Call me a name,
Kill me with words,
Forget about me,
It's what I deserve,
I was your chance,
To get out of this town,
But I ditched the car,
And left you too.
March 7, 2010
Time: 10:07AM
Music: Jasey Rae [Original Version] on my iPod.
Mood: Barely awake.
Gosh, it is just me, or have you been insanely tired all weekend?
I have no idea what's going on with me, I went to the movies with Becca, and I had a crap load of sugar and caffeine, but I was still pretty tired.
We watched Alice In Wonderland.
I highly recommend it. Johnny Depp wasn't the most attractive in this movie, but I'm in love with his character. And his acting, swear to God.
But, really. I don't know what's wrong with me? I've gotten enough sleep, I haven't really done anything to make me tired, I'm normally energetic, jeez, I'm practically falling asleep right now.
The only thing keeping me awake is the fact that my brother's swearing up a storm in his room. Fairly loudly too.
Enough about me, how's your guyses weekend going?
Any plans?
Anything exciting happen?
Meet new people?
Got a dog?
Named it Jesus?
Or Patches?
How about a survey, hm?
I haven't done one of those in a while.
Have your parents ever caught you drinking?
Nope :)
Do you love the last boy/girl you were talking to?
As a friend, of course.
Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?
Maybe on the cheek.
What were you doing 30 minutes ago?
Synching my iPod.
Honestly, who was the last person to tell you that they love you?
Mm, I don't remember.
Oh, right! Colton.
Last restaurant you went to?
I think it was Ken's.
Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
My aunt...?
I think.
Did you have an exciting last weekend?
I can't remember further then yesterday,
so maybe.
Have you ever crawled through a window?
Mhm.
What do you spend most of your money on?
Shirts.
Where were you at 1AM sunday morning?
I believe I was watching a movie, and listening to Jasey Rae :)
Ever kissed someone over 30?
Heck no!
I'm not into pedophiles, thanks.
Is there a secret you've never told your parents?
Lots.
Do you like yourself?
At times.
Have you ever dyed your hair?
Nope, I like the colour of my hair.
Because it's natural and not that dyed bullshit.
Are you wearing a necklace?
Nope.
Who is someone you wish you could fix things with?
My mom, I don't think we'll ever stop fighting.
Oh, and my dad.
Is there anything in your past that you'd like to try again?
Hm, I'm thinking alcohol, but then again, maybe not.
Oh!
I wanna try making a snowman!
Haven't done that in a while.
Are you an emotional person?
Can be.
What's something that can always make you feel better?
Sour Patch Kids,
and Spongebob Squarepants.
Did your parents spoil you as a child?
Mhm,
Now my dad regrets it.
Do you still have pictures of you & your ex?
Nope.
How's your heart lately?
Intact enough.
I guess it could be better,
but I'm content.
Are you a cuddler?
Depends with who,
I guess if I've known you long enough.
Will this weekend be a good one?
It's almost gone,
but so far, it's been good,
I guess.
What do you want right now?
Sleep.
Who can always cheer you up?
Becca,
and Erin,
oh, and Brenden.
Have you ever gone nude/streaked in public?
Nope.
And I don't plan to either.
Who hugged you last?
Connor?
Erin?
I've lost track.
Have you ever worn the opposite sex's clothing?
Mhm.
Are you a kissable person?
Possibly.
Has someone ever spread a nasty rumor about you?
Mhm.
What is your relationship status?
Single.
Who was the last person to come to your house?
Mm, I don't remember.
Can't remember further then yesterday, remember?
Look behind you, what do you see?
A creeper looking through my window :)
How many rooms does your house have?
Bedrooms, 3.
Have you ever worked in a food place?
Nope.
What would you name your future daughter?
Rayne, maybe.
Or Addison.
I don't know why, but I happen to really like that name.
Who and where was the last concert you went to?
Haven't been to a real one.
Any summer plans for 2010?
My cousin's coming to visit,
or I might be going there.
Then I'll be hanging with her,
and other friends.
What did you eat for lunch today?
Haven't eaten yet.
Whats on your schedule for tomorrow?
School.
Blah.
The last song you heard?
Jasey Rae - All Time Low
What do you think of love?
In a relationship way, nobody.
When is the last time you went to a party?
Two weeks ago?
Last week?
One of those weekends.
When is the next time you'll hit up a club?
When I'm like, older.
Do you still talk to any of your ex's?
Nope.
