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Internet, Internet, Where am I going?

So I dunno if I mentioned it in a previous post or something but recently I joined instagram and twitter. That means that the total websites I have joined and want to try and attempt to stay active are: theotaku, deviantart, instagram, twitter, facebook, pixiv, tumblr

...;m;

It's too much...

Too much I have decided.

I am confused because of the people I follow who regularly post on all these sites...they literally post on all these sites all at the same time...;3;

However these people have a large following and I don't think they interact so much with other people and mainly reply to comments...or none at all...but I dunno how they keep up with all these sites...;3;

Twitter is especially overwhelming. I don't get it at all but there are a lot of mangaka on there so whatevs...>3>

I decided this summer I want to try to be more active on these websites because since my inactivity due to school I have dropped to being almost forgotten..;3; Like when I post stuff on some websites I get nil whereas before I would get a sufficient amount of attention.

I thought for deviantart I could get more attention from frequent posts, but this didn't work. I think the ticket is commenting.

I know that commenting a lot is a really good thing to do and I tried my best to talk to as many people on here because I wanted peeps to feel comfy, but even that sort of drive tired me out...;3; There was a year where I would go through all the fanart and try to comment on as many as I could. I would also do the same with the people I was watching on deviantart because I dunno, I like getting comments...

I think it would be the same with deviantart...but I don't have that much commenting power in me and I also like doing other things than just commenting...;3; Maybe I need to practice more, but my brain gets tired out trying to think of nice and constructive original things to say...I don't like leaving repetitive comments...;orz

Why do I want more attention? Because I WANT COMMISSIONS! ;3; I am sure plenty of you guys understand this pain. Get enough popularity, post about 'I have opened commissions'

nada
zilch
zenzen nai

A few years ago I got a steady stream of REQUESTS but not COMMISSIONS which...umm..requests are pretty much useless to me except to practice drawing a variety of things...but that takes up precious time...>3> I can't do stuff like that anymore and honestly I think I was kinda used by that point of time (somebody actually sent me a message saying that she didn't like her request, despite me having done like 10 pictures in about a week, and that she wanted a new one because she felt cheated...DID YOU PAY ME? I DON'T THINK SO. I was nice cause she threatened to tell other people that I was cheap or something...so I drew a new one. And it was at that point I was like, yeah nope not doing requests).

I COULD work on getting more popular on DA and these other sites by commenting, following, tweeting, watching, etc. but I don't have the energy to do all of that...Maybe this is normal for the 21st century and I didn't notice? I dunno but its weird...

My plan is to regularly post stuff on all the websites I have accounts on to get a range of audience. Maybe I will comment every now and then...I dunno...(though when I decide I will comment a little I end up making a master plan. Why stop with this person? Why not this person too?)

I want to gain attention honestly and for my artwork, but I don't think I am there yet so I will keep going, but from what I have read its a mixture of this and ACTIVITY. How do I be active on all these sites? ;m;

So instead I am thinking of posting regularly like I said, but then also focusing more on website over the other.

For instance, facebook and instagram are for my friends, instagram I can use more cause its fun and convenient (literally just looking at pics with short captions and short replies). TheO I will use like I always do. Deviantart and Tumblr I will use to post art. Tumblr will be more sketches, deviantart will be more finished pieces (for like a formal portfolio) and pixiv is also more finished pieces.

However I think I want to put more energy into being more active on pixiv than on deviantart. I realize there is an overall culture to deviantart I dislike, same for tumblr. Pixiv probably also has one that I don't know of yet, I'd like to find it out, and if I dislike it I will just have more interesting internet cultures in my brain's library. Not only that I will be able to, hopefully, improve my japanese. Not only not only that and the main reason I want to make this decision (which honestly isn't like choosing a chocolate milk or regular milk or anything...XD) because of the events, contests, news etc on there. In recent years they have emphasized manga more and so now companies like Shounen Jump and others are using pixiv to host their contests so I can post online applications to these contests as well as send it to them.

I can engage with the japanese artist community/manga community. I can show my profile to this community which leaves me open to participate in events like displaying art in Design Festa or something.

