A mad, frustrated artist easily obsessed over fictional things and British actors. I like music and movies and doggies and pastry. I'm not really shy, but I'm really bad with conversations and socializing in general. Makes you wonder why I took up Journalism in the first place. I have a thing for scarves and coats and I wish the weather would permit me to wear them all the time.

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Hello 2014!

First Monday of the year, oh yeah! Classes are back and I'm in my Graphic Design class. Our prof is usually gone every Monday so this is usually when I tumblr and go wild all over the internet. :D

Anyway, I DIED BECAUSE SHERLOCK SEASON 3. ALSKDFJKLDFDDDD IT WAS THE BEST. THING. EVER. Took my boyfie and I half a day to finish (we also had film shooting anyway but still) the whole episode because we had to pause every now and then because our feels cannot handle it. Our friends/co-film mates thought we went bonkers. Tahahahahaha WELL WHO WOULDN'T. THE EMPTY HEARSE WAS JUST, JUST ASDFGHJKLLLLLL SHERLOCK YOU LITTLE SHIZ. ANDERSON. MARY. WATSON AND HIS MUSTACHE. MOLLY AHHHHHH. THOSE THEORIES. EVERYTHING.

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UHM, ANYWAY, I hope you welcomed the year wonderfully! Happy New Yeaaaar! Mine was good. Great, even. :D I spent three days, including New Year, over my old residence where my grandma currently lives. I became her dishwasher for those days. XD;;;

On New Year's Eve, most of the direct relatives on my father's side gathered and we had a party. It was fun! We had dinner, my uncle who is a priest conducted mass and we played Bingo when new year came. I had no luck with Bingo, AT ALL. Didn't win a single game. My brother won a stereo set though so that's cool.

My fellow film enthusiasts/classmates started to shoot for a film the other day to be part of the Sinulog film festival. It's been fun, although quite frustrating for most of us. Yesterday, we even climbed up a mountain to shoot up there for one scene. It was an adventure. Such fun. My hips hurt right now because of all the climbing but it's fine! I enjoyed the view and the fresh mountain air. It was like team building for all of us! There was only six of us, by the way. We're a small crew but we're all good at what we do, if I may say. ////

My boyfie's the cinematographer. #proudgirlfriend and I'm sort of a camerawoman and the faketattoo artist for the main character. We just use markers for them but they look legit enough. XD The main character's good. And he plays the violin well. For the past films we made, he created the sound tracks. And our director and his wife girlfriend who does the planning. We have a debater on our team as well who acts as the acting coach. We also have a pretty assistant director and camera woman. Her brother's another character as well. :3

And the thing about the crew is that we're all crazy. Like seriously. Especially our main character. He is bonkers and beside me as I write this, playing classical music from his phone. He's weird. And a pervert. We all call him Bastard. Sometimes I call him mastah. He calls me that too. HE CALLED SHERLOCK SHERCOCK THO. PFFT.

Today, I just returned a phone to a German. My mom found it in a taxi when the whole family was on the way home from church. We didn't get to return it asap because we got busy during the holidays. And it was I who noticed that they texted that phone through a different number to return it. So I went to the pension house they texted after my first class. I asked my boyfie to accompany me because these sorts of circumstances scares me for some reason. |D;;; But the owner was quite nice. He really needed his phone back because of the contacts and some other thing I did not quite catch. But yeah. It was important to him, the phone. He even gave me a reward. ////// Guuh. I'm gonna deposit it to my bank account. :D

And every after holiday (Dec 26 and Jan 2) I ended up spending the day with my boyfie.(Or should I call him lablabs here idk pffft /////////)
After New Year I made him watch Doctor Who Series 5. HE LOVED IT. ASLDJFASKLJKLDDD I TURNED HIM INTO A SHERLOCKIAN AND A WHOVIAN YEY. <3

So yeah. I think I'll make a habit of writing down what happens to me now. Always wanted to do a diary thing. See ya and God bless!