If you had to eat 1 thing for the rest of your life, what?
White Cheddar Kraft Dinner.
Or peanut butter.
Name one thing good about Facebook?
Psh, ZombieVille all the way.
Does anyone know your Facebook password?
Mm, not since I changed it.
How do you feel about abortions?
They're cruel and unnecessary.
I consider it murder.
Do you eat junk food everyday?
Nope.
How often do you drive?
I haven't gotten my license yet.
Where did you last drive to?
No license.
Describe your bestfriend?
STUPID.
No, I'm kidding.
She's too cool for her own good.
Who was the last person to touch you?
I believe it was Becca.
But not in the inappropriate touching.
She just slapped me a bunch of times.
How did you and ______ become friends?
I'm picking Brenden because our first meeting was pretty entertaining.
Well, it was, the first week of grade one.
Madison was dating Sam, and me and Brenden were the third wheels,
I didn't know him at the time, so we were just sitting in the sand pit awkwardly while Madison and Sam were off having a "private conversation".
The sand was damp enough so I built a castle.
He smashed it down.
I built it again, he smashed it down again.
I built it again, he smashed it down again.
I asked him what he's doing, because I was getting pissed.
He said he'd show me how to really build a castle, so he built one.
I smashed it down.
He re-built it, I re-smash it.
He kicked sand at me, I kicked sand back.
And it kinda carried on.
Then he got sand in my hair, so I shoved sand in his mouth.
It was the beginning of a very strong friendship.
How late did you stay up last night and why?
I think I stayed up 'til about 3 or 4 because I was watching a moooovie.
What's the connection between you and the last person you texted?
We're best friends.
Except I don't have texting anymore, soooo.
Do you like someone?
I like a lot of people,
but not in the, "Holy shit, let's bang!" kind of way.
Have you ever been hit by the opposite sex?
Indeed, but it was fine, because we're BFFs.
I sacked him :)
Have you ever kissed someone whose name started with an S?
Nope.
How's your life lately?
Pretty alright.
Do you know anyone that is currently locked up?
My man-whores dwell in the attic :)
Have you ever dated someone longer than a year?
Nope.
What do you think about the current gas prices?
I don't really care about them, I don't drive yet.
Would you make a sex tape with you in it for 3 million dollars?
Possibly.
Have you ever been so drunk that you blacked out?
Nope.
Do you think that you’re a good person?
Can be.
Some people beg to differ.
Have you ever loved someone so much that it hurt?
Nope.
Are you happier single or in a relationship?
Single.
So many more hot guys to choose from.
Have you ever flirted with a friends crush?
Mhm.
But, it was innocent, I swear.
And she didn't care.
Last time you ate a homegrown tomato?
'09 Summer.
Ever ordered from an infomercial?
Noooope.
Do you believe in love at first sight?
Nope.
Have you ever requested a song on the radio?
Mhm.
Got it played, too.
Do you hate the last girl you were talking to?
Kind of,
she's a real piece of work.
When is the last time you took a nap?
February, or January.
Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
I thought I answered this already.
To text you?
Brenden, I think.
Or Erin.
To send you a Facebook message?
Allison.
To send a friend request?
Allison.
Whose bed did you sleep in last night?
My own?
Have you kissed anyone in the last week?
Nope.
Do you miss anyone?
Mhm.
What does your 8th text message say and who was it from?
Madison - It was a forward about how amazingly good looking I am.
What are you listening to?
Remembering Sunday - All Time Low
Is there one place you'd like to visit?
Paris!
All the motherf-cking way!
Have you held hands with anyone today?
Nope.
Do you like winter time?
Heck no.
Well, I do.
I like the snow and frost,
and how the trees turn white, it's super pretty.
I just hate the cold!
I mean, GODDAMN!
And what snow does to my hair.
That's even worse.
Do you own uggs?
Nope.
Do you regret anything?
Mhm.
What are you excited about?
Nothing at the moment.
Plans for today?
I'm gonna watch Law Abiding Citizen.
Seven days from now will you be in a relationship?
Nope.
Middle School dating is bullshit.
What are you doing tomorrow?
School.
How many different people of the opposite sex have you cried over?
One, give or take.
Do you want to dance?
No?
Who do you not get along with?
A lot of people.
I'm just too lovable for my own good :)
And conceited, but you know you like that.
Last movie you watched?
Alice in Wonderland.
Best. Movie. EVER.
No joke, no joke :)
What are your plans for the weekend?
