How did this happen?

I'm not quite sure what happened. Everything was all fine and dandy until Sunday. After Sunday school, my parents had not gone to church yet but I already did at 8:30, so they were going at 11:00, so I had a whole hour of doing whatever as long as I was at the church. So, one of my guy friends(since he can drive now) decided to stay with me. We were talking and stuff, until one of my girl friends came and decided to stay with us. This made things a little ok so then my parents won't be freaking out that it was just me and some guy hanging out together, but at the same time it made things horrible because there is grave conflict going on between him and her right now. So I had to deal with all of this fighting and confusion and bi-polarness. On top of that, my girl friend told me the story behind it, and in a way, it kinda hit me like a ton of bricks but I was able to take that in and deal with it. Later though, she told me something else about her, which is something that made me feel horrible and I felt as though I had gone into a depression because of what she told me. She has gone through so much, I couldn't even imagine it. But, while the three of us were still together, I forced that smile for them because I don't ever want people to see that I'm sad, because it makes everyone around me sad, and I just can't do that to everyone around me. Then, my guy friend told me something as well, and I felt like dying and I blame myself for the way things are turning out. I can't believe that that could've happened, sometimes I think that things would have been better off if I never got to know one of my guy friends and encouraged him to be more active in the church. It seems like that mere action is the source of all my pain and suffering at the moment. I guess I'll continue my story some other time, because my dad just came in and now my train of thought has been severely disturbed and at the moment, I can't go on telling the tale of why this star is crying. I love you all, and I hope you liked my first post to this mysterious world of Where the stars go.