Included: Lux, Tanner, Estelle, Xio, Mist, Chandacy, Shupple, Rai, Glyph, and Nyarth with mentions of Arc and Kiki.
What’s your favorite color? Mine? It’s relatively obvious. My favorite color is blue. However, my least favorite color is red. Yes, they are opposites, a cool color versus a warm color. Don’t get me wrong, I am not bothered by the color red at all, I realize I have red marks under my eyes and a tad bit of it on my clothing. That isn’t what bothers me, when it comes to red; the only thing about that color that irks me is blood.
Red is used as a symbol of guilt, sin, passion, and anger, often as connected with blood or sex when we talk about the color. The color red is also associated with lust, love, beauty, and danger. This can be defined by desires we gijinkas have. Estelle, she is my red. The association with love and beauty is related to red roses, a symbol of love, but also the courage one has to sacrifice something…
Red, I believe shows its most ugliest appearance when in the form of a liquid. Blood. I admittedly have killed before; I have taken the lives of 10 men in my past. I don’t brag about this because I am not happy to admit it. If red symbolizes those things, then those words define me. I feel guilt for the men I killed, I sinned, yet I have a passion to make things better in life, but I am also very easily angered when it comes to the people I love. Yes, I am perverted and sexually frustrated, I adore women and yet can be a danger to others. I would sacrifice anything to keep others happy.
Red. That blasted color that now taints me, it cost me everything. I remember it so well in my past from the bodies along the ground after our village’s festival. Everyone was dead, my parents included. Is there anyway around that color? Without much speculation, there is not.
My heart hurts even as I speak about such a topic, the color red, it truly is a despicable color, and now my red, it shows the ugly side of me.
“Of course, it doesn’t make any sense of how you’re so smart and yet, you weren’t able to protect Estelle when you two were kids, right? Love at first sight! I wonder what that’s like! But then again, you’re parents weren’t there to help you, huh? They’re dead. So what difference would that-” Roland spat, but enough was enough as I punched my fist into his stomach.
After that statement, I snapped. I didn’t want to hear anymore and he surely was going to pay for his stupidity and cocky ass mouth. I can’t entirely explain what happened because what took over were the emotions I hadn’t let out in a very long time. All I wanted to do, humph, was to break every bone in his body. All 206 of them. I….I…I was going to kill that son-of-a-bitch.
The whole thought of killing him, it actually did not phase me on how crude that was but I was in the heat of the moment. My disease was also my power, King’s Disease, at one point I too had another being inside but it was destroyed, but even now, I could feel a small presence of that within me.
His mouth moved but I heard nothing, but from what I could read, he was telling me he was merely joking. Ha. The joke was on him now, I was not in a laughing mood, let’s see how amused you are when I break your leg.
Gripping my claws around his leg and slamming him into the ground I heard the snap of a few bones. Oh ho, there went his Tibia and Fibula. Hell I hope your gastronemius was torn. My eyes were lighted up as the shrill of him in pain and his scream, now lets have my knuckles break that big mouth of yours.
Haha, there was no more noise now with that dislocated jaw of his. It was a better look. Now time to die. Yes die you bastard. I’m going to make you suffer just like I did when I lost Estelle, the day I lost my family. I am going to show you what real fear was. Kill him. Kill him. Make him pay. Bleed. Make him bleed. Break every bone in his goddamn body! Ha ha ha….
You want some goddamn thunder you bitch take it!
I electrocuted him by his hair then letting him feel the power of lightning. This was the wrath of a lion. His screams, oh so pathetic. Roland had a big mouth but couldn’t back his shit up.
Letting go of his now fried dreadlocks, which looked more like French fries, I let him drop down to the ground. I startled him as I mercilessly began to pummel him with my fist in his face, one after the other. This will be his grave, with every punch Roland was being forced into the ground from the power of my fists. I won’t hold back, I refuse. I’ll kill him. No mercy for this weed, none. I will break every fucking bone in his face. I don’t give a rattata’s ass that my knuckles are bleeding. He needed to put his money where his mouth is, and this was his red. Indeed it was, blood splatter everyone, a plastic surgery fail of a face, and the knowledge to know this person was no more then trash. I hated him, I refuse to let him touch her. I’ll kill him. I am going to make your face unrecognizable. Why are you smiling? I will whip that stupid smile off your ugly face right now. How do you like it with ever punch I give you? Does it hurt? Huh? HUH? You bastard! I’ll-
“Lux-kun!! Tanner!!! STOP IT!”
