Well, hello everyone! It tish Rishi. :D Nice to see everyone...
*stares at empty space*
...yeah...
Since Rishi hasn't posted anything about Rishi's life latley...here you go, everyone! The most depressing thing Rishi's written in a long while...
Rishi's been worrying about everyone latley. Rishi's uncle came to visit...and he wasn't feeling good (he hasn't been feeling good for the past couple of months...). He kept complaining and stuff...so Rishi gave him a little monolouge-ish thing. He just got mad at Rishi. And Rishi cried. Which was not fun, let Rishi tell you...although, Rishi does cry a lot...more then you would know...
(By the way, yesterday, Rishi's uncle called Rishi up and apoligized, which really surprised Rishi's mama, because Rishi's uncle isn't the sort of person to do that. So don't get mad at Rishi's uncle.)
Rishi's also worrying about Rishi's stepmom, who lives hundreds of miles away, because she just had an operation for something. And Rishi doesn't know what. Because no one tells Rishi anything. Which totally sucks. Nya. Rishi saw her recently, and she could hardly walk. Which also sucked. Nya.
And most of all, Rishi's worrying about none other then Squeechan, AKA Squee-Neji. Her grandmama's dying, and she's stuck hundreds of miles away until August. Which sucks. Nya. Rishi misses her, and is worried about her. (YES, RISHI KNOWS SQUEECHAN IS READING THIS. THIS JUST SHOWS THAT RISHI CARES!!!)
...This just turned into a complaining post. Rishi's sorry, everyone!!! TT.TT
As long as Rishi's at it...Rishi may as well post her fears...no one really has to read this, you know...you can all just go away, before Rishi says something she's really going to regret...nya...
I'm very afraid of what will happen in the future. I'm afraid that everyone will leave me forever. I don't know what will happen in the future. I don't know the betrayals and tears ahead of her. I'm afraid of change, and I know this. I know what an idiot I can be, or how the way I act pushes people away. I don't even know if this is how I'm really supposed to be. Coincidences have made me like this--that, and stubborness. A lot of stubborness to never give up.
I guess thats what I am--a stubborn little girl who refused to die, no matter what anyone said, or even what stupid doctors say. I don't know if I've told anyone this, but I don't like doctors--they think they know everything, when in realitly, they don't know shit.
Yeah, I've really said too much. Eh. Oh well! ^^
Ja ne!
Rishi
