I am really hurt.
I don't know what has happened.
since a little while ago, I haven't been getting any views on my art. fanart,ecards, anything. not even world posts.
i could say that I am angry, but I am not. I understand my art isn't as good as a lot of people on the Otaku, nor does everyone have free time to come look at it all the time. i get that.
but I am extreamly dissapoited. with myself.
"what is it I have been doing wrong?" i wondered.
but I still don't know.
It just seems like I am giving this all I have, but It is gettig me nowhere at all. the proof is in this post, which i am sure no one is going to even read very sadly.
I considered retireing from the O, but I can't bring myself to do that...i love it too much here, and I love the people.
so I am NOT going to quit.
this just means I have to try even harder, and get everyone to notice my hard work again.
Looked like fun, so I thought I would give this a go! ^^
You should do it too!! Anyone!!! :D
WHAT WAS YOUR:
1. Last beverage: ermmmm….pepsi…heh heh heh
2. Last phone call: my Friend, Becca
3. Last text message: hahah, I don’t text you silly goose!
4. Last song you listened todon’t laugh “seasons of love” on RENT
5. Last time you cried: today, a teacher was telling a story of when he was bullied. I cried. T^T
HAVE YOU EVER:
6. Got back with someone you've broken up with: no’m
7. Been cheated on: no
8. Kissed someone & regretted it: haven’t kissed anyone
9. Lost someone special: yes, it sucks
10. Been depressed: I think everyone has…._.
11. Been drunk and threw up: I have never been drunk, I’m only 15!
LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS:
14. …..purple…..you thought I was going to say red again, didn’t you? XD
THIS YEAR HAVE YOU:
15. Made a new friend: Yuper’s
16. Fallen out of love: that’d be a no
17. Laughed until you cried: manys many times * I love my friends*
18. Met someone who changed you: I suppose
19. Found out who your true friends were: I have for a while now. I know who my friends are
20. Found out someone was talking about you: not in a bad way
21. Kissed anyone on your Facebook friend's list: never been kissed/kissed anyone
22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life? on TheO? On the o, many…I have invited a lot of people to theO
23. How many kids do you want? I guess 2.5 is a good number….yes, 2.5
24. Do you have any pets? Yes, 2 pain in the neck cats…I still love them
25. Do you want to change your name? ….not really….maybe to ZOLTAR or AERITH or something cool like that…(just kidding!! XD)
26. What did you do for your last birthday? Had a bunch of friends over, we watched Final Fantasy and ate a lot of popcorn
27. What time did you wake up today? 5:45 like always, school sucks
28. What were you doing at midnight last night? SLEEPING
29. Name something you cannot wait for: TO get a new tablet!! >///<
30. Last time you saw your Mother: erm…yesterday…
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life….nothing I can think of on the spot
32. What are you listening to right now? Rocket man XD I love the oldies
34. Who is getting on your nerves now? …I dunno….
35. Most visited webpage: TheOtaku, facebook,
36.Whats your real name: Samantha XD
37. Nicknames: Sammi, Sam, Nishikiori
39. Zodiac sign: Capricorn
40. Male or female? I am a girl! ^^
41. Primary School? Yeah, a tiny public school called Wilson
42. Secondary School? Eh? Like high school
43. High school/College? Alpena public school.
44. Hair color: Dark brown
45. Long or short: sorta shortish. Getting longer though
46. Height: tall…erm I am not sure exactly how tall…over 5’7 though
47. Do you have a crush on someone? Not really, I don’t .
48: What do you like about yourself? …my willingness to except myself…I guess. :3
