~Kateri
"I wish they all could be California Girls..."
I spun around in my room, pondering the decisions I could make today. I have to many choices in my life! And today, I wasn't just worrying about which blue dress to wear.
"Hmm...Blue sleeveless, blue spaghetti, blue skirt, blue tutu..Ohh, maybe I'll go out on a limb and wear jeans!"
Branching out at it's finest right here. But I was SO totally not the issue here. What is Keefer into? This dude is seriously not making it easy for me.
"OMG!" I exclaimed. "What if he, like, hates blue or something? My life would legit be over!" My new revelation totally threw me out of whack, and I pretty much had a panic attack when I realized I own nothing of any other color.
The first few bars of "Never Ever Getting Back Together" penetrated my thoughts, and I ran to answer my cell phone.
"Yola, what's up?"
"Hey Baby girl, what's up?"
"OH. EM. GEE!! MAMAAA! I legit miss you SO much. How's Chicago?!"
"Oh, it's great, KK." She sighed. "But I'm exhausted. It's so tough dealing with the babies without you. Five babies, four hands..it just doesn't work out very well. And they have so much energy! More than me, but probably not more than you."
I squirmed guiltily. "I know, Mama, I'm so sorry. I miss the babies so much."
"But I have awesome news!" she interjected. "Tish is walking now! I can't believe it. I think the others will walk soon, too."
"Woah, that's totally amazing!" I squealed. "I definitly thought Miles would have been the first up."
Tish and Reuben squealed in the background. "Oh, I have to go. Duty calls! Talk to you later, Teri. Love you!"
"Love you, too, Mama."
I sighed. Tish was walking? She could barely sit up when I left. And what about the others? They would all be walking, talking, growing...and I was missing it. All of it. What if they don't remember me? But I need to care for myself, as well...right? I was here, with people like me..and I was happy..wasn't I?
I threw on a blue dress, temporarily forgetting my color dilemma. I sighed as I walked downstairs, into the kitchen, and made myself a fruit salad.
"What IS this?" asked Violette incredulously. "Where's the meat?"
I looked down at her plate, which featured a traditional breakfast of bacon and eggs.
"I'm vegetarian."
"WOAH! For real?" she looked at me with eyes of wonder. "NO BACON?"
"Nope."
"What's wrong, Kateri?" she inquired. "You're not talking. Should I call an ambulance?"
I gave her a small smile. "I'll be okay. Thanks, Vi. I just miss my babies."
"Babies? Like, twins or something? WHAAT? You are definitely too young to have twins." she looked down at my stomach. "Is that why you always wear dresses? To hide your chub?"
"WOAHH!" I held my hands up in dismay. "That did not come out how I wanted it to. Nooo twins. No babies. Not MY babies. My siblings. And CHUB? I beg your pardon!"
"OHH! I feel less worries now. Oh, look, people!" And off she went, to avoid any more discussion of chub.
"VIOLETTE! This is SO not over! I have no chub! I'm adorable!"
I returned to my fruit with a sigh. What would I do? I was missing EVERYthing...should I....go back? No, I couldn't go back. Never, ever! What about my Keefer? There's no way I could leave him! But..did he even care about me? I had no idea. That boy has the best poker face. What if I was wasting my time with him?
Keefer came and sat next to me, holding some of the eggs and bacon Vi has painstakingly created.
"Keefer! What's up, dude? I'm really happy to see you!" I grinned.
"...I'm okay. It's good to see Melina again."
"Yeah! I was really happy to meet her." I sighed. It was now or never. "..Keefer, what is going ON with us?"
"OMG OMG OMG! I SAID IT" I thought. I waited for an expression from him,
Keefer looked startled. "..Excuse me?"
Urg. I felt tears coming.
"Well..Umm...I just..I just..." I started sobbing. "I don't know what to DOOOO! My babies are walking, and they're my angels, and I miss my family a lot, but I would much rather stay here and be with you! You're all that I really want! But..I can't even tell what you think about me! What if you don't even care? You probably hate me, don't you? I just..I just don't want to waste my time! I wish you would let me know what's going on in your head."
I covered my eyes with my hands. Why did I say it? I ruined everything.
"And you're going to be even MORE upset with me now! Oh my word, I should just go and join the convent right now."
I looked up at him with big, tear filled eyes. Keefer sat there silently, staring.
I felt an arm around me.
"...Kateri..It's gonna be okay."
I stared up, silent, for once.
I reached my hands towards him. He caught them, and we embraced.. He didn't have to say anything. I knew exactly how he felt.
And, as I sat there in his arms, I knew that I was right where I belonged.
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I came back. For you people.
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