A set of claws was holding my hand that was about to punch Roland once again. “Come on, Luxy-Boy!” I hate that name. Turning to face the next victim I used discharge on him throwing the other man back as you could hear the dirt pick up behind him as he slide against it. The look on his face surely showed he was a bit taken from my power.
“Lux! STOP IT NOW!” I blinked, it….it was Estelle’s voice. I slowly turned to see her running over to Tanner. “Tanner!! Tanner!!” Quickly I was dragged away by that man once again in a headlock.
Why? Why is she going to him? Of all people, the one that tried to force himself onto her, the one who tried to rape her, and the one who came after me. Why? I don’t get it.
“Hmph, well well. I see your King’s Disease is mighty powerful Luxy-Boy.” I heard from behind me, it was evident now, that voice belonged to Xio. “Not as strong as I am of course, but what you did to the over grown houseplant, I’ll even admit, I never thought you had it in you, well actually, it’s all over you…”
He was standing next to me with a frown. His eyes cold as ever, but I didn’t fully comprehend what he meant until I lifted my hands up. Red. They were covered in blood, dripping that blasted color. It wasn’t just on my hands, my clothes were stained the color of blood and it was in my hair, splattered on my face, and my nails had his skin tissues underneath them. How? How could this happened?
“W-what have I done?” I was shaken up from my fear. I had just committed such a vile act. How could I?
“Isn’t it obvious idiot? Estelle saw you fighting with Tanner and asked me to help you since you didn’t seem to be yourself. I suppose I was the most powerful to at least stop one of your punches before you landed the finishing blow to Tanner.” Xio exclaimed as he turned to look at Estelle and Tanner.
“No…I…No….” I can’t handle this. I can’t handle being covered in so much blood…I…I need to go, NOW! I bolted off from the scene.
“Hey wait!” I heard Xio yell but I was already rushing into the mansion.
I see why now, why she went to him. She has always had a soft spot for chumps in her heart, and he was the one who couldn’t defend himself against me. She was like all the rest of them, including Hoom. When I opened myself up to them, they either used me and then gave my hopes up leading me on to think they actually cared about me. No, she didn’t care about me, not that way, nor will I ever have her now. My chances….every single one of them, were gone.
“Huff huff huff…” I panted and I ran through the halls. I needed to get out of these clothes, get this blood off me. Oh my god it was disgusting.
Running up the steps, the ghosts came out of the walls laughing from whatever they were doing. I continued to run up the stares when Shupple’s eyes met mine. My marks were gone, but my eyes hadn’t reverted back yet but when she saw the blood drenched Luxray before her, those red eyes met mine, I merely looked away and ran by her. There was no way I could face her like this.
“What the?” Mist asked shaken from the site.
“Was that blood?” Chandacy questioned as their voices lingered through the hall.
The boys area was poorly lit, not sure why but as I approached my room in the darkness I ran into a body, “UMPH!”
No more, please no more. I need to leave. “Ow ow ow! Sorry about that!” It was Rai.
“Come on Rai-Rai you need to be more careful then that!” Glyph was with him.
He saw my side from the shadows and realized it was me, “Oh Lux! Glyph and I were just looking for you. We just got done talking to Nyarth about going to the park and wanted to know if you wanted to j-“
His words froze as I stood up covered in this disgusting liquid. His eyes looked horrified.
“What the heck? Did you get in a fight Luxy?” Glyph questioned but I quickly dashed beside him.
“Out of my way!” No more interferences.
“Hey wait Lux!” I heard Rai scream.
“LEAVE ME ALONE!” I roared back slamming my door behind me. I can’t handle it, I am going nuts. I need to shower and get this blasted stench, his horrible blood off of me.