49. Piercings: 1 in each ear. I don’t like overdoing it.
51. Righty or lefty:RIGHTY! :D
52. First surgery: none. :]
53. First piercing: ears
54. First best friend: real life? IN real life, Guin, Becca, Marleigh, Bailey the list is endless
55. First sport you joined: I was in Vollyball….I am so not athletic. XD
56. First vacation: I’m not sure…we went to a waterfall when I was little…maybe there?
57. First pair of trainers: eh?....O-e
58. Eating: nothing
59. Drinking: not-A
60. I'm about to: EAT DINNER
61. Listening to: Clocks by Coldplay
62. Waiting for: ..DINNER (we’re having stew
63. I'm feeling: …relived…we just got done with the MME’s... ughhh standardized tests kill me.
64. Want kids? Sure! It’d make things a bit more fun
65. Get married? Before kids, please.
66. Career: It sounds cliché but something in arts and communication if I can!
67. Lips or eyes: Eyes…I have a thing with eyes…
68. Hugs or kisses: HUGS *pounces on you*
69. Shorter or taller: Taller I suppose…
70. Older or Younger: It doesn’t matter to me.
71. Romantic or spontaneous: ….I love me a romantic man.
72. Nice stomach or nice arms: I don’t care really
73. Sensitive or loud: …a bit of both.
74. Hook-up or relationship: relationships last longer I believe
75. Kissed a stranger: uh, hell no!
76. Drank hard Liquor: …drank hard liquo-….IM 15! No of course not!
77. Lost glasses/contacts: I am glad to say I have not.
78. Sex on first date: had no date!
79. Broken someone's heart: not on purpose, but yeah….*sad face*
80. Been arrested: NO!
81. Turned someone down: yeah~ I am weird that way
82. Cried when someone died: hell yeah. I cry when my CAT dies…
83. Fallen for a friend: no’m
DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
84. Yourself: you better believe it!
85. Love at first sight: *quoting the Beatles* yeah, I’m sure it happens all the time!
86. Heaven: …depends…
87. Santa Claus: not for a loooooonnngg time, buddy
88. Kiss on the first date: it really depends on who
89. Angels: yes. You can believe in angels and not in God.
90. God: , is out there to get me….not necessarily god…but it’s ok if you think there is a God. Don’t let my cynical thinking change your mind!
91. Had more than 1 boyfriend at a time: hhahahahah, no
92. Did you sing today? I’m in choir, singing is kinda my life (and drawing…so much drawing)
93. Did something illegal?: nope…wait…do you count downloading music?
94. If you could go back in time, how far would you go? Probably elementary school. I would try to be nicer to everyone.
95. The moment you would choose to re-live? …a day I yelled at my best friend
96. Are you afraid of falling in love? Not really, I just need to find the right person
97. When was the last time you lied? On here, never, in real life….I don’t remember, but it’s been a while
98. Are you usually late, early or right on time? Unfortunately, late…because I can’t drive myself around yet.
99. Would you give your life to save someone else's? MY FRIENDS…they are all I have! <3
100. Are you afraid of posting this as 100 truths? Hahahaha, no….i doubt anyone will see this anyways~~
Kamichama Karin s
so I finally decided to ask customer support for some help on my viztablet. :)
he sent me back a reply and I got most of my problem solved. it was so easy! >///<
but now it's back to where it was before it died.
it does this (look at the picture...what is wrong with it.*besides that I spent NO time on it)
it constantly draws, so I can't just use it to move the cursor around. blecckkkk!
I hope I get it fixed, so I don't have to buy a new tablet! T^T
i leave you wih that horrid WTF picture.
:) have a good one!
today, was finals in 2 of my classes...
a whole day spent getting ready for tests...and I have to do it again tomorow.
i am sitting in computer class... I finished my final on ExamView Player. and I am glad that is over with.
i hate math, and for some reason, about 1/3 of our final in computer class was math...(why?!?!?!?!?!)
so now I'm afraid, i KA-BLEW it...*sniffle*
i am going to go draw somehting....get my mind off all this...yuck.
well, on to the last trimester!! *like semesters, only longer*
*STUPID FOUNTAIN PEN, WHY YOU NO WORK FOR SAMMI?!!*
(i want to throw my fountain pen now...)
wish me luck, and pray for a snowday for us tomorow so I can cram!!!
that is just like me...i hate tests.
heh heh heh...poor school computers...:) *evil grin*