well this story is bout somethin tht happened to me not too long ago.....Well it all starts off bout a year ago. I had met a beautiful girl named Tashia she had got me into anime in no time. When she discovered i lived right down the road from her she kept inviting me over to her house almost every single day. I didnt mind at all i was always ignored till i met her. Anyway she has an evil girl named Jazz she has been Tashia's gf for years. But then bout half a year ago Tashia started calling me less and inviting me less. I thought nothin of it at first but then when she got word Jazz was moving ishe sounded so happy. But i could tell she wasnt happy at all her voice was starting to sound less cheerful and it almost sounded like she could cry at any moment. then 2 months ago Jazz didnt have any control over our local anime club and Tashia is usually the one to take charge and we listen to her. But now tht Jazz has moved in i KNOW tht Jazz is using Tashia to get control not only over the club but also to get everything she dosnt deserve. I keep trying to wake Tashia from this nightmare but she's too brainwashed by her gf to see how much i love her. I told the anime club and almost all agree with me they all encourage me to do my best. I give special thanx to xXHaseos GirlXx who has made 2 music videos for me and Tashia i thank her from the bottom of my heart. But unfortunatly Tashia is ignoring me either cuzz her gf told her not to or she's too damn scared to face the truth i tell. Truthfully i think Tashia would've broke up with her a long time ago cuzz i got my 1st kiss form her and she said she has a crush on me. But the only reason y Tashia's still with Jazz is cuzz Jazz fights drirty always threatening to kill herself if Tashia broke up with her she's also a drama queen and knows how to throw a fit to get Tashia's attention. I dont want Tashia the girl i love more than anything in the world to be used for the rest of her life so anyones got any ideas to help me plz tell me as soon as possible. Im crying juss typing this this plz help me. Some people say to find a new girl. But....when u find someone thts saved ur life many times tht she'll ever know u cant juss give up people who read this letter tell all the people u know to give me advice. I WONT GIVE UP TASHIA.....AND JAZZ ....I WILL NOT FAIL!!!!!!!

missing her

*sigh* its me everyone ive been real depressed lately cuzz i havent heard or seen tashia in more than 2 weeks. i wonder if jazz told her to never see me again sounds like her tht damn brat. i still got 2 chocolate mint bars from last week to share with her still in my bookbag and it aint helping tht everyone is now juss bulling me flashing laser pointers in my eyes, wiping their hands on my stuff and poking me every where. Even one of my tutors hates tashia saying to other students "hey u know tashia? yeah she was somethin mean wasnt she? but u handled her like a pro" it pisses me off how dare he make fun of someone tht saved me!!!!i want to pound him to the ground so much during tht time!!but oh well i'll hold tashia soon i hope i miss her

juss flat out crying

well i was at tashias today i got so i got so close to her i kissed her face and neck but she wouldnt let me kiss her lips. idk y *sigh*i kept trying later on but she still rejected me.not to scare anyone but at tht moment...i wanted to feel a gun to my head and a loud bang.i want to love her but i was so scared bout her being with jazz i cried right there.*sigh* i juss want to love her.but idk wat to do but I WONT GIVE UP!!!!! IM GONNNA LOVE HER IF IT KILLS ME!!!!!

taking its toll

hi guys well i got good news and bad news i had a better day than before the bad news is tht well i kept thinkin bout tashia today and how she might regect me and everytime i did i almost felt like colapsing cuzz my feet are too weak to carry my body its weird so yeah juss felt like tellin ya tht got nothin better to do....well juss print out L and mello pics for her


i hate to keep makin myself a burden but well tashia called but jazz was over and she had one of her pawns over so i didn go but every time i hear jazzes name it strikes fear in me tht tashia will really choose jazz *sigh* i also took an online test to see if im depressed and acording to the result i am and i know why and but if anyone want to hear the full story of how me tashia actually saved me juss pm me k? laterz


ok...i was at tashia's...sadly i was too scared to kiss her im too scared she's loyal to jazz...and jazz was waiting for me to leave she was staring at me with beady eyes...im scared right now...scared about tashia...tht i wont save her...one thing tht makes me depressed is tht well...i've wanted to be loved since i was 13..im 17 now..it feels like all hope is lost...i havent felt love in so long tashia used to hug me....hell she kissed me for crying out loud tht tells what she trully thinks of jazz!...truthfully i'd rather be in never mind...my heart hurts so much...i feel like crying even as im typing this...i havent had a hug from her in a long time or with anybody as a matter of fact...im terrified tht i'll loose her...and well it seems like all the people i fell in love with truely the deepest of my heart are always used...and every time i try i fail...it always leave a scar in me....SOMEONE HELP ME!!!!!!