-In the Shower-
Hunched over as the warm sprinkle from the shower cap above me, I watched the red dyed water go down the drain. It was never ending, I couldn’t get his blasted blood of me. Why wouldn’t it go away? I could tell his blood from the little amount that I had. My own body was aching from the blows I took before I went on him. Scar tissue was already on the knuckles of my hands. From the looks of it, I beat him all the way down to my very own bone. As water touched it, it stung like hell. There was just so much it made me sick. Even as I stumbled out of the bathroom, I found myself vomiting in the toilet from disgust. Too much blood for my own tastes. I hate it.
-In the Bedroom-
Whipping the towel over my head as I was partially dressed I sat on my bed drying my hair and trying to reminisce on the events that happened earlier. Apparently, Estelle went to Tanner and told her what I said which bothered him obviously and his rage took over and Roland being the jackass that he is, took over. Everything after that was self-explanatory. However, after everything he did to her, why did she go to him first? Never mind, you know the answer to that…
My ears wiggled at the sound of the door opening and the scent of the being entering I needn’t look up to see who it was.
“Did you get what I asked?” I spoke softly to them but still very direct as they approached me as I tossed the wet towel on the floor at my feet.
“Of course I did, you should know better then that…” They told me with as they extended a piece of paper to me. “I have connections…”
“Precisely why I asked you.” I grinned as I grabbed that note out of their hand and scanned the information. “Looks legit, I underestimated you. If you excuse me I need to get moving then.”
“Of course, don’t let me get in your way.” I heard them scoff under their breath as they left me to pack up and finish getting ready.
-Around 10 pm at Night-
It was quiet in the mansion and dark, the perfect time to leave without anyone noticing you were gone. Would anyone miss me? At this point I really didn’t care. Yet guilt remained planted in the back of my mine so I figured this time I would check to see how that weed was doing. When I got to his room, he was lying in bed as I peeked my head in. I assume that Xio must have carried him there.
Great…Estelle was here too. Shit she hadn’t left his side for all these hours had she? Made me sick really.
“He’s in stable condition but his wounds seem to be heeling at a decent rate from whatever is inside him.” She told me as I walked up to the bed.
That urge inside me was building up as I looked down at him in the bed. “I see.” I still wanted to kill him, this was touchy, I hated Roland and wish I could kill him without doing harm to Tanner but that logically wasn’t possible.
“Umm…ano…can we talk?” I heard her whisper breaking my dark and serious thoughts.
“There is nothing to talk about Estelle.” I hadn’t the desire nor the patience to talk about it.
“Yes there is, we need to talk about what happened earlier. I want to know why you had to do that to poor Tanner.” She placed her hand on my chest. “I’ll listen.”
“Poor? You honestly think he is the victim?” My eyes widen from how dense she was. Did she not realize this entire fight only happened because of Roland’s tactics and comments about her and I? “If anyone was the victim it was y-“ I sighed, “Never mind, all you need to know is there was a quarrel and I merely defended myself from his attacks. I suppose I justified my actions by beating him this way.”
“That doesn’t give you the right to do that.” She exclaimed. “Looking at you and him, of course you have the upper hand, Tanner was not himself and you took advantage of that and did this to him.”
“What the hell are you saying Estelle? I can’t believe this, you are taking his side.” She was sticking up for him, that bastard.
“I’m not taking his side at all Lux-kun!”
“Enough!” I grabbed my head, it was throbbing, why? Why was my heart hurting so bad? It was exactly the same feeling when she once erased her memories of me because of Hoom. It felt like my heart was breaking again. I could taste a bitterness. “Listen to yourself, you are siding with him and coming up with your own accusations to protect him when you don’t even know what happened!”
“Then what happened?” She took a step closer and I took a quick step back. I didn’t want her to touch me, not right now and not with him only a few feet away.
“Why does it matter? Even if I told you,” I shook my head, there was no reason to explain myself to her. The evidence was before me now, the choice was clear. “It wouldn’t change how you went to him and not me. Not once did you come to me. To check up on me! To ask me if I was okay. NOT ONCE ESTELLE-CHAN!”
My own tears were rolling down my cheeks, I didn’t want her to see me this way. But these water works were beyond my control now.
