when ever i look through all my art I get sooo depressed.
when I was a noob I had all these comments and I posted often.
now that Im good at stuff I post less and get less reaction for it.

I always thought I get better I get more friends, but with life and other sites getting in the way I have basically kept the same amount.
I dont follow anyone anymore. I used to read comics all day.
Phoooey. I feel like Im majorly missing out even though I do so much.
Music/art/ even some rpg maker action. I not only became a shut in irl I became one on here to. odd how that works. Im not sure even if people read my posts here. Am I active enough to even get a passing glance?

Last night I took along look through my old stuff. as a teen I was much more bright and willing to work.maybe if I get back to that,Ill be able to establish more positive attention. Either way this lifestyle Ive had for the past 3-4 years is very depressing.

it included ; moving 3 times, monthes of trying to get a job and failing to get anything. A roof nearly falling on my dad, a house fire that burned my sisters room completely up and destroyed much of my families possessions. ( I lost the least cause of my place in the house and nobody died or was injured) this after re-building the Fallin roof. and it was a result of an arsonist(stupid kid who was living with us for a while) Losing 4 cats Who really loved us but we couldnt keep cause our move was to an animal free house. My big sister kept em in the front yard like we did(they were very well behaved outside cats and loved attention) ALL 3 of the grown cats ran away when we moved- they were that attached to us. the only reason they stayed in her yard for so long cause we had to stay with her for a coupla monthes after the fire (the young one was too young to keep outside- we just gave her to a family) I always regret not breaking the no animals rule. none of the cats we left behind had bad habits and theyed be just fine in the yard.

as if that wasnt enough My friend has a mini tragedy as well; his dad broke both his feet and lost his tv and xbox to a lightening strike. this town hates people being content. whenever you get comfortable, something happens.

Lake Dallas Tx- fuck you
-sincerely Rose