EEEP finally!!! XDDDD sorry to take so long haha hope you enjoy!
Included: Hon, Lunette, Gil, Shupple, Raine and Lux...mentions of Estelle
Time: Around the time Gil met Lunette...the day that lux passed out , the next day when he wake up and finally when shupple wake up after being comforted by Lux?? (hope that had sense cause I had a lot of confusion hahahaha)
-Hoom
As I kept walking slowly without any direction in particular, thinking that finding Gil was going to be impossible, I began to feel weak and miserable again; the rain was doing its work and since my state wasn’t probably the best one, my movements became slower than before. Of course the miserable feeling came from the events of that day, my mind was a mess and I was a mess and now Lux probably was going to truly throw me away and Gil was leaving.
Those were big things to think about and so at first, I thought it was a trick of my mind but seconds later, my nose confirmed that it wasn’t wrong; Gil was somewhere around my location. I kept walking without feeling anything, because, I was confused to feel either happy for finding him….or depressed for finding him before he left. My body stopped in front of a café and then my eyes turned to saw him and analyze the situation; for a moment it was like if nothing had happened before that day; of course the dirty clothes and the fact he was hurt told you the truth; however Gil was talking peacefully with a pretty Lumineon gijinka and my first reaction was to leave them alone hoping I was going to have the chance to talk to him later; but at the same time the other part of my mind told me this was going to be my only chance and if he truly was leaving then it was going to be the last time I saw him….and I really needed for him to tell me that things were going to be fine. I kept like an idiot, still getting wet by the rain and looking through the window until the Lumineon noticed me, making my friend to turn and face me; the moment that happened, the moment a new lump in my throat appeared; but still I had to try and act as normal as possible.
“Am I interrupting something?” Great, now the lump was evident and seeing Gil act that normally made me feel worse.
“This is Lunette, she is an old friend of mine and I had the privilege to found her today…What is the matter? Are you feeling better?” Do you think my face is the one of someone who is feeling better? Can we please talk? I wanted to tell him that but couldn’t, instead, I introduced myself to the other gijinka, again with a weird voice; at the end I learned her name was Lunette but it was something secondary and if my friend wasn’t going to talk then, I had to be the one letting him know what the problem was about.
“Are you truly leaving the mansion Gil?” And the simple fact of pronouncing those words made the lump almost explode, my eyes began to feel teary again and as soon as Gil noticed that he acted.
“Lun dear would you excuse us for a moment?”
I was taken outside, fortunately not entirely under the rain or to finish things, I would faint or something in the spot; well at least the rain was stopping and fortunately there wasn’t going to be any soon sun.
“Hoom…I ”
“You can’t leave!” Great! I couldn’t control my speech either and was being impulsive again, I truly wanted to be eaten by the earth and slowly disappear, but yes, it wasn’t going to happen.
“Oi, you should stop crying or else you would look like a monster tomorrow, besides look at you, you are all wet; what where you doing? Standing in the rain for fun?” I kept in silence looking at the floor because he wasn’t entirely wrong and was right with my aspect; I guess I was proving how much a gijinka could cry. He sighed then continued talking, something told me that if I tried doing so, the lump would explode even harder so, better not to do it, if it wasn’t necessary. “You know I hate to see you crying so please stop…all right?” His fingers began to softly clean my tears away at the same time that I tried my best effort to calm down.
“That’s better…Now did you return to the hospital?”
“I returned to see how everything went between you two but a nurse told me you left the hospital so…I came looking for you…”
“I will be honest Hoom, for a moment I thought I was really going to kill that idiot, but at the end I was able to tell him what I wanted and-“
“…said you were going to leave the mansion…” There was a silence between us that simply told me, he was really going to do it. Several thoughts wanted to come to my head but something stopped them, trying to focus on the present and not in the future changes; still I avoided eye contact.
“Hoom, let’s talk about that sometime soon ok?” sometime soon? Then that meant I still had some days or at least one day more to spend with him and trying to convince him to stay? For a moment future seemed brighter until he continued “Right now I think you should probably go to talk to that idiot…” At that time my eyes turned instantly to his as a shiver went through my body not sure why though; maybe because of fear? Yes it was fear, not for what Lux could do to me but what things was he going to say; I was scared that I had truly lose him that time….
“I think I’m not totally prepared to face him right now; I mean what if everything turns to the worst Gil?”
