Rough Rides [Long Update]

My first post since basic...

How've you been, people?

Needless to say I am extremely busy, and sadly I'm in a bit of a bind.

BCT didn't go very well, and because of it I'm being critically evaluated on pretty much every aspect of my work here.

The more I think about it the more sad I become because I was told that I could be disenrolled...It feels like I just got here, and quite literally I have.

Last week was awful to say the least.
I chipped my tooth.
I made a stupid mistake on a calculus quiz that I could've easily gotten a 100 on.
My chemistry class is starting to confuse me. I've covered this material before, but the way they ask the questions is very confusing.
I have an exam on Monday which I feel pretty confident about, but every little mistake I make feels like the end of the world.
I missed two online quizzes because I couldn't see them on my calendar, so of course I didn't know to do them.

People have been saying that it's only the start of the year, but I can't afford to make any mistakes.
Stuff like that really bothers me, and I really needed this weekend because I was beyond exhausted by Friday, I couldn't have made it another 3 days.

Every day I go through a rollercoaster of sadness and there are some times I completely lose faith in myself.
I'm still thankful to be here, I wouldn't trade it for the world, but it crushes me to be in such a position.

I've got a decent amount of time to make it up, but I don't want these mistakes to set me behind the 8-ball, so to speak.
I've gotten ahead in some of my classes, so even if I mess up a quiz that's not worth that many points I can probably catch up.

You see how my optimism and sadness just sine-waved? It feels bipolar sometimes.

Right now I'm watching the McGregor vs Mayweather fight while simultaneously a) writing this post and b) finishing some of these homework assignments.

I've got a while until I can get comfortable with my schedule here.
Hopefully after this year and all of its extra demands are over I can get more time to pursue some personal project...Or not, considering I can barely even attempt to join any clubs.

This is getting pretty sad, but I'll finish it off with this:
Sometime soon, maybe during this upcoming weekend or during my next break (which won't be 'till around Christmas) I can get on some projects that I've been wanting to do for this site.
It's been pretty stagnant around here and I rarely get to upload some stuff, and I miss putting in work for this site. Here's a quick list of projects I've wanted to start.

1. Doing my very first Fan-Comic. I'll try to upload some Cover Pages and maybe take votes for which ones you'd like to see more of.
2. Using my new "Feats of Fandom" world to talk about old anime and video-games that I haven't talked about.
3. Talking more about seasons 2 and 3 of "FLCL" b'cuz that is literally my favorite anime ever!
4. WAY later down the line I want to start doing Livestreams again. I plan on buying a few more video-games and holding them at my dad's until I get to have long stretches of time to myself.

This is all predicated on me actually having time considering right now there's not a snowball's chance in hell I could muster up the energy to even think about trying. Plus I've got a thousand and one priorities that I already have a hard time juggling.

Still, I want to have some fun as often as I can, and maybe one day coming back to this site could be a way to decompress.

This update was crazy long, but for now, I'll leave you with this.

Love y'all
P.S:
Speaking of TheDarkEclipse, I actually saw the recent eclipse.
I've always wanted to witness an astronomical event like an eclipse or a shooting star or Haley's comet, and I'm happy to have seen that.

How has your week been?

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