I know I said in my last post... Fri end ship I know... I had her back for so long... to see her fall...into a place I can follow but chose not to....As you fall I thought...reach out to her...or let her fall...
"What do you want me to do?"
"....." I can't hear her.... But she's crying.... Am I afraid to fall with her? No...but I am afraid to be thrown aside yet again. To be ignored...to be lied to...but that's suppose to be normal right, getting lied to by those who are friends?
"What do you want me to do???"
"Let her fall....she needs to learn her lesson
"Not you again...you always tell me that"
"Why does she deserve your help? She done nothing but lied...nothing but say lie after lie after lie...she said you are her strength yet she didn't take it...your words are taken to heart by her...yes that showed very well....
"Shut it....I know...I know her wrongs...I know they hurt...but I chose to be her friend because we were cool...we had things in common..."
"Oh was that before or after you knew she was a liar..."
Why is that back? I though it was gone...that be my darker side..the one that always tell me to hurt those I care for...it's been hiding...always in hiding waiting for the right time to show up....figured it would...
"No more...."
"...what do you mean?"
"No more...I'm tired of fearing...fearing of the crap in my life...the shit that keeps pulling me into the darkness the crap that makes me hurt each and everyday. I let the stupid things effect me...I let the biggest things make me fall...I am so stupid...but I know how to do this...fix t his. i know now....So get out."
"Heh,heh, you think you got it...you think you can fix it...ok...i'll be going...for now"