stuff done from boredom

how long has it been? since I've held this cursed life? i just don't know... my powers of light and darkness are all overwhelming i wonder what happens to one who walks the in between path, of both light and darkness when they perish? i find myself floating amongst the in between neither able to take the path of light not the path of darkness. Why...

while i continue to float alone within this world in between worlds i continue to wonder what will happen next i was given the choice to walk both light and darkness yet i walk between them still i can hear my friends from the light and the darkness calling upon me and 2 doors open the path way of light and the pathway of darkness are both there for the taking and yet...

i listen closely to the voices calling from each door. the light where my girlfriend is waiting upon my return. and the darkness where my best friend is awaiting my arrival to keep my promise.... what do i do? i have 2 paths to choose from and 2 loves awaiting my return to them... i just don't know what's wrong with me both paths are there for the taking and yet...

I cannot make a choice of light or darkness because they are both a part of me. instead i leave the doorways where they are and continue my path in between world i don't even bother looking back not once as i continue down my lonely road. so long as I continue my path both worlds are better off but then why? why is it the portals opened. i wonder do i get, do i deserve to have...

i continue down my road between the worlds of light and darkness leaving the portals long gone behind me after all i don't deserve what they were offering, as i walk my path continues on in solitude nothing but myself to keep me company i look into my locket i keep around my neck and see the two people that want me back the most it's foolish to have such dreams when i myself can't choose who i truly love i walk on it seemed like forever watching memories of the past with my girlfriend on one side and best friend on the other. forever that's the word that best gives time to my prison between worlds and yet....

i continue down this endless road as my memories continue to flood and don't notice the other presence before it speaks *WHY is it you refuse to walk in the light?* the figure asked me calmly. *Because of the same reason i don't walk the shadows* i reply calmly walking past the figure as a final portal opens *SO you are going to walk the twilight that leads to oblivion?* the figure asks calmly watching me continue to the 3rd portal *No the road to dawn is always there just half to look/* i reply with a smile before the portal closes behind me

as i walk through the portal i wonder where i'll end up guess that's up to my heart to decide. i wonder if my heart would lead me to paradise, or Oblivion....

i walk from the portals exit finding that I've arrived in the world of darkness my best friend there waiting ...crying but why? I walk to her not thinking about what would happens my heart begins aching with each step i take... she looks up at me tear filled eyes and my heart nearly breaks in two, how could I have been so foolish? my heart always knows what it wants and right now it tell me how to stop her sorrow full tears. I say nothing and continue to her i place my right hand on her face keeping her eyes locked with mine. this feels right.. this is right. I quietly and softly press my lips upon her's and all at once the tears stop, how i wish i could go on like this forever i know why my heart ached and now it's stopped all at once i feel weightless it's as if the whole world has crumbled away into nothingness I can't... I WON'T let go of her not now, not ever again. I let my hand slip from her face and wrap my arms tight around her pulling her as close as the our bodies will allow. and yet it's still not enough she continues holding tight as if afraid to fall from this weightless state I lover her i know it to be truth now. slowly and hesitantly we break from the kiss i continue to hold her as tight as i can, she squeaks a bit and i loosen my grip just enough she can breath this is perfection SHE is perfection I'm alright living in the darkness so long as i have her by my side

she rests her head upon my chest listening to beating of my heat and soon is off to dreamland I can live forever in the shadows so long as i have her. it took along time to do but i finally unkersand why it always hurt in pain I now know the "Truth of the HEART." and I'll never forget it

we continue on in this never ending path of darkness together i can't help but wonder what happens next do we find out way home or stay here in the void of nothingness what next?

we've been walking together for ages now somehow i feel as if giving up is a better option i turn to her and she smiles back at me i begin wondering just what that smile truly holds behind it's sacred doors i smile weakly at her trying to convince both of us we'll get home safely a new portal opens now one I've never seen before and i cant help but ask "Continue?"

she turns to me and has a look I've never seen on her face before it's fear, fear of what might happen when we go through the portal but she grabs my hand and squeezes it tightly and agrees to walk through the portal she's afraid and yet will face her fears?

we continue walking through the portal together her hand tightens it's grip in mine i fell sad as if this was my fault though i guess it kind is after all i never realized how painful it was for her to be lost until i finally found her i never broke down the portal finally open and we walk through once again to find ourselves home, home where my now Ex-girlfriend is waiting what am i going to say to her? all to quickly she appears and tries to shower me with hugs and an attempted kiss. i push her away to stay in control and begin explaining what happened i can see thee sadness in her eyes but i no longer care of them i'm not totally heartless just I've finally realized why my heart was always aching and i'm not gonna let my love go ever again i intertwine my hand with the one my heart truly longs for and we walk home in a comforting silence this is it "OUR" return home

I'm... WE are home this time I'm never letting her go ever again we continue together happily i walk her home my hand still intertwined in hers i can here them her parents and my own we walk in without knocking and smile at them as they look up soon we're showered with hugs and tears of happiness for our safe return it's a happy day for all of us but i cant help feeling uneasy for a strange reason has all this happened before? no it couldn't be..... Nah I'm being paranoid i kiss her my best friend turned girlfriend and the true love of my life gently upon her soft lips one last time *I Love You* i smile at her before we leave and return to our own home everyone with a smile upon their face .......................................                                                                                                                                                                                     I wake once again to find myself in the world between light and Sigh "Well here we go again!" I smile once again begin walking.