Being Left Alone-
I wanted to help, so badly I wanted to help them. Looking around I grabbed onto Griffins arm and pulled him aside.
“Let me help, I’m stronger than you all think I am. I can summon weapons, I really can. Please can I help?” He looked at me and tried to take my hand away. I wanted to keep holding on but I let go.
“Sorry Nai but, a plan is a plan.” He said in reply to me. I looked up at him, he was so much taller than me and his eyes were an amazing gold compared to mismatched ones.
“Oh… I forgot silly me… Just think about it… please think about it.” I mumbled as I walked away.
I hated being left alone.
Nobody ever talked to me and they were all so perfect. Wonderful creatures with amazing powers. Not an experiment gone wrong like me. As the amber sun began to set, they all went round the camp fire for dinner. Griffin, Sebastian, Heji, Amor, Ash, Kateri, Travis, Alice, Tono, Solana, Violette, Riley, Bellinda and Nodin. I knew all their names but I bet only a few of them knew me. I could faintly hear their voices talking about plans from my place in the tree.
The sky was beautiful, a mix of golden colours. I remember the first time I saw it, the day I joined. It is still beautiful unlike me. Soon the golden sky turned into a royal blue night and everybody else started to fall asleep. Except me. Zombies don’t fall asleep…
As I was watching the sky I suddenly had a day dream of the night everything changed.
I was sitting at the table wearing my favourite Lolita dress. Solana and Ace were talking to each other, Violette was lifting up Locke’s cutlery as he tried to force it down, Kaki was as quite as ever and Nodin was silent as well. It seemed a normal day. Sam pulled on a gas mask. It was probably because he was afraid of Nodin. Then suddenly a gas was released into the air, my throat clogged up and soon I passed out.
When I woke up I could see people running off into the distance. I was in a van. Panicked I got up and ran into the woods. The floor surface was uneven and it was hard to run in a dress. Luckily the Evil men were too preoccupied with the rest of the members. I knew it was important that we ran but it didn’t feel right to leave them. I looked back and was pushed forward by somebody I couldn’t see clearly. We kept running and kept running until it was ‘safe’. I was thinking about what the others would have been doing right now. I cringed and wanted to cry for them. But I couldn’t because I don’t have real eyes. In my mind thoughts of the question I asked Travis and Ace ran around my head. They still didn’t answer, I guess I’ll be friendless forever. My father was right…..
I woke up from the dream and slapped myself. Why do I have to be so different from everybody else. I looked around checking in anybody was awake.
“I want to be understood?!” I yelled at the moon at the top of my voice. I hoped nobody had heard that.
But if somebody had I wonder if they would have noticed me more. I wonder if I wouldn’t have to be alone anymore. I looked at my pale china hands and tried to summon a small knife. All my focus was being used and at the end I did it. Smiling to myself I looked back up at the stars. And it felt like they were smiling back.
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Full moon reference!!!! This is Nai Hina’s post and there should be more to come from her! Please include her in your posts if you want!