Bottom line, I gotta work on my art more, my japanese more, and work on more manga...

Which by the way about manga...I have been really slow at recently...I think I hit an art block that I am slowly getting over. I just suddenly disliked all my stories...but I think if I just write them, like sit down and draw the pages etc, if one is bad then it is bad and I will improve from there. I have like 6 stories, they can't all be perfect. I just really like them too much...XD

Yeahhh sorry for the rant post...I needed to release some steam...;3; Also my friend lost his phone and so I haven't be able to talk to him at all and he was usually the person I used to blow off steam and rant about nothing, but now I gots nobody...;3; Or my friend, but I am waiting until our trip together since it'll be long and need things to talk about! XD

Ack! I just realized I also have accounts on nicovideo, amebla, and youtube...all of which I wanted to do stuff on and be active...guhh...can't...do...guhh...melt...downn...;m;

Also my dog broke my headphones so I have to use old headphones that I can only hear out of one ear on and I wanna play rhythm games but its hard without both sides...;3; Not impossible, just can't get perfect scores now...;orz

Art vs Artist

For teh memes

I am just gonna put this here...

It's just interesting to see other artists and how the faces they draw might look like theirs in some ways. I have learned that the face shapes I draw are similar to mine! So weird!

Long tiiimeeeee

I dunno why I keep forgetting about this place. Or I don't really forget about this place and its memories and meaning to me but more that I forget to post anything on here.

I dunno why, but since this place has always been the place for me to express my feelings and just let off steam, cause it is my home after all, I just felt like talking about current events.

I confessed my love to somebody for the first time yesterday and this morning they told me they just wanted to be friends. It is a pretty normal experience, but it really feels awful. I never knew it felt this bad. I am also really confused because the way he talked to me was a bit more than friends, with sending pics of food and worrying about eachother's health...well I guess that isn't too different from friends. I am not sure.

The reason I got a reply this morning is that he lives in Japan, so it would have been a long distance relationship if anything. Not only that but if and when I return to Japan it will probably be to a city far away from his. So I guess it wouldn't have worked out anyways...but I just wanted to hear that somebody I liked might have liked me and that I was right in assuming so even if we couldn't do anything about it.

I talked to him pretty much everyday and skyped hima lot and now he is not replying to my messages very often and it is depressing me. I wish I never did this and kept it a secret...but I also couldn't concentrate on my hw. However even now I can't really cocentrate as much...but I feel less dependent on facebook messaging so I can do my hw....but still.....guhh it sucks...

I guess it is good to habe this experience...but yknow, I would really like to have at least one romantic experience in my life at all. >.>

Well now that that is off my chest for a bit I think I would feel better to talk about...MANGA~

So I have reached a sort of dilemma...I decided I would sit down and write a manga...and I have been doing that...with 6 stories....Or around the much...

So lemme give tou summaries cause I do that a lot! I want to work on all of them and finish all of them in my spare time and then send them to publishers. I think eventually one will work out maybe?

So the most recent one I have worked on I call I Hate You. It is about a girl who reluctantly goes to a school for magical girls. It takes place in a universe that is ruled by love and the gods of love and when people come of age their fairy appears. The twin to their fairy is with their true love. The main character kills her fairy because it was annoying, thus ensues the wrath of Cupid as he tries to make her believe in romantic love.

The next one is called Multiple Choice for now. It takes place in modern Japan except there are exams like the imperial exams of Tang Dynasty China where those who pass the top exams get a large salary for the rest of their lives in order to encourage education of others. The main character is a person who wants to become a super hero when he wins and wants to show people that they should believe in this, so he works his hardest to pass the exams, while his rival is a stuck up rich kid who wants to destroy the exams instead.

Another one is called Bloodlust. This is about twins who were separated from eachother after one of them got the other one put in prison for treason for helping 'those of the water' whose blood is actually made up of liquid similar to water. While he is in prison his help is requested by a person of water and he escapes the prison to help him fix a machine that is supposed to find water underground. He wants to unite the people of blood and the people of water by doing so.

