I'm feeling better as far as the tension goes (though it's still slightly there). The only thing that's bothering me now is this headache... I'm not taking any more of that cyclobenzaprine because I was just worse off in the motor skills department. I'll just stick with minimal painkillers whenever something pops up.
All this stuff has been messing with my ability to draw, after all. However, I'm still not giving up. I'm gonna get back to that request (which would have been done by now... orz) after I take a nice nap and sleep away the rest of my headache. =^_^= I think maybe by tomorrow, I'll be physically okay again. I don't need ANY MORE of my motivation being sapped away. =>.<= *waves giant flag that says "Manga Spirit!"*
I'mma munch on some Craisins and hit the sack for a bit... Mata ne, minna-san!
I decided to find the medication that the doctor gave to me a while ago when I last had muscle pain problems... It's a muscle relaxant XD I don't feel the tension as much, but now the drowsiness is catching up with me. XD;;
I'm off to rest. How are you all today? =3
I had made a flash banner a while back for a class project. It was actually the first project we were given (before that other animation I did, for those of you who've seen it). And the thing about it is... I made it advertising theOtaku! 8D I was going to put it up on my dA account much sooner, but I wanted to ask Bossman Adam if it would be okay to do so. Well, Bossman gave me the thumbs up, so here's the link!
TheOtaku.com Animated Banner
And for those of you who haven't seen my short animated sequence (which I lost sleep and food over at one point XD;;) you can see it here.
I would so love to post these here, but y'know, no animation support. =( But that's okay, I still love theO and all the friendly people here. =)
Also, thanks to everyone who's been giving me words of encouragement about my current tough situation. The stress had started affecting my right arm (y'know, the one I use to draw...) to where I couldn't move it properly as well as giving me tension in my neck and shoulder. You guys are the best for encoraging me and helping me out =^_^= Even though I'm having a little difficulty, I'm not going to let that stop me from drawing if I want to. I'm simply going to relax as best I can so I don't aggravate it. I know a friend who lost the feeling in both his arms and hands because of emotional detatchment. He draws like me, too, so it was hard for him. I want to be sure I'm not going to get so far that my arm becomes completely useless. =^_^= I feel much better, despite the slight pain. It's simply the mental block manifesting itself as a physical ailment... Er, that sounds weird, but I'm really being positive. XD;; I've been through stress tension, before, and it's not at the worse point it can get just yet. Banzai XD I wonder if my old medicine has expired...? Though if I use a muscle relaxant, I wonder if I could still draw? I forget X3 lol
On a brighter note, my aunt is taking us (myself and my younger brothers) to Six Flags at the end of the month =3 I haven't been there in years XD There's a slight possibility that my friend can come, but details must be worked out first. It'll be cool =) Well, I'm going to leave it here for now. Mata ne. =3
So it's the day after my grandmother's death... I still don't believe it and I kinda wish I'd stayed up all night. It feels weird waking up to a new day. I feel bad, but I still can't quite cry. This kinda sucks...
So I might come off as seeming somewhat negatively responsive and have a few less smiley emotes in my comments/replies. *sigh* My eyeballs feel annoyingly dry...
I dunno *shrugs without enthusiasm. I'll be working on my request today, but I'm gonna take my sweet time... (As if I wasn't already orz)
Oh, hey, I guess maybe this means I've passed into the depression phase? In a sense, that's good, because it's means I'm somewhat progressing... However, I'd like to tell my mind to realize reality, y'know? I know she's gone, but it just seem so unbelievable...
Crap, I just realized tomorrow's Monday, which is when I said I was going to continue the Memories of the Past story with the sequel... Hm... (That title's been slightly altered from what I initially came up with, but you'll find that out when I upload it...) I'm not sure if I'm going to feel up to it, but at the same time, I might like something to get my mind off my grandmother's passing... Just as I typed that, I'm even having a hard time accepting it... I guess I'm sort of typing this so that I can have a record of it as well as come to realization. (To top it off it's that time of the month for me... orz How grand...)
Sorry if I'm depressing you guys, guess I'm just kinda venting a little bit. Though I can't say it's helping too much, I feel like it's something I need to do. Moving my fingers across the keyboard helps me to stay active, or something. *sigh* In a way, I'd like to stay in bed all day (well, I usually am in bed all day, but not because I'm sleeping, it's just the rest of my room's always a mess XD lol) After typing that, I feel slightly better. Ahaha, I guess I just need a good laugh... Though I am starting to feel sleepy... *drinks water* Guess no one would blame me if I slept a bit longer... I might be pushing myself to move on, but I don't want to mope around too much... My brothers seem to be coping much better than I am, and they spent more time with her than I did. Then again, they don't seem to talk about their feelings as much, though they do express them somewhat, so I know they're upset too... ARGH I'm rambling and typing a lot, at this rate, this post will become a novel...
And now I've just thought about my senior project *flops and sighs* Gah, I hate this... Oh well, I'll just do whatever the heck I want right now, whether it be work, play, sleep, or eating. XD I had an apple, but I should probably get something more substantial... I'm not in the mood for much so I think I'll have a standard bagel... Oy, has this become something more like a diary than a post...? =o_O;= *laughs* I'm strange, but I guess I feel better. Plus it's a pretty day outside.
I think I'm going to leave it here. I'mma grab a bagel and watch some Naruto before I get back to that request. Mata ppl =^_^=
I can't really believe it... She was really a lively woman and looked young for her age...
My grandmother on my father's side of the family passed away this morning at around 7:35 am. Apparently it was heat-related. The heat and humidity lowered her blood pressure so her heart had to work overtime.
It's going to take a while to really sink in... At least she's now in a better place... Rest in peace, grandmother...