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- Created By Mitengu
I know it's a bit late to wish you all the best in 2011, but better late than never! 2010 was a rocky year, both personally and artistically.
All my artistic endeavors were a mixture of sudden leaps and plateaus of inactivity. The worst bit was probably October-November, when a series of blasts from the past came to undermine everything in my life.
The first visit was a childhood friend visiting London - it was very strange to hang out with someone you haven't seen in 12 years, to say the least. This experience made me feel out of touch with my roots.
The second visit, was my first love. To cut a long story short, I left my country just to get away from her (I thought that would be the end of it, but how wrong I was!!!!). She keeps reappearing in my life every 2-3 years, kinda like Jason. I thought I was prepared to meet her, but that was like trying to catch a meteor with a baseball glove. Fail.
After all that crap, I had a great Christmas break: enjoyed the snow, I had a great time w/ my friends and significant other, joined a Gym/Swimming Pool and set my goals for 2011.
January has gone really fast, but it's been a prolific month. My only wish is that things went a bit better w/ my band and that I could start finding real opportunities that would lead me somewhere...
Good luck to you all!!
A few days ago I typed a journal in DeviantART mentioning that I needed a break and that I had put the sketchbook away for a while. I'm three days into my decision and I feel really weird.
To make a long story short, I have spent the last two month feverishly sketching anything that dawned on me or captured my eye. This outpour of creativity slowly became an obsession that strained everything in my life. I was sleeping 3-4 hours a night, cancelled several meetings with friends, missed two concerts I completely forgot about, etc. The ironic thing is that it even ruined the quality of my work, because I kept rushing in order to move on faster to the next piece. I was falling asleep everywhere, even watching movies in the cinema.
I realized what was happenning when I found unopened bills from last month. I looked around at my flat and witnessed the mess...I sat for a minute and decided to stop Illustration altogether, at least for a month.
I felt relieved at first when I posted the journal, but now I'm feeling a bit strange, like this big chunk of my life is missing. I feel like I am fooling myself, because I don't know if I can be called an Artist, but I have a strong compulsion to create and customize the world around me. Not doing this and accepting what's around me as it is makes me feel oppressed.
Anyways, thanks for reading. I hope I can find a balance between living and producing.
I'll be back in 3 days or so to let you guys know how I'm getting on. If you guys have ever had anything like this, please feel free to share your experiences.
This post is titled "Absence"; not only because of my absence from The Otaku, but also because of the absence of colour from my life recently. I feel that the months are passing by, the days in a calendar are burning away into forgettable smoke and there is nothing worthy of record. I am really sure that 2009 will end and will become a forgettable year, at a personal level.
Things at work have been repetitive and uninspiring: but we're forced by the economic situation to thank for this unprofitable, boring donation of time and effort.
Art-wise, I find myself wanting to break away from the conventions of my own work. I am proud of what I've done so far, but I feel my hands and creativity could give more. I almost gave up on traditional methods for digital, but my brother rescued me from the abbyss! I'm finding gallery nights unproductive: I have one coming up, but out of a sense of futility, I chose to display only one piece.
I'm slowly discovering that opportunities in London are almost all a scam...is there anything out there worth fighting for?! While I look for answers I will cocoon in a corner, sketching away...looking for the colours that are missing in this piece called 2009.
Take care, and sorry for the blast!
Welcome to The Cave!! I'm still learning how to use this, but I'm liking it already! Please have a bit of patience while I learn how to use it, I've seen some really cool worlds out there and I would love to learn.