Next one is called Under the Cherry Blossoms. It is about a world where demons and spirits are created by the shared consciousness of th people who live there. A boy is adopted by the emperess for some strange reason. The boy has black teeth, skin the can boil water, and likes to drink oil more than water. After introducing him the prince, the prince gets hurt somehow and his face is deformed, leading to other people making him into a demon, so the boy with black teeth must save him from those of irrational fear.

I think the last one is called Blind and it is the least flesshed out,... A boy plays an online game with his friends and they end up dying the next day. People suspect it is the game and eventually he gets psychokinesis powers and I dunno what I am doing with this...

Also one other one if I feel like it would be based off of an old dream I posted about a while ago. A boy and a girl are trapped ina strange school with strange deformed human monsters that attack them. They try to escape, but end up back there. Yappp

My friend is skyping me now and just reminded me of the above situation...ughh....

Well I am going to focus on being more productive with manga and work hard on trying to do all the other things I have to do like maybe find a jov for rhe summer. Lots of disappointments this year. Also my dad got run over by a forklift, which is weird. He is okay, just a broken leg, but a weird thing to come home to hearing. "Oh yeah, your dad got run over by a forklift"
My uncle also tripped and fell and almost died, while my grandma is also quite sick...not a good year so far. I also got several rejections from jobs n people and other things, not so great grades...also had to leave Japan this year too...what a terrible year so far. I look forward to next year when I can graduate and get to it on my dreams.

I want to become a manga assistant for the time being so I will apply to pretty much everyone I can but I don't think I can do that until next year because visas and government documents are difficult...

But if I do I will probably live in Tokyo, and I was thinking I would proabbly meet somebody better there. I am mainly looking for friendly, not weird, fashionable otaku like that last person...I think there are more people like that in Tokyo...

Well anyways, I should probably go to sleep!

Adios!

Long tiiimeeeee

I dunno why I keep forgetting about this place. Or I don't really forget about this place and its memories and meaning to me but more that I forget to post anything on here.

I dunno why, but since this place has always been the place for me to express my feelings and just let off steam, cause it is my home after all, I just felt like talking about current events.

I confessed my love to somebody for the first time yesterday and this morning they told me they just wanted to be friends. It is a pretty normal experience, but it really feels awful. I never knew it felt this bad. I am also really confused because the way he talked to me was a bit more than friends, with sending pics of food and worrying about eachother's health...well I guess that isn't too different from friends. I am not sure.

The reason I got a reply this morning is that he lives in Japan, so it would have been a long distance relationship if anything. Not only that but if and when I return to Japan it will probably be to a city far away from his. So I guess it wouldn't have worked out anyways...but I just wanted to hear that somebody I liked might have liked me and that I was right in assuming so even if we couldn't do anything about it.

I talked to him pretty much everyday and skyped hima lot and now he is not replying to my messages very often and it is depressing me. I wish I never did this and kept it a secret...but I also couldn't concentrate on my hw. However even now I can't really cocentrate as much...but I feel less dependent on facebook messaging so I can do my hw....but still.....guhh it sucks...

I guess it is good to habe this experience...but yknow, I would really like to have at least one romantic experience in my life at all. >.>

Well now that that is off my chest for a bit I think I would feel better to talk about...MANGA~

So I have reached a sort of dilemma...I decided I would sit down and write a manga...and I have been doing that...with 6 stories....Or around the much...

So lemme give tou summaries cause I do that a lot! I want to work on all of them and finish all of them in my spare time and then send them to publishers. I think eventually one will work out maybe?

So the most recent one I have worked on I call I Hate You. It is about a girl who reluctantly goes to a school for magical girls. It takes place in a universe that is ruled by love and the gods of love and when people come of age their fairy appears. The twin to their fairy is with their true love. The main character kills her fairy because it was annoying, thus ensues the wrath of Cupid as he tries to make her believe in romantic love.