“Then he wasn’t meant for you and you can escape with me” He chuckled but as he noticed I wasn’t doing the same he became serious again “Hoom, believe me, things are going to turn the best way; that guy loves you so much and you too love him that way, so what is your fear Dear?” His warm eyes made me feel better, and then his words made some sense giving me strength to continue.
“fine…I promise you I’m going to talk with him, but not today, I don’t think I’m fully prepared to do that” without knowing it, the lump began to slowly decrease and the current situation wasn’t the best, I knew that, but at least trying to see that the present event was good, well it made me feel better somehow.
“I’m glad to see the real Hoomy coming back, now come here” Gil said hugging me tight and making me feel even better, so I returned the hug, letting a little smile out of me. “Ok, now why don’t you return to the mansion and rest to prepare for tomorrow?”
“I don’t want to return to the mansion” I said automatically, seeing his surprised face “I don’t want to answer questions of anybody….that won’t let me have time to think.” The last part was added because the truth was that returning to the mansion would be pretty uncomfortable for me, not sure why but I simply didn’t want.
“Then why don’t you try to find a hotel or something? You will have more options in the town near the mansion-”
“I want to stay in this town” The simply idea of extending the distance between Lux and me made me uneasy; I wasn’t prepare to be at the hospital with him but I too didn’t want to left the town…really I was a mess, but at least Gil knew what I was talking about as he chuckled.
“Fine fine, I understand…”
“Umm, sweetie….I don’t have any money right now…I kinda left the mansion in a rush” And then he laughed making me feel really embarrassed as he messed my hair and gave me money.
“You’re the best Gil…”
“I already know that” He smirked messing around
“Thank you! And good luck with Lunette….” He looked at me confused “…you are acting different towards her and since you already know each other then…I’ll be waiting for the details” I let another smile, hugged him and left calmly.
Somehow I felt lighter and fortunately the feeling continued as I returned to the hospital for my brother; for a moment, Lux’s room seemed so near but again, my body was paralyzed and just when I managed to control it and turned to search for Hon, he wasn’t there. Where was he? Definitely searching for him was not my first option, so I was happy when I felt a familiar hug from behind.
"I know you been threw alot big sis but I need to go back to the mansion. If anything is wrong just call me." I couldn’t help but to hug him.
"Dont worry, ill call ya little bro." Neither could I keep him there with me, I had to manage to do stay by myself and be grateful he stayed with me sometime, just like Gil did, no one was obligated to do so; however when he said goodbye I kinda felt lonely again.
I began to walk around the town again, trying to find out a place where I could stay but the fact my expression wasn’t pretty and the aspect of being a hell girl were not helping me, less in that town in which the majority of people seemed to be afraid of us. Because of being rejected in few places, I got frustrated and decided to clear my mind near nature; it wasn’t that late so there wouldn’t be any problem; there wasn’t any full moon on the sky either since it was full of clouds but still something inside me made me howl to the ocean for some hours until I noticed that the lights at the town were turning off and so it was goingt o be more difficult to search for a place to stay; however that wasn’t what made me stop the howling; it was a familiar voice that came from behind me.
“Hoom?”
“Gil?”
“Were you the one doing those noises”
“If it was the howling then yes it was me” He gave me a strange expression
“I thought someone was killing a dog, really are you that depressed?” He made me think about it and, I truly didn’t know, maybe the howling did sound melancholic but since it was going that normal I didn’t care “I don’t want to hear you singing” He laughed at my stare.
“And why are you here Gil? I thought you were with Lunette? Doing who knows what…?”
“I was with her but I left her at the mansion”
“Why didn’t you stay with her?”
“I needed to think…” for a moment he was kind of lost in his thoughts and my best option was to stop asking about the subject, everyone needs their space to
think about things. “…and the mansion wasn’t the best place to do so….so I ended here…”
“So are you going to return to the mansion tonight?”
“Why do you ask dear?” I got his attention, good thing, at least for me if it worked.
“Is it too much to ask you to stay with me tonight?” Totally random comment but, it was true I didn’t want to be alone that night, since Hon said that he was returning to the mansion it felt lonely; besides I too knew the company was not going to be for chatting since I needed to think but, Gil was in a similar position so why don’t making each other company without talking? If it didn’t sound as weird as it was.
“Umm I don’t see a problem in that, but we better hurry since something tells me you haven’t even search for a place to stay…”
“I did! But my “lovely” face doesn’t convince them so here’s where the Smexy best friend plan takes action!” Gil, who was about to walk stopped in the same spot.
