Nai Hina
the city that we love
I flinched as reality kicked in, the intoxicating smell of human flesh and aeroplane food filled my nostrils as I sat in the aeroplane seat.
It had been a while
America was far behind me now, and how I loved that city. Its great stone walls and all the people there! Each one so very different. Each one so very delicious....
I paused. My mind wasn't right. It was different. I shouldn't be thinking about these things. And the smell... Its so strong. Its crawling up my throat. I..I can smell everything. What is this? I feel like I'm choking in a tidal wave. Am I insane? This isn't normal. What is this? WHAT IS THIS?!
Then it disappeared.
As almost as if... It was just a phase.
And it was over.
Oh thank god it was over.
My heart pulsing inside my ribcage slowed down and air rushed through my lungs like water rushing back down a drain. It took me a while to get my head back. Then it came to me. What about the others? No one could know about this, I am normal, I am normal.
I'm so alone
Everybody is so close but they are so faraway. Jack, Where is he now? Is this his doing? I didn't want to start thinking about it. He is not my friend anymore. I don't want to see him. I came back to the MCC because of this but why is there always this lingering feeling that I am so alone. There is a glass cage that traps me away from others. I'm just afraid to make commitments, I'm afraid to be looked upon and to be honest...
I'm petrified of being loved.
This face of mine is too ugly,too different from the others who have been blessed with wings and beautiful hair. Zombies don't deserve to be loved. And it hurts slightly. But thats life. Forgive and forget.
I brushed my pale brown hair out of my face and re-adjusted my eyepatch. A button eye could not be seen. My cracked skin was dressed in a ruffled, purple long sleeved Lolita dress which was trimmed with black lace, a pair of thick black tights and a set of worn leather pumps. My brown hair was left loose and my eye was covered. Somewhat normal but not quite.
Minutes passed as I gazed out the window, I couldn't sleep (no I physically can't sleep).
A book was left on the tray table of the sleeping Kaki-Quinn next to me so I picked it up and started to read.
It was entitled- Warm Bodies
Smiling I began to flick through, page after page. The words settling fresh in my mind. It was, a different perspective compared to other books. It gave me a mild sense of hope. A nice zombie-hope.
Maybe in a new city, life might be different. It might change for the better.
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So... I haven't written in a while (sorry about that) so here's Nai-Hina! It's a bit short but I just wanted to post something. I'll post for Kaki-Quinn today/tomorrowish but I'll just see what happens.