The next one is called Multiple Choice for now. It takes place in modern Japan except there are exams like the imperial exams of Tang Dynasty China where those who pass the top exams get a large salary for the rest of their lives in order to encourage education of others. The main character is a person who wants to become a super hero when he wins and wants to show people that they should believe in this, so he works his hardest to pass the exams, while his rival is a stuck up rich kid who wants to destroy the exams instead.

Another one is called Bloodlust. This is about twins who were separated from eachother after one of them got the other one put in prison for treason for helping 'those of the water' whose blood is actually made up of liquid similar to water. While he is in prison his help is requested by a person of water and he escapes the prison to help him fix a machine that is supposed to find water underground. He wants to unite the people of blood and the people of water by doing so.

Next one is called Under the Cherry Blossoms. It is about a world where demons and spirits are created by the shared consciousness of th people who live there. A boy is adopted by the emperess for some strange reason. The boy has black teeth, skin the can boil water, and likes to drink oil more than water. After introducing him the prince, the prince gets hurt somehow and his face is deformed, leading to other people making him into a demon, so the boy with black teeth must save him from those of irrational fear.

I think the last one is called Blind and it is the least flesshed out,... A boy plays an online game with his friends and they end up dying the next day. People suspect it is the game and eventually he gets psychokinesis powers and I dunno what I am doing with this...

Also one other one if I feel like it would be based off of an old dream I posted about a while ago. A boy and a girl are trapped ina strange school with strange deformed human monsters that attack them. They try to escape, but end up back there. Yappp

My friend is skyping me now and just reminded me of the above situation...ughh....

Well I am going to focus on being more productive with manga and work hard on trying to do all the other things I have to do like maybe find a jov for rhe summer. Lots of disappointments this year. Also my dad got run over by a forklift, which is weird. He is okay, just a broken leg, but a weird thing to come home to hearing. "Oh yeah, your dad got run over by a forklift"
My uncle also tripped and fell and almost died, while my grandma is also quite sick...not a good year so far. I also got several rejections from jobs n people and other things, not so great grades...also had to leave Japan this year too...what a terrible year so far. I look forward to next year when I can graduate and get to it on my dreams.

I want to become a manga assistant for the time being so I will apply to pretty much everyone I can but I don't think I can do that until next year because visas and government documents are difficult...

But if I do I will probably live in Tokyo, and I was thinking I would proabbly meet somebody better there. I am mainly looking for friendly, not weird, fashionable otaku like that last person...I think there are more people like that in Tokyo...

Well anyways, I should probably go to sleep!

Adios!

Shueisha~ :D

Sorry I forgot my promise...or did I even promise anything? I don't remember...;3; If I did I am sorry.

I was going to post about this earlier but I ended up doing a lot of other things and I forgot I had brought my laptop. Of course I could post using my ipad but sometimes I touch the wrong part of the screen and takes me to another page and yadda yadda I don't like touch screens for typing long things.

So yeahhh~ Last week I went to Shueisha's building and my heart fills with joy just remembering it.

I'm not a mangaka and I was expecting my manga to be published or anything so that's not really what this is about.

The fact is that I went to Shueisha's building and actually met with an editor of a manga and he was nice enough to give me advice and the company itself was nice enough to do all of this despite my lack of japanese skills and that I am American.

I can't believe all of it!

I met with the editor of Usogui which is another manga that I really like so I am shocked (and lucky I didn't get Tokyo Ghoul's editor...>3>). He understood some english which was surprising like escapism and consumerism and materialism all them ism's he understood! O.O

But he spoke extremely fast so I am afraid I missed some things but my friend translated and took notes for me. It must be the norm for editors to speak so fast because it sounded like a naturally sped up voice and he said everything he had to say.

Basically what I have learned is that when it comes to writing manga the character should be the most important thing. The setting and the story are second to the character. He said that a manga is not about a story but about a character.

This actually gives me loads of confidence because I prefer writing interesting characters to writing interesting stories. I have lots of weird characters that I want to put in my story but I always thought they were too weird but I guess I shouldn't worry about that so much considering how many weird characters there are in anime normally...

Another thing is something I understood before but I need to keep telling myself is that manga does not have to have well drawn illustrations, it just needs to have an interesting story that is easy to understand.