Merry Christmas from someone who had been MIA

Well, I guess this is a pleasant surprise. I know it's been months since the last time I checked in. Honestly I feel nostalgic and a bit emotional. Never thought I'd miss this site and everyone in it this much. (I SWEAR I FEEL LIKE CRYING)

Anyway, just dropping by to say Merry Christmas! Hope you have a good one.

I have a lot of stories to tell. So much happened to me in life. It's basically why I have been MIA for ages. I'm going to share it to you all one day. :)

Just know that life has been good to me. It's a rollercoaster ride. I'm really blessed. So yeah.

Why am I so serious all of the suddenly

THAT ASIDE, MY FEELS BECAUSE DOCTOR WHO AND SHERLOCK UBUBUBUBU

See ya all soon! ;)

- SexyLexy

And there she goes, all grown up~

Waaaaah how long have I disappeared again!? @____@

I should be studying for midterms and doing this one thing but I feel bad for not making a post, even a small one, to let you all know that I'm alive, life has been fantastic despite how busy college has made me, and that I really miss being in theO and spending time with the brilliant people here. :'D

So, um, first off, I'm, well, gonna confess something.

Uhm,
well...
(wah)
*mumbles to herself* this is awkward hahahaha
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I'm not single~

//buries herself ten feet under the ground

Yyyyeah, so I got a boyfriend weeks after my debut. Not really a long story, but basically things escalated too quickly and we got together. But don't worry! He's a brilliant God-fearing guy and I was really surprised that he even liked me that way. |D;;;

GUYS I'M EIGHTEEN (wow, I'm old, haha!) and I got thinner (I'm pretty much just skin and bones ahahahah) in my second year as a Journalism student with all the activities to do and deadlines to kill. I could really feel my status as a college student. xD

And oh! I got to be Rapunzel for our English 3 class! We had a character impersonation for our Midterm exams and it was the perfect excuse to cosplay. <3 Thankfully, I got a perfect grade for it! //spazzes happily

Also, I had a hair cut. <3 I let go of my almost 10-year-old loooong hair. I had no regrets. In fact, I love it. (I look like Rukia, huehuehue <3)

I'm constantly on facebook so I could get in touch with my classmates so if you want to get in touch with me, that would be the best place for now. :) I wish all of you the best in your personal endeavors! And thank you to all who cared to greet me on my birthday! I'm really touched, even thought there's only a small number of you compared to when I was still active. <3

My 18th birthday was the best day ever in my whole life (I HAD TONS OF PRESENTS GAAAAH) and I might blog about it when I find the time. :D Seriously, a lot happened in real life and if only I had amazing blogging skills. //sobs

Here's me. I guess you all deserve to see how much I changed (or how I didn't xD)
See? New hair! And that's my not-so-accurate Rapunzel dress. And look at them eyebags, eheheheh <3

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Thank you sooo so much for your time. I know only a few of you would read this. I don't know why I'm super giddy right now ehehehe but, yeah. I love you all! <3

-Ayin

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Prelims week and I'm turning 18 this Sunday.
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Emotionally Compromised

aaahhh I'm so stressed out right now and it's pretty much my fault because I'm the worst with time management.

I keep getting headaches and every sort of pain you get from stress and I barely eat or sleep well.

I want to curl into a ball and let everything work out on its own.
I'm too overwhelmed and it's not even that much and I hate myself for feeling this way.
I'm crying over the pettiest things but I have to keep my head up and face the world or else everything would fall apart.
I don't know what to do.
I want to take a break from everything but I can't.
My schedule won't let me.
I have responsibilities.
I can't back down but I'm too scared to stay aground.
I have to hide the tears and these petty feelings because they'd think I'm being too emotional and I don't want them to think that way.
I don't want to be a burden.
But I keep on becoming one. To everyone. All the time.

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I'm so sorry for posting something too personal and depressing.
I need to let out these feeling that I've been keeping to myself. Because if I don't, I'll break down and fall apart.