Angel and Demon

Angel and Demon

Does everyone have someone that
They consider their Angel? I use to.
I don’t believe I have that angel anymore.
He’s gone, but he was close to me and I kept him close to my heart.
Until a demon took his place because I was in pain.

This demon doesn’t have a name.
He lives within me, and I know he’s there.
I wish I knew this demons name.
But he keeps his name a secret from me.
He’s the darkness that I want to avoid.
But he’s there and there’s nothing that I can do.

My angel is gone and now is replaced by a demon
Who isn’t the same person that I wish him to be.
I sleep in my bed haunted by
Nightmares that I don’t wish to dream about
But what can I do? This demon is in me.
No, I cant do anything about this demon
This demon makes me wake and scream as
Unwanted nightmares invade my dreams.

If there was only a way I could get rid of this demon
But what can I do when he lives inside me
Clouds my mind with anger and
Causes me to lash out at my friends with anger
I weep each time I see the person who was once my angel but is no longer.
He calls to me, but I don’t hear him because
My demon plugs my ears and makes me deaf.

When will this demon leave?!
Will he leave when I have cast everyone
I love from my life? Or will it torment me
Forever and never let me free of its grasp.
The demon laughs when I scream
At myself for being angry with my friends
When it is not their fault. I let myself fall to
The darkness of this demon. I look for the
Light in the darkness and find none.
I weep as the demon tells me it is no use.

Yet I lash out at my demon with the anger
That I gave to my friends and curse him
And his kind for turning against everyone I love.
Soon I realize that this demon isn’t real.

I curse my self as I soon realize that
The Demon was formed by my own
Hatred and sadness. Yet I continue to feed
This Demon that I have created within me.
Soon I also realize there is no way I can
Rid myself of this Demon. Because…..

I am the Demon.

End