He said this is why Tokyo Ghoul works because it is very easy to understand the premise. Now that I think about it, that's pretty true. It is super easy to read (which is why it is easy to criticize). I have the problem of liking really complicated stuff I don't understand though so I write stories that are difficult to understand...

I think I should practice writing simple stories and maybe stories for children or something. I am exploding with inspiration and ideas for manga and how to practice them I just didn't bring the materials or have the space or time to do that now...So when I return to America besides my normal studies I will go deep into practicing manga and studying Japanese because neither of them are good enough for me to become an actual mangaka.

The great thing is that it's possible! It feels incredible to have an editor tell you that you can do it and that it's possible and even tell me how to get into it more and guhhdfgndjkgdnkjdgn!! So happyy! TT^TT

My problem now is how will I be able to live in Japan....>3> I am not sure how to find mangaka needing assistants...I think that would be the best way to live in Japan besides the JET program. I think if I can get a good enough mangaka the pay would be a lot better than if I was a mangaka.

I have read about some people who wanted to become mangaka but they got stuck being an assistant to a mangaka forever because they got a lot of money and were comfortable and became friends with everyone working there so they couldn't bring themselves to take the risk of becoming a mangaka.

Not really a worry for me since becoming a mangaka is so big of a goal for me I don't think I could really feel comfortable if I was not one.

I learned mainly that my writing style is too Western.

The two big things that he told me were to make an interesting character ('cause my main character was not interesting at all) and to figure out what I want to say or what the theme is at the beginning. This is the opposite of everything I've learned from my creative writing classes in America. They tell you to make an interesting deep character in an interesting deep world 'cause it'll make it feel more realistic while figuring out the theme as you write it. It cheapens the story if you have the theme right at the beginning and it can sound preachy, but manga is being sold so you have to great readers from the beginning.

Another thing is that, I don't know if this is just Young Jump but the shorter the better and not more than 35 pages. Which is super nice 'cause I thought it had to be 45 pages so I kept adding pages...;orz And then the main climax page is almost always on page 29. That's something that I never noticed before. Another reason why I am happy for this experience. It makes everything so much easier. Before I couldn't wrap my mind around it when I read the manga and I knew something was missing but I didn't know what it was...

So I am going to study manga so more and write out where the climax etc of each scene is etc. Then also practice drawing the pages to see where the story happens and how they show this...though that part is annoying and I have done it before but I don't know if I am should completely copy it or just copy the paneling and expressions etc...Like should I ink it and tone it and everything??

Also I have given up on traditional manga. I can do illustrations traditionally but NO EFFECTS. NO SPEED LINES. NOT AGAIN. THAT WAS HELL. Pretty much what I did the entire week before going to see the editor....and like the few hours right before it as well...;orz It's so freaking time consuming and easy to mess up and I don't want to do it.

Yup so I have a renewed and strengthened love for manga now!

Oh~! You might also be wondering the tiny details of what it was like going inside the bulding etc.

So we started in Shinjuku station and then just went off I think exit A1 if I remember correctly and then we turned left and it was right there across from Tully's.

It was a bit confusing 'cause there was one Shueisha building with manga and mangaposters all over it and another Shueisha building with cubicles and posters of animals and a small photography exhibit. Before we went in we took pictures of eachother next to the sign of the building and this guy with a bunch of manila folders ran inside, probs with a ton of manga, probs an editor.

Then there are security guards surrounding all the corners of the lobby except for the photography exhibit. When we walked inside they stopped us and asked us if we had an appointment which was terrifying 'cause we were like 'are we in the wrong place' but nope we did have an appointment. Then we went up the desk and the person asked for our name and then called the editor and said we were here and we signed some papers and then got tags that said we were guests.

Then we went into one of the closed rooms, not the cubicles, but through the cubicles I could see mangaka talked with their editors...:3

And then we waited and panicked for the guy. I realized that that moment I forgot to put in some dialogue and missed some lines here and there so I did not feel well.

