My horoscope for this week is "People are ready to listen to whatever you've been wanting to tell them." So that can mean people are ready to listen, cuz I'm ready to talk, right?
I'm ready to talk now.
I love theO so much. I always feel like my life comes to a standstill when I'm not active here. This is... was... my emotional refuge.
I've always been able to post about anything I want, when I want. And that was taken away. My freedom was taken away. For over 3 years...
And now I have to choose between theO and the man I love.
It's cuz some of his friends don't like me. I know why too: cuz *she's* in love with him, but he loves me. And *she's* been bullying me, and he didn't do anything about it cuz he's worried that things will get worse.
But things got worse anyway. I'm treated like I didn't exist. People think that *she's* his girlfriend. I'm treated like "the other woman". I have an anxiety attack whenever I even think about going into chat. I can't talk to my friends on theO cuz of all this emotional barrier.
I wasn't like this. What have they done to me?
Why do I have to hide that I love him?
Does *she* really think that getting rid of me would make him fall in love with *her*?
He's always upfront and honest with how he feels and what his opinions are... But why doesn't he say anything when it's about me?
Why am I stuck between *her* delusions and his cowardice?
Are they really his friends if they don't respect his love for me?
What's so wrong about being with me?
I can't choose...
If I stay on theO, I'll be constantly hurt by them. But I don't want to leave.
I don't want to choose...
