIGHT X'DD
Now it just looks bland in a different sense. o3o
I can't do it properly. ._.
Paired with my awkwardly thick and choppy lineart, I'm not off to a very good start QuQ but I'll improve.
If you have any tips please let me know~~ ;w; much appreciated QvQ ♥
Oh, right! Those characters up there are from Kuroko no Basuke. It's a basketball anime, I like it a loooot. o3o It's great. Definitely worth watching >u< And those OSTs are so. Cool. o_o
On another-nother note, I've heard that an American live action remake of Death Note is in the process of being made. Apparently the roles are
Zac Efron as Light
Robert Pattinson as L
and Miley Cyrus as Misa.
And also they're messing with the storyline so it can fit into 2 hours. Now Light is fighting for vengeance, not justice. And no shinigami uhuhuuu ;A;
.....whut?!? Q_Q I understand they have to simplify the plot so it can be fit into 2 hours, but... seriously, can't they just make a first and second film so all the interesting plot twists can be kept? XD
And this may be a rumor, but I've heard now there'll be an American remake of.... Bleach. o_o'