Her eyes were soft and she too looked as if she wanted to cry. I saw her small hand reach out to me but then she pulled back holding it against her chest. “I’m sorry Lux-kun….I…I forgot…”
I forgot…I forgot…I forgot…
It kept repeating in my mind, it was a bad omen. It was the same, used by those and then forgotten by them later on. No one truly cared about you, you had one thing, your education working for you. That’s why people flocked to you, but because I was naïve I thought these people were my friends, and through time I learned the hard way. I kept to myself as a kid, even after the incident with my village, I never came to grips with it and never opened my heart up to anyone. That was until I met her.
Estelle was the one I did, and even though it was a short period of time, it was worth it. I lost my memories not by choice. Even when I met my Master of Lightning, the Legendary Raikou, I only let him in to certain points. As I aged, women seemed to be all the same as the nerdy ugly Shinx grew into a preppy jock of a Luxray. Women flocked to me, yet I wasn’t happy with the attention. Once I met Hoom, I thought things were different, sadly that too ended with my heart breaking and losing a best friend. I will never forget.
“Y-you forgot?” I asked a bit more angered then anything. She caught her self and realized she didn’t mean to say it the way it came out. My heart….it was broken…
“I didn’t mean it that way,” She waved her hands as I glared at her. “I’m…just…”
“It’s fine. You needn’t bother about me anyway.” I took a few steps and placed both of my hands on her tense shoulders. “I know now where your heart belongs, so, there isn’t anything I can do about it. I have to just accept it.”
‘But Lux-kun!” She exclaimed but I continued.
“No need to justify yourself, Estelle-chan…” Why was I saying this? That was only something I called her as a child, maybe I was only saying it because of all the flash backs I was having of us as children at this very moment. “If he is the one you choose, I will except it. Just know this,” I leaned forward and had my nose against hers looking into her beautiful gentle eyes. I was sincere with what I was going to say, “I had always wanted to make you my flower bride…………….sorry…”
I chopped my hand quickly on the back of her neck. Her eyes quickly lost color as she fell into my arms from being knocked out. There wasn’t anything else I wanted to say to her.
Placing her on a nearby chair and covering her up I walked over to Tanner who was still in his coma state. My claws extended as I placed them at his neck and slowly dug them into his skin.
“Tch, just the thought of two of you in there is disturbing. I don’t know if you can hear me or not. I practically don’t care either way, however, if I hear that you tried anything with Estelle again, I will make sure these claws slit your throat next time.” I pulled away and walked off towards the door, I may have won the battle, but he had won Estelle.
-Near the main entrance-
A small backpack with a few things in it was all that I needed. Now I was only awaiting a certain someone to see me off, because I knew she would come. I waited not to long because I was able to sense her presence as I heard her run down the steps and towards the door. I looked up and saw her sad eyes as she ran into my arms and we embraced.
“I haven’t been able to find you at all. Where have you been?” She asked cuddling into my chest as I stroked her hair.
“I’ve been here and there.” I gave a slight chuckled, but it wasn’t very convincing.
“What happened?” She pushed herself off me and gave me a stern look, “W-why were you covered in blood? Better yet, why were you covered in Tanner’s blood?”
“I think you already know the answer to that Shupple, I know you aren’t dumb so I am not going to patronize you.” I crossed my arms and watched her.
“It wasn’t Tanner you were fighting, it was Roland. What did he say?”
I began to give her a brief understanding of what went down and how Roland got at me. It was him who attacked me first and tempted me to fight him, it wasn’t by choice but after him mocking my dead family, it was only natural for me to snap. She said nothing as I explained what happened and once I was finished, the most shocking thing happened.
“I don’t blame you Lux, if Roland said that about my family, I probably would have done the same….” She rubbed the back of her head and gave a half smile, “I actually have since Shift mocked my family at the festival.”
I patted her head gently, “Well that’s a relief to hear.”
Then she pointed at my bag on my back, “Then explain why you have a backpack? Are you leaving?”
“I am.” It was the honest to god truth.
“No…” Her hand grabbed mine as she pulled close to me, “You can’t…please Lux no…I can’t lose you too…I already lost Arc….I feel like I have lost a part of Tanner with this Roland situation, but this…it will break me Lux if you leave….please don’t go…”
“Nothing you say will change my mind my dear Shupple.” I said whipping away her tears.
