It took me too long to get to do this, but I feel like it has to be done.

After much prayer, much nervousness, and much hardship, I achieved what I believed I could achieve.

I'm going to the Air Force Academy.
I was in the AF Prep school last year, I graduated from that school last month, and tomorrow I am heading out for basic training at the Academy.

It was a long 10 months full of many ups and downs, but towards the end of the year I went to a church retreat after I had not gone to church in way too long...I went there and I got more of an inspiration to advance my prayer life.

I started a prayer journal where I write out my thoughts, prayers, and hardships, sort of like "Dear John" letters to God. That's the expression that I use.

I just wanted to post this to say that I am of all things thankful and grateful for the blessings that have been given to me. I've seen a lot of unfair situations and shameful actions but I never lost faith. I failed time and time again, not knowing if I could ever improve, but I never lost faith. My best friend and I got into a huge fight, then later on he got kicked out not too long after we made up and became friends again...That one hurts me the most.

I don't think I've ever cried like that before--I don't think I've ever felt that anguish before.

My mom and I are not doing well, she's very sick and is undergoing a surgery that is very dangerous. I'm about to leave home with some stress and some guilt regarding my crazy family, but I'm still not going to lose faith.

In fact I'm excited about the challenges ahead. I feel as if a great weight has been lifted, so that I'm not going to be in the dark about my opportunities. The set ups have been confirmed, now all I have to do is be joyful, be thankful, give thanks to God, and keep Him involved in my matriculation there.

I feel a great sense of freedom from this, and even though the world seems to make no sense right now, I could never be happier.

Just had to post that.
Enjoy yourselves.