Waaaaah how long have I disappeared again!? @____@
I should be studying for midterms and doing this one thing but I feel bad for not making a post, even a small one, to let you all know that I'm alive, life has been fantastic despite how busy college has made me, and that I really miss being in theO and spending time with the brilliant people here. :'D
So, um, first off, I'm, well, gonna confess something.
Uhm,
well...
(wah)
*mumbles to herself* this is awkward hahahaha
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I'm not single~
//buries herself ten feet under the ground
Yyyyeah, so I got a boyfriend weeks after my debut. Not really a long story, but basically things escalated too quickly and we got together. But don't worry! He's a brilliant God-fearing guy and I was really surprised that he even liked me that way. |D;;;
GUYS I'M EIGHTEEN (wow, I'm old, haha!) and I got thinner (I'm pretty much just skin and bones ahahahah) in my second year as a Journalism student with all the activities to do and deadlines to kill. I could really feel my status as a college student. xD
And oh! I got to be Rapunzel for our English 3 class! We had a character impersonation for our Midterm exams and it was the perfect excuse to cosplay. <3 Thankfully, I got a perfect grade for it! //spazzes happily
Also, I had a hair cut. <3 I let go of my almost 10-year-old loooong hair. I had no regrets. In fact, I love it. (I look like Rukia, huehuehue <3)
I'm constantly on facebook so I could get in touch with my classmates so if you want to get in touch with me, that would be the best place for now. :) I wish all of you the best in your personal endeavors! And thank you to all who cared to greet me on my birthday! I'm really touched, even thought there's only a small number of you compared to when I was still active. <3
My 18th birthday was the best day ever in my whole life (I HAD TONS OF PRESENTS GAAAAH) and I might blog about it when I find the time. :D Seriously, a lot happened in real life and if only I had amazing blogging skills. //sobs
Here's me. I guess you all deserve to see how much I changed (or how I didn't xD)
See? New hair! And that's my not-so-accurate Rapunzel dress. And look at them eyebags, eheheheh <3
Thank you sooo so much for your time. I know only a few of you would read this. I don't know why I'm super giddy right now ehehehe but, yeah. I love you all! <3
-Ayin
Prelims week and I'm turning 18 this Sunday.
aaahhh I'm so stressed out right now and it's pretty much my fault because I'm the worst with time management.
I keep getting headaches and every sort of pain you get from stress and I barely eat or sleep well.
I want to curl into a ball and let everything work out on its own.
I'm too overwhelmed and it's not even that much and I hate myself for feeling this way.
I'm crying over the pettiest things but I have to keep my head up and face the world or else everything would fall apart.
I don't know what to do.
I want to take a break from everything but I can't.
My schedule won't let me.
I have responsibilities.
I can't back down but I'm too scared to stay aground.
I have to hide the tears and these petty feelings because they'd think I'm being too emotional and I don't want them to think that way.
I don't want to be a burden.
But I keep on becoming one. To everyone. All the time.
I'm so sorry for posting something too personal and depressing.
I need to let out these feeling that I've been keeping to myself. Because if I don't, I'll break down and fall apart.