“Then are you simply using me?” I knew he was kidding by the fake reaction of being hurt so I gave him a wink and with that he let a sigh of auto satisfaction as we walked in order to find a place to stay.
At the end, the “smexy best friend” plan worked out and we were able to stay in a nice hotel, nice room with two nice and comfortable beds, bathroom and a tv. We were silent much of the time but like I said, I guess both had to think over certain aspects so I chose my place over the window of the room.
At first my mind was in blank, like not wanting to actually confront the situation but there was a moment I couldn’t keep the fake and act as if nothing had happened so the thoughts came.
Was I really going to lose him? After he said he loved me? After he was that honest with me? Maybe I was going to; he said he loved me and it was a fact I felt something totally different for him than for anyone else, but it was also true that I got attached to people easily…Maybe everything happened too soon? Small pieces of memories told me either I could be right or wrong.
And what if it was fast or slow? I only knew I loved him…so much…and I didn’t want to lose him because of this; it was true he was honest with me, but I wanted to know more things about him, to discover all his sides and expressions….just to be around him. But…What if, like I said everything turned for the worst? I had hope in finishing as good friends, but that was going to be painful.
There was only an option: We needed to talk.
Was I prepared for that? I had to be if I truly care. With those thoughts on my mind, I slowly began to feel the effects of the rain and of the emotions from that day; it was already late and Gil was already on his bed; I crawled to mine and was on dreamland pretty soon.
------Next day-------
My eyes opened slowly trying to get used to the light in the room; definitely it was already morning or day or whatever but the sleeping had worked perfectly on me and I was feeling my mind was even clear and calmed. My body began to stretch like a dog’s and was so happy doing it, that when Gil talked, he really surprised me.
“You and you’re dog instincts….Well at least it seems you rest well right Hoomy?”
“Good morning Sweetie” I answered finishing my stretching and hearing how someone knocked on the door, which made me panic.
“It’s just room service, I was about to wake you up because I was hungry” Gil said as he turned to say good morning to the girl that brought us breakfast and because of curiosity I turned my face to see the hour and it was…2pm??!!!! It took me some time to actually process it but time wasn’t wrong and we or at least I had slept that much time.
“…thank you…Oh and like I was saying, you don’t have to worry if that girl sees you in your underwear” He shrugged preparing the breakfast and making the thought hit me; I was indeed in my underwear because I wanted to sleep as comfortable as possible, besides my other outfit was dirty so…yes “Oi Hoom, don’t tell me you are embarrassed because I’m the one seeing it, cause you are blushing…” Damn, one of his smirks.
“Of course not! Besides it pretty similar as if you saw me in a bikini don’t you think so?”
“Hai…I’ll believe in the perv Houndoom” I knew he had taken the comment from when he took my pin.
“It was an accident that time you bakka!” He simply chuckled as he handed me a bowl full of different fruits.
“I asked fruits for you, since you like them, was that fine or did you want something else?” He kept quiet because I was already eating an orange from the bowl; however when my eyes turned to see his breakfast, guess what it was….Ice cream!
“Ice cream is not a healthy breakfast!!” He gave me one of that expressions I enjoyed seeing but then I continued “Fine,, eat it but at least eat some fruit ok?” he nodded as I handed him some fruits and we kept eating our “breakfast” watching tv.
“Talking about bikinis, I want to go to the pool” Wait..what? Was he serious? My plan was another one, really, I was supposed to get dressed and then go to the hospital to talk with Lux “Hoomy, dear, I know you are still not ready to talk with that idiot so surrender and accept my idea of going to the pool” Of course I was ready…right?? My mind kept in silence for several minutes to finally found out I truly wasn’t ready, in fact the moment Gil mentioned Lux, the moment my heart began to beat so fast and nerves acted against me.
“Fine…but I don’t even have a bikini..”
“I’ll buy you one at the lobby….or are you telling me that you want us to swim naked?” That made me laugh.
“Moron….”
After that, we got ready and Gil literally dragged me to buy a bikini, which he chose, cause I didn’t care a lot and then dragged me once again to the pool. The guilty feeling of not being along Lux was affecting me really hard, but still…
“It would be kind of weird to just pop out right?”
