Deepening Call [Poem]

Sinking into my heart
It slices through and then it starts
It deepens, and it sickens me
When it's really the skies
deep in your eyes I want to see

Sinking into the dark abyss, it swallows all the light
Blurring all the good days, out of sight
Forgiveness is not free, even for as far as you can see
It is earned, and therefore deepens in
Refusing to leave, and grows like a treacherous sin

Sometimes life can be rewarding
But not when it's our past you're regarding
It's like speaking to an open field
Where it echoes back, and suddenly breaks your shield
It's unexpected, I know, but it's what you predicted

That when it deepens, the forgiveness in my heart
A chasm of reality splits open and then it restarts
Letting it sink in and deepen, and I just let it seep on in
Meanwhile I'm staring forward, where you are frozen behind me

Ahead of you is that sin, a broken shield
On a new path you will find,
that everything about you is revealed
And there's nothing you can do,
when everyone's calling you

That slice deepens in our hearts,
and we both feel
A stinging sense of forgiveness,
that we thought would never come

As if a demon would come and steal,
but we both used our shields
And defended our hearts with all our lives
As it deepened, that forgiveness...
while everyone is calling you.

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