“No no no! Oh god no….please…I can’t handle any more heart ache.”
“I know…that is why I am leaving…”
She blinked and looked at me confused, “I don’t think I am following you Lux.”
“Do you remember when I told you that I loved you and I would do anything to make you smile?” I held both of her hands with mind in front of our bodies. She sniffed and nodded her head. “Well babe, I need time….time to figure out who I am now since after that fight, I am lost. The only way I can figure myself out is to leave, to become stronger, and to mature more. However, I have always regretted not going after someone, I already lost one best friend and I can’t loose another.” I kissed her cheek softly, “I promise you Shupple, I may be gone for awhile, but I will drag that mutt of a boyfriend back for you. When I return, I will be stronger, and I will come back with Arc. Until then, you aren’t allowed to cry. You got that?”
“But” I put my finger to her lips.
“No buts, I PROMISE, I will come back to you…” I opened my backpack and took out my old collar. I was wearing the one Estelle gave me, maybe just as comfort. Examining my old collar, I took off the lightning charm and approached Shupple. Gently I took her necklace off that she had on and placed the charm onto it and put it back on her. I smiled and rubbed my chin, “Looks good on you. That’s my promise that I will come back, plus you will always have a small piece of me with you at all times.”
“NOOOOOOOO ONII-CHAN YOU CAN’T LEAVE-NYA!”
Both Shupple and I quickly turned to the stop of the steps and saw Nyarth hanging over the top railing. How long he was up there, I had no idea but apparently he knew I was leaving. But regardless, WHAT THE FUCK WAS HE DOING!?!?! He as standing on the top railing and jumped off towards Shupple and I, without any hesitation I went to catch up and with the force of his jump I fell backwards but lucky for me, Shupple quickly used a shadow sneak to hold me up as I caught my balance and put him down.
“Nyarth what in the world were you doing?” Shupple asked as she kneeled beside him as he whipped the tears from his eyes.
“I..hic..heard that…sniff…that Lux was going to leave…hic…and I was trying to stop him…”
“Awww Nyarth, I am not leaving for good, only temporary.”
“It’s because of Estelle isn’t it-nya?” His were still flowing with tears but he was serious as he looked at me.
“Partially, yes that is the reason, however, Shupple needs me to find Arc and I am the only one that can do it.” I told him gently petting him. But he wasn’t convinced, “Here can you do me a favor?” I asked him taking my gloves off.
“Sure.” He sniffed trying to put on a brave face. Shupple merely watched as I handed over my gloves to Nyarth.
“Hold on to these while I am gone. I want you to wear them. They are bit big but you see right here, the elastic, make it tight around your wrists and they will fit just fine. Every cat needs one. Can I count on you to do that?”
“Nya! Of course!” He finally stopped crying and gave me a hug. “But you promise you will come back?”
“You bet your catnip I will.” I laughed. “Just protect the mansion sport, I am counting on you.” I kneeled down to his level and slipped something into his shirt pocket and whispered to him, “Also, I want you to give this to Estelle when you think the time is right. Do not open it. It ‘s a big responsibility but I am trusting you to relay this to her when you think its time.”
He wrapped an arm around my neck and whispered back, “You can count on me onii-chan!”
“What are you boys talking about? You know I don’t like secrets!” Shupple pointed out.
Both Nyarth and I chuckled a little bit, “We were merely talking about boy things, nothing you should concern your pretty little face about.”
“Can you really bring him back? And also what about you? You heart is broken, I am not blind.” I knew you weren’t Shupple.
“Time heals all things Shupple, you know that. And yes, I don’t break my promises.” I opened the door and took a few steps outside. “I’ll see you both soon.”
Nyarth shook his head and stood military stiff as he saluted me off, “Be safe Onii-chan! I won’t let you down-nya!”
‘Take care Lux especially at this hour.” Shupple said gently.
“This is the perfect time for me to move, my eyes are perfect at night, you should know that. I can see threw anything!” I smirked as my eyes glowed a golden light. Then I looked at her chest. She quickly gasped and gave me a half smile as I chuckled, “Later then…”
The door shut behind me as I left the mansion.
