"You show that you are a letter from Christ, the result of our ministry, written not with ink but with the Spirit of the living God, not on tablets of stone but on tablets of human hearts." --2 Corinthians 3:3

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I hate this.

So I effing hate Anatomy now. I pretty much failed the first test. Lowest grade in the class right here. So I suck and pretty much hate myself now. I got lower than this ditzy, ridiculously girly chick in my class. How the hell did I get the lowest grade in the freaking class? I don't understand. I studied for that stupid test. I STUDIED. And now I'm crying about it like a stupid baby. This is ridiculous. I hate this. Life sucks right now. Nobody seems to care. Which is understandable. I'm useless and stupid. Why would anyone care...

[EMO POST.]

Survival

So Senior Year: Week One was a roller-coaster ride. And not a particularly fun roller-coaster. Admittedly, it did have its good points but it had it's absolutely awful points as well. Most of my classes are good. I'm taking Christian Worldview, which I think I've said before. And it's effing boring. Anatomy and Physiology is hard, but not overly so. It's really not that bad. It's not as bad as my teacher made it out to be. And I'm taking an online course at the local community college for Creative Writing...which is going ok. I'm excited about it. Hopefully once dance starts back up I'll still be able to handle my crap. I'm trying not to stress about it. It's not working, but I'm trying.

The Beginning of the End.

So I did not make it through my first day of Senior Year without crying. I kind of got overwhelmed because we had to sign up for our community college courses and I was freaked out because I thought I was going to have to take Chemistry [along with my highschool advanced biology] but, I had a long talk with my mom--where I cried, because I was overwhelmed--and she looked up the college I want to attend and lo and behold, I don't need Chemistry. So Chemistry, screw you. I also didn't want to take Introduction to Math or whatever the heck I needed to take, because Anatomy and Physiology [my advanced bio that I am required to take to graduate high school] is going to be intense. Our teacher seriously told us, you're going to have a really hard work-load. Gee, thanks for the comforting thoughts. So instead of taking Math or Chemistry I'm taking Creative Writing. So this semester I have Christian Worldview [that might as well not be a class, more like nap-time] and then Anatomy and Physiology [which I might end up liking, because I like Biology] and then I'm taking Creative Writing for college credit.

Hooray for senior year. It's either going to be phenominal or terrifying. Or both.

Probably both.

School.

I start back to school on next Monday. I've been working at the school, though, just not learning anything. Some of the kids that come out and volunteer have been put to work painting the hallways. So that's what I did yesterday and today I painted some trim, put up bulliten boards, and ditched to go eat out lunch with some friends.

I have to dye my hair back to a natural colour because as it is it's against dress code. So no more purple/blue hair. I bought a box of hair dye this morning, so the bleached streak is being turned 'lightest auburn'. Whatever that is. I think it looks kind of strawberry-blonde-ish, hopefully it will come out more red...

Nothing interesting is happening in my life. [sighs] Maybe once school starts this blog will be interesting to read. [Probably not, but I can pretend it is.]

Dragon Ball

My mom rented Dragon Ball: Evolution from Netflix. We're watching it right now. I've seen the first three minutes and I already feel like it's going to be lame. [laughing] I'll report back later after the movie finished.