“Huh? You still talking about him?....Hoom..” Gil sighed, left his glass of lemonade and lift me up in the air as he walked “didn’t I told you already that everything was going to turn out well? If you don’t stop thinking about it you will become crazy ok? So now forgive me for what I’m about to do but I have to take extreme measures to recover the normal Hoom” as his words began to make some sense, suddenly I was thrown to the pool which was cold…and for a moment a feeling of fear attacked me because of the previous bad experiences in the water but it disappeared rather quickly as I figured out things.
“GIIIIIIILLLLLL!!!!!!!!” I yelled at him as the water around me began to boil making some of the humans scared about me.
“No boiling water or they’ll kick us out of the hotel Hoomy!” he said smirking and I simply resigned diving for a moment then finally getting out of the pool; for a moment the possibility of throwing him a bucket full water sounded pretty cool but, at the end I knew he was trying to cheer me up and try to calm me up and the only thing my mind was doing was to resist to that, not helping him either. Gil was right, extremes were bad for everyone so thinking about the conversation with Lux the entire day was going make me crazy but also, not thinking about it made me feel guilty so the deal was going to be to think about it but also enjoy the free and relaxing day my best friend was giving.
“Thank you Sweetie” I said kissing his forehead, which made him look at me blinking
“For what?” He and I knew perfectly why so there was a smile on my face then on his.
And the rest of our day passed pretty much normally, we ate our “lunch” at the hotel’s restaurant and then when we finished it was late enough to return to our room; when we did, there were two special packages on the beds.
“What are those for?”
“They are part of my plan” what plan Sweetie??? He obviously noticed my expression “We are going to a spa tomorrow and then you can go and talk with Lux, is that fine?” God, he was the best! I loved him too much, so the hug I gave him was something that was inevitable.
“I love you, did you know that sweetie?”
“How couldn’t you dear?” He chuckled and then our day finished by seeing a movie on tv. The next day was similar to the other one since we too woke up late but I got to say that the spa was the greatest idea of all and after all Gil’s plan had the best effect on me; I still was nervous for the conversation but everything was better than before, I mean I finally felt ready to do so but I too asked Gil if he could wait for me outside if anything went wrong…He was so sweet to agree with that; the only things I wasn’t counting was the fact the spa took the entire day and so at the end the guilt feeling was so big to be ignored; either way, it was too late to go to the hospital so I had to wait a little bit longer.
Next morning, things were much fluid; we both got ready quickly and after Gil paid for everything we headed to the hospital. Soon it was going to be 12 pm, I hoped we were not very late.
Soon after, I was standing like an idiot in front of his room’s door; it took me a while to actually knock and open the door to face a strange scene, first Shupple was there…when did she arrive? And second, Lux was sleeping in a couch with Raine?
“Hi Hoom” Shupple suddenly said, making my eyes turn towards her and find out a serious expression that I too had on my face.
“Hi Shupple…umm I think Lux is doing better?”
“Yes, he is, after all he passed out for a full day” Was she trying to make me feel guilty? My expression didn’t change as I noticed Lux was waking up, probably noticing we were talking; as he wake up so did Raine and surprisingly keeping serious wasn’t taking a lot of effort from my part.
“I’m sorry if I interrupted something…” Raine began to apologize but my eyes kept looking at Lux’s “Could you leave us alone for a while? We need to talk” That time I turned to Shupple and Raine who seemed to agree and then I noticed the sense of what I just had said…it was the time. Silent remained when we were finally alone and it was making me crazy.
“Can I sit down?” I said as my finger pointed the couch where Lux was; he simply nodded and I wondered why he wasn’t talking. “It’s not like I’m going to bite you, you know?” Did those words came out of me? Yes they did…. And so did the rest of the words “Do you really love me?” Stupid question taking into account he recently told me that but, I wasn’t sure how else to continue…
“I got the same question for you, because I honestly think you care more about Gil than me” We both stared at each other.
“I care about Gil and I won’t deny it, but you tell me; if I didn’t care for you and in your words, was only using you to keep a relationship, then why did I risk my life and jumped from a cliff in order to save you? To be honest, if I didn’t care about you I wouldn’t give a damn if you jumped or not from that cliff….Didn’t that mean something for you?”
“Hoom, that really meant a lot to me, believe me you can’t understand how important it was for me but still….”
“Still what?”
“Still, I’ve always been bad with relationships since I was a child; I’ve never had a true friend or loved anyone…”
“I’m confused, didn’t you mention before that Estelle was your friend? That you loved her? Then why could you love her before and you are having this much trouble now?” I waited for an answer
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And that was it XD hahaha hope it was fine! if I screwed anything let me know ok???