The sky was clear, perfect for me to prowl among the land and find Arc. The stars were shinning, a full moon, and a crisp breeze. I couldn’t ask for more.
“You really are going through with it.” I heard a voice from afar standing against the tree. The same person who gave me my information from earlier.
“Indeed, I just can’t fathom what type of trouble this place will be in while I am gone….Xio.” I muttered walking up to him.
“They are in no trouble at all, I don’t know what you are talking about.” Xio shrugged.
“Oh please, you can say all you want but I know better. A prince with dark motives, how long are you going to keep that act up? Kiki will figure you out sooner or later…” I told him.
“Hopefully later.” He assured me with that cocky grin.
“You are royalty, the worse kind, the kind that should be feared. Yet you don’t even look like a prince. Strange how that worked.” I said standing before him. “I suppose we are all just your pawns anyway.”
“Oh very good Luxy-boy! I am impressed.” He clapped, “That is only half right, the other part is you are my king and until you return I can’t further my plans. You were are merely a poor peasant in our village, remember that.”
“I see.” If it was anything like the way he treated me as a kid, I don’t look forward to returning. He has a sick sense of humor.
“Regardless of my game of chess, the time isn’t right yet. My queen Kiki is even more deeper as pawn now then she was before.”
“So she is your girlfriend now? Don’t break her heart .”
“Don’t get so soft Lux, that’s why your relationships have failed.”
I bit my lip, even though I hated him saying that, it was true.
“Did I hit a nerve? My apologies…”
He walked up to me and stood to my left side looking back at the mansion as I kept my gaze on the forest ahead of me. “You do realize you owe me for that information you wanted on Lilly’s were abouts.”
“When you come back, I expect to be repaid. However, let me give you a piece of advice regardless of how you feel towards me. As one Luxray to another, the folks you are dealing with are just as bloodthirsty as I am. You are smart, keep that in mind Luxy-boy. I don’t need you dying before I have that pleasure.”
“Of course Xio, I wouldn’t dream of it. Besides you are going to die by my claws anyway. Besides, I have what you are looking for anyway…about Lydia that is.” I turned to look at him who was already given me that devilish smile.
“Good, well then have some fun at the god-forsaken hell hole you are going into. By foot it will take you a few weeks to get there, but knowing your stamina, probably less.” He said to me. Even though he was an ass, I knew he meant what he said. He may lie, but Xio wouldn’t let a potential candidate for an amazing fight get away that easily. His connections were deep, and I knew that.
“Yeah and I will bring you a gift from your homeland…” I heard him scoff from my remark. I crouched down and quickly used extreme speed and took off into the night.
I knew the directions to where I was going were legitimate. I could trust in Xio this time, because I had what he wanted and if I were to die, then his entire plan would back fire.
Estelle will move on with Tanner once I was gone, I was certain of that. Shupple will need to be strong emotionally. Nyarth will physically need to get stronger with time and he was my eyes and ears of the mansion when I am away. Xio, though I didn’t trust him, I knew if anything were to come and cause havoc for the gjinkas there, he would certainly step in, now more then ever if he was in a relationship with Kiki.
I was now on my way to drag the mutt back. I was going to bring Arc back no matter what. I regretted now going after Gil the last time, I won’t let it happen again.
Jumping over trees, running across the grasslands, and splashing the water as I trampled among the rocks, I ventured into a new journey.
Everything was being left behind at the mansion, everything. The love, the emotions, the passion, the sacrifice, the hopes and dreams, and the blood were all behind me…yes…I needn’t worry anymore I had a new mission and once I returned, I would be a new me. Good bye….red…
OMG FREAKING god! 13 F-ing pages!! I DEMAND COMMENTS xD
Okay so if you are wondering, yes Lux is gone now. He isn’t coming back until later when Arc arrives so don’t expect any updates from Lux in the nearby future. He is on vacation.
So much drama, so much emotion, the highs the lows. I hope I kept you interested and at the edge of your seat! Gosh I am so tired from typing this! Oh well I think this came out great.
Yes I am sad that Lux won’t be in plots anymore but that just is because someone new is joining for a bit.
Please tell me what you think! :)