Well, they moved him to a different room. Last time I thought he was already in the ICU, but it turned out he was just then moved out of the emergency room into the ICU. This time, he's nearby the ICU, I believe. I'm going with my mom tomorrow to see him. I had made plans to go ice skating before this, but I don't even feel like I want to right now. I was invited to a party this Thursday, too, but I wonder if I even want to go to that... I never get invited to parties... Or I didn't really, I wasn't popular in high school, but I didn't really care too much. *is ranting*
Anyway... Um, he's been having issues with his kidney and they were talking about the possibility of having him go through a dialysis. I don't really know how to explain it, so if you don't know what that is, just go google it... Sorry to be a bit harsh, but I don't really feel like explaining... But it's been confirmed that he'll have to have one tomorrow... He hasn't had to go through all this the past times when he was in the hospital, so I wonder if he really is giving up...? I don't know what to do, since he's rather stubborn, and with the short-term memory loss, he wouldn't remember things much, I don't think... And if he does remember certain things, he's not the type of person to talk about things... ARGH! My father makes me so frustrated sometimes. I always in the past wished he'd open up more, but he's just so stubborn... Half the reason I'd been getting neck/shoulder tension is because I was getting so frustrated with his childish behavior. *sigh* I'm mad at him, but I don't want him to go through all this stuff... I wish God would tell him he's acting like a child sometimes and to hurry up and get better on all fronts. =;_;= Argh... orz All this is so stupid... why couldn't he have not had a seizure? Why couldn't he just improve? Why couldn't he be around for Christmas time? At this rate, he's going to miss another Christmas. And now I'm getting all tensed up again... orz
I want to cry about a lot of things. Some are probably pettier than my dad being in the hospital, but are still kinda vital for a human being, in a sense. Some regard my own future. I feel like I can't do much, but I'm doing what I can. *sigh* I don't wanna rant about this to you guys and bring you all down... I'm not really on the verge of tears, but I guess all this stuff just kinda comes out once I start typing. I'd like to stop now, because the more I think about it, the more tense I become...
I'mma go... I dunno... ""orz Ja ne...
