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another year, another post

whoops I seem to have a penchant for updating this world around this time of the year lmao

so, my new once-a-year-thing... hmm where to begin?

well first off, it's 10:35PM in london (where I've just moved to, about two weeks ago). I'm elbow....? knee-deep in my work for my new undergrad degree, and since I'm a fresher i've yet to actually get sucked in properly yet. it's happening though :)

emotionally, I've met so many new and varied people in the past two weeks- it is legitimately staggering; I think my brain's definitely a little bit, if not VERY fried right now. I haven't had anyone snow plow their way into my life the way that happened about two posts ago, but what the hey, I reckon I'm already in a fabulous place, without it.

plus time will definitely tell if the people I have my eye on are meant to be or not (WINKWONKWINK)

I'm still stressed but tbh I have accepted that will be an eternal part of my life, with me choosing a BA in design for my career path (please hope I get a job upon graduation please u_u)

I'm still talking to people from theO, but they are few and far.... also, I've joined the anime society in my uni so theO still lives on eheh~ overall, I have to say right now, I'm not too stressed, and I'm quite happy! it is rather hard finding my feet in a new place, but its early days still, so I'm just going to let the good times roll~

I'm reading through all these earlier posts, and they make me smile. i'm not that kid, but at the same time I am! I do wish I could go through these times again.... but I also don't want to. i love hormones, really ha.

overall, i'm doing good, miss the days where I used to logon theO; but I also know that's part of life and I wasn't always meant to be on here. :) hopefully the choices I've made are the right one in terms of my career and making my own way in the world!

all the best, everyone
(also please check out the umbrella revolution happening in my hometown- it is an important issue close to my heart!)

~rr off

update.

I'm an IB student. IB is hell, with all the studies.
I go to bed at 1AM daily, with incomplete work. And I'm not even in college yet.

And I've been through an emotional wringer, and it's forced me to grow up so fast.
Hate it when someone you used to love turns into a person you absolutely dread seeing.
terrible feeling haha

Doubt I'll be back on here anytime.
My style is too different now.

Maybe in the future. Too many memories to delete this.
WIll completely understand if you all unsub me :)

Don't worry! And on a less negative note, I'm making up a portfolio, take a look below~
Graphic design, is till afterall, my dream job.

neutered-mercy

life and thoughts on being an otaku.

It's the most funny and worst time to be typing this almost reflective blog post.... 12:25AM.
pardon any weird things that spew forth from my mind as you read this post (and any spelling errors too sorreh)

so recently I've been pretty much MIA in the otaku world. I'm still a creative person, but my creative energy is far more focused; less on anime and japanese culture and much much more on more.... personal things; not to say that anime isn't something so personal to me. an example would be perception of differing texts and their language; I explored this in my school work, and...

it was hugely satisfying. the most difficult thing I've ever done, but hugely satisfying.
...I must be machostic.

and this has affected my otakuness. yes, I still do read manga, and I don't think I'll ever really stop that.... but it excites me less. much less. I went on minitoyko a few hours ago to try and find scan inspiration to make wallpapers. (I still love graphics and wallpapering is a good way to keep my skills sharp)

nothing.
I was clicking mindlessly, and art that would've attracted me longer really does.
I don't understand. maybe it has something to do with my life?

ah now my life. as I sit here typing, I'm just grinning away.
life is... whoah! it's gone and exploded.
the miracles of some initiative.

Maybe that's why I haven't had anytime at all, to talk to all of my online friends; my IRL friends, exams and new responsibilities have taken up a lot more of time than before.

also, someone has literally snowplowed into my life and taken residence in it... but I don't mind. :)
so in a nutshell, I've literally have a life that has... well exploded; for lack of a better word. but eh, 1AM.

I guess I'll just have to wait and see. who knows what'll happen haha.

~RR OFF!~~

boredom- as well general derp

lol hey I'm in the start of exam season. halfway through my first exam (art, which takes place over 2 days) I should be revising for my business exam on tuesday (21 chapters left omg) or french...... (though I hate language e_e;;;) A...

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general brainfarts+exam season

title says it all in my own unique way, I suppose.

No, I haven't been kidnapped by the mafia
No, I haven't been taken in by the FBI witness protection program
No, I haven't been forced into some shady contract
etc.

Yes, I have been buried in work
Yes, I am still alive despite what you may think
Yes, I still do creative things

However, all of my creative energy is being channelled into my art for school; and recently since exam season is literally knocking on my door, I've had no time to be fangirling over anime, though I make a little time every friday to catch up on the latest.

which leads to me often looking like this:

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with my dammed obsession with perfect grades (azn genes, hey!) leads to no social life... *sigh* Summer, I'm playing hard gah. 3 months of glorious rest after 2 months of hard work.

When to expect me back?
June, and definitely no earlier than that; first few days after exams will be all sleep, and then I'm getting stuck into the position of tutor for one of my friends, and possibly my cousin(s)? Depends, I suppose.

It's probably going to be even worse after the summer, since I'm starting the IB program- these of you not in the know, search IB FML and you'll get it.

but then again, I'm no big presence on theO, so I doubt it'll impact you in anyway! c:

stay well, all of you- to the OHC people, don't let the OHC die, the mods and Kira+Luna work so hard for us neeeh?

to all my friends, don't do anything I wouldn't tell you to do, and I'll definitely catch up with you! Special shoutout to kami- loved the mobile wallpaper you made me- hopefully I can get an iPhone soon! <3

to all of my subscribers, thanks for subbing to me, I'll definitely try to get more wallpapers out, maybe iphone walls if I can get one! suggestions?

feel free to leave any comments in the comment box, I'll check back every now & then c: