So I decided to turn on the online radio station that plays solo piano music. This song came on and I swear that I heard this song before. Gymnopedie No. 1 was the name and it currently fits how I'm feeling. A bit sad, with some looming darkness, yet I'm somehow relaxed.
Anyways, hey guys. Thanks for some of the concerned comments. Please know that I'm not allowed to tell this to anyone, but since we have distance, I believe that my leaking of information wouldn't do much. However, even if my brother got hold of my last post, I wouldn't care right now.
My brother hasn't been to our house that much as of lately. My sister-in-law is forced to stay at our house and must rely on him for money, but I don't know how long that will last. I remember my sister-in-law said that my brother foresees an incoming divorce. As I stated previously, he is NOT open to counseling.
This is seriously pissing me off. His dishonesty and lack of communication is revolting. I get that feeling that my parents simply want to talk to him, but I doubt that he'll listen since he already has his job and "plans for HIS future". What he is doing is self-absorbed and obnoxious.
If I must reiterate, he has NO reason to abandon my sister-in-law. He was the one who helped her get to college so she could review for her future health profession. He paid for everything and helped her on the path to success, but to see things take a complete 180 is simply unimaginable.
Also, because of his brash and cowardly actions, I must deal with my sister-in-law's stress of not having him here with her. She still loves him, but my brother doesn't feel the same due to some sort of "influence". Sure, it could be that Justin.tv girl or work stress, but he is NOT seeking help at all.
Right now, as I am typing a storm from my built up rage inside against my brother (which is keeping me awake), my sister in law is up and around. Because of her constant stress from the situation, she can only sleep for 3-4 hours a day. I recently read in a health article that you must get at least 7, so clearly, this is not good for her condition at all.
When my classes start, I'm going to try my best and ignore this mess. I can't let the ignorance of my brother interfere with my medical studies. I'm sorry, but I have to let my parents handle this situation. Nail me on my apathy all you want, but it's my brother who's making everything difficult. Even if I tried, I would have the bare minimum of influence over him.
I have built-up anger against my dad, but my brother has tripled that amount. After this week, I'm going to ignore everything and pretend that this didn't happen. My life cannot be influenced by idiocy in the family.