But as soon as he came in he was extremely nice and humble and talked extremely fast and to the point. I was too nervous and forgot what I had originally planned for my manga so when he asked me what I wanted to say with it I was like 'uhmmm...I dunno...' so that part is what I regret...;orz But anyways my manga was very weak and dull which I thought anyways so that didn't really break my spirit at all. What's great is that I knew what was wrong with it I just didn't know how to fix it and now I know~ :3

So yeah then he left and we left and then we went to Ikebukuro and after that I did too much shopping and playing around so am just now writing this...

If you are interested in that bit I will just summarize below:

I went to the pokemon center and bought my friend's souvenirs that she asked for so it was like 10 figurines and 5 keychains but they were all really cheap which was nice. I bought a gardevoir keychain and a sylveon plushie keychain.

Then we went to the large Animate store which was too huge and there was an extremely long line for the cash register...And I bought a Tei keychain, a ghibli pin, and two fire emblem if charms which weren't Leon so I was disappointed. But I kept looking for Evangelion or Chibiusa stuff but I couldn't find any...;orz Apparently all the things I like are extremely old...'cause we tried finding a Dance Evolution or DDR machine in the numerous game centers in Ikebukuro and couldn't find any....;orz

Then we stayed in a manga cafe and I read some Heroine....something something I forgot...It was interesting at first but then turned into Strobo Edge...Where you have the main guy not like the main girl as a twist but then in the end he gets jealous of her dating some other guy and like the main girl again...which I am super confused about because I thought the point was that that wasn't not going to happen and she kept wishing it to happen. Like don't imagine impossible things, but then the manga just changed it's mind.

Then we went to a game center in Shinjuku that did have DDR and Dance Evolution so I played to my hearts content. Then we went to Asakusa and ate some yummy tanuki soba from a restaurant where you could see the guy making it in the entrance window. I bought a tengu mask at Asakusa. It had so much tourist gandering japanese stuff that was trying to hard to be Japanese...but some nice sweets and snacks to buy. But yeah I successfully bought a tengu mask that I always wanted. I just wanted a cheap one that I could pain to something, I just want the base. I tried making one once and that failed so I was determine to buy a plastic tengu mask. I really like tengu masks..:3

Then I went back to Harajuku and splurged on clothes and accessories. Then afterwards we went to Shizuoka where I am not at my friend's house.

We have been playing tons of Splatoon which was really funny during Christmas time 'cause we could tell that kids got Splatoon for christmas since late at night there were random 1 level players appearing along with level 50 players.

I bought some clothes in Shizuoka as well and my friend's sister gave me her jacket which was exactly like one I had wanted and looked for all over Japan but it was always over $40...:/ It's a pretty basic olive green jacket...;orz

I bought lots of souvenirs for my friends and I went to the movie theatres in Japan for the first time to watch Orange~

Which was surprisingly good. I mean good as in not a terrible embarrassment like LDK or Another or some of the other movies I have seen Kento Yamazaki in...I actually cried which surprised me. I also had a cold but I do believe I honestly cried at the end. It's a topic that is hard not to cry about so yeah my defense.

And Kento Yamazaki was top tier gorgeous so that was great and seeing him on a big screen.

I just can't believe that I went to a manga editor, saw the movie version of one of my favourite shoujo manga's with my eye candy playing the lead, and that Bakuman's live action movie is popular in here so I get to hear Sakanaction very often (since it did the theme song for the movie). So happy with my life right now....:3 So happy with Japan right now! XD

Oh! Also I was looking for a souvenir for my brother and wanted to buy him a figurine but they were all really expensive and I couldn't figure out what to buy him but yesterday I went to a used figurine store and found a Guts figurine AND Griffith figurine together for less than $20 so I bought the Guts for my brother and the Griffith for me and omigaw 'tis awesome...<333

I hope people are happy with my souvenirs 'cause I thought a lot about what they might want...;3;

Today was my free day of no plans...I will probably go back to playing animal crossing now...

ADIOS~ (watching Pokemon Victini movie right now...nothing on tv either...;orz it's nice it's in Japanese but...yeah I prefer the Arceus movie which I watched yesterday...;orz TV...)