Hey, guys. It's been a little while. Sorry about that. I spend most of my "TheO" time on the Discord server, now. It's an enjoyable place, almost like old Chat. I mainly just popped on here to rant. It's still a place I like to say what's on my mind, or how I'm feeling just to help myself calm down or whatever.
I'm just depressed today. It's been a while I know, but I'm still me. I'm still going to have my faults whether I want them to exist, or not. One of those involving romantic emotions. I thought I was in the clear, but I guess all I did was shove them in a dark corner and assumed they were gone, only to be greeted by them again thanks to some good memories. I don't know what to do anymore... I tried, but it seems I can't get rid of them for good.
I should probably just back to being a liar and just lie to myself about how I really feel. I'm scared that'll probably bring me to the brink of insanity, though. Its not hard to lie about my emotions to others. Hell, I did that a lot to stay out of trouble, not hurt others, you name it. But, to myself... heh that's another story. I hate lying, but I can't just confess. I'm scared I'll ruin everything. Things gave been getting better and I don't want that to change. Guess we'll just see what happens. Can't predict the future. Fucking memories, man...