Guess who's an Otaku Eternal now?
THAT'S RIGHT. THIS GIRL.
/DANCES LIKE A CRAZY PERSON
Now I gotta figure out a cool title. xD Does anyone know if you can change your title once you make one?
So yeah I'm at a going away party I'm throwing at my place for my best friend who is moving away (to Florida, no less, which is as far away from where I live as you can possiblly get, U.S.A standards.), and she invites a bunch of people. No problem, I love a good crowd of friends.
So I invited this girl who is pretty good friends with me, but I know for a FACT she has a HUGE crush on me, and I have told her COUNTLESS times (conspicuously of course) that I am not attracted to girls and the last time I let myself slip on that fact it destroyed me or at least changed me for good, and there was no way I was going to be alone with her at any point in time so I decided to invite her to a party with a big group of people.
Because I'm a nice person who can't just say, "Please leave me alone. Now."
So it turns out she comes earlier than everyone else. That's chill. Like heck were staying in this house though, let's take a walk.
So we do and she just has this creepy way of flirting, like she's being sneaky but I know EXACTLY what's up. Of course though, I act innocent for the sake of being nice.
So everyone came and we had a BLAST. But how many time could this girl try and find opportunities to get me alone? More than you'd ever think. MY WORD.
And also, it so happens that she was the LAST to leave.
And guess what?
SHE BIT ME.
SHE FLIPPIN' BIT ME ON THE SHOULDER.
And TRIED TO SLIP HER FLIPPIN' HAND DOWN MY SIDE.
And guess what I did?
Then she asked for a KISS.
A FLIPPIN' KISS.
I AIN'T NEVER KISSED ANYONE IN MY LIFE YOU PSYCHO. GET THE FRICK AWAY FROM ME OR I WILL SCREAM OR PUKE.
BUT ALL I DID WAS TRY AND IGNORE HER.
NOW I FEEL BAD ABOUT THAT?
Thank goodness she left soon after--I tried to leave her clues from the last person I let into my heart (by letting her look in my box in my loft, which I seldom ever look at), who gave me her heart and I gave her mine, I felt so safe with her, it was nothing romantic I just loved being with her. And then I got confused because I did start to have feelings for her, and she said the same. All I really knew then was I felt loved. For once in my life someone wanted me.
But then she took hers back, ran away with mine, and stole someonelse's in a town just far enough where I couldn't reach her.
I feel so disgusting right now I want to puke and cry and stratch my shoulder until I can't feel that bite anymore.
I can't do this. I HAVE NO FEELINGS FOR THIS GIRL AND I NEVER WILL.
I feel so used and played with right now. The only people who have ever shown a huge interest in me are WOMEN. UGGGHHH!!!!!!!!!!
This is all so frickn' messed up I can't even think.
Sorry guys I just, gosh it seems like all I do now is vent. I'm sick of this, I want to be happy again--not that I haven't been on and off lately it's just...this time I want it to stay. I want to forget all of this.
And on the best friend's going away too.
I know I don't get on here enough, and I keep saying that but really, my life is a zoo and a half. Just graduated high school, I have comissions lined up, singing gigs (four just this month! EEK!), college applications to think about, and a job to find.
I cannot tell you enough how sorry I am--I miss this place so much, but it may be a little bit longer until I get back into the full swing of things, I just hope you guys haven't forgotten me quite yet!
So anyway, one of the many projects I've been working on in my absense is a music video/cover of the song "What Sarah Said" by Death Cab for Cutie!
PLEASE WATCH IT! It's AWESOME (you know... for a high school video xD)
Director: My friend Attera
Singer: YOURS TRULY! :D You guys get to see me sing in action!
Pianist/main guy: My friend Brandon (He's doing the real piano in the audio, he's amazing!)
Sarah: My friend Sienna <3
HERE IS THE VIDEO----> http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sbANFqt_GI8
ENJOY! And leave some feedback, we love it!
I just set up my own cover channel on Youtube, going by the name of Lady Sparrow :)) --No videos are up yet but this week I began to recording, hopefully I'll have stuff up by the end of the week!
This is so exciting, you all get to hear me sing! Granted, my current video camera is not the bst quality and I don't have an accompaniest, but ya gotta starts small right?
So check it out, and watch out for my first cover! I'll be doing "Pierrot the Clown" by Placebo--If any of you have songs you'd like to hear my cover at any point in the future, I'd love to hear your suggestions!
AND HEEEERRRREEE is the link to my channel ----> http://www.youtube.com/user/LadySparrowCovers?feature=guide
/nervous to hear feedback
I hope to see your comments soon :)
I'm severaly sorry for not replying to comments as of late. For the past few weeks, my computer (or the site, I'm not for certain) is preventing me from posting or replying to comments on this site.
I thank you all SO SO much for all your wonderful comments on my works <333 It really means the world to me that some of you would take the time to comment on my work. Really it does :')))
I'll continue to try and figure out how to solve this problem, in the mean time I didn't want all of you to think I was ignoring your kind words. I am so thankful for all your comments!
Oh and I wish all of you a very happy 2012!! <333