Staying home in my PJs.
What do you notice first about a guy?
Package ;)
Always the package,
No, I'm kidding.
Hair, smile, and eyes.
Also, if he's wearing more make-up then me.
Just, no.
Oh!
And if pants are below his knees.
Something interesting happen lately?
I woke up to my cat rolling on my chest.
Where is the person you like right now?
Don't like anybody in that way.
Last time you took a shower?
Yesterday night.
What were you doing at 8:00 this morning?
Gettin' some Zs.
Then MOTHER woke me up.
What were you doing 30 minutes ago?
This.
When was the last time you talked to your most recent ex?
Like, two years ago maybe.
Have you ever been around someone who was high?
Mhm.
Bunch of times.
Do you like where you live?
Despite the cold, it's pretty good.
Last thing you purchased?
I believe it was Oreos.
Where are you right now, and how do you feel about where you are?
My basement, and I feel like I'd feel like anywhere else.
Explain why you last threw up?
I couldn't stop coughing.
Where did your last hug take place?
School, I believe.
Who was the last person to hold your hand?
Nobody.
I'm not into making physical contact,
my friends wonder how I'll ever be comfortable with a boyfriend.
Are you a jealous person?
Not really.
But I'm a very harsh person.
Did you have a good birthday this year?
Kind of.
Are you tired right now?
Mhm.
What are your outlooks on gay/bisexual relationships?
Well, honestly, I don't know how a person can be with the same sex.
If I were to ever kiss a girl, like, that I think I might hurl.
But, then again, I was raised by a homophobic father.
But if you're gay or bi, I won't care, as long as I don't have to be the third wheel, I'm cool with it.
Three of my best friends are gay/bi, so it doesn't matter to me.
Do you chew on your straws?
All the TIME!
It's a habit, I swear.
Who was the last person you rode in the car with that was under 21?
Becca.
Three days from now will you be in a relationship?
Nope.
Do you have curly hair?
Yeah, but I straighten it.
Who was at your house last?
For some reason, I think I answered this.
Do you lead people on?
I don't think I do.
But I do flirt a lot,
so I might.
Is there anyone who doesn't like you because of something you didn't do?
Mhm.
She thinks I'm secretly having sex with her boyfriend. :)
Well, not having sex,.
She thinks I'm in kahoots with her boyfriend.
Have you kissed anyone today?
Nope.
Have you ever been awake for 48 hours straight?
Nah.
Last person you cried over?
I don't think you need to know.
Do you cry easily?
A lot of people think I don't cry at all,
but I do.
Oh, I do.
Do you have any brothers?
One.
What do you think of your brother(s)?
He's a real pain in the ass,
but we're really close.
Where did you go today?
Nowhere.
What should you be doing right now?
Art.
Are you a heavy sleeper?
Mhm.
When was the last time you hand washed the dishes?
Yesterday.
Name everyone that made you smile today?
Chris.
It's only 11:09AM.
Who was the last person to put their arm around you?
I forget.
Three feelings at the moment?
Tired.
Neutral.
Tense.
What are you listening to right now?
Stay Awake - All Time Low
The highlight of your week?
Alice in Wonderland.
Who were/was the people/person you last ate with?
My brother.
What really makes you mad?
People chewing with their mouth open.
When I chew with my mouth open, I wanna shoot myself.
Imagine what I'd want to do with you.
Ever had a drunken night in Mexico?
Nope.
What are your plans for tonight?
Art and movies.
What does the seventeenth text message in your inbox say?
Wanna hang out on Saturday?
What's the last piercing you got?
Two more holes in my ears.
Ever toilet papered someone’s house?
Nope.
Do you want to be married right now?
Nope.
What were you doing at 4am this morning?
Sleeping, or watching a movie.
What do you usually do first in the morning?
Whine.
Do you have college plans?
Mhm.
Are you mad at anyone right now?
I don't believe I am.
How many different beverages have you had today?
One,
just orange juice.
What did you do today?
Nothing really.
What is your favorite flavor of jelly?
Bleh.
Do you want children?
Sure.
What were you doing at 7pm yesterday?
Watching a movie.
You're in the hospital, who would come to visit you?
Dunno.
If alcohol were banned, what would your reaction be?
I'd burn them all.
Them being the people who banned it.
Do people underestimate you?
Mhm.
Are you named after a grandparent?
Nope.
What's something you're scared of?
Spiders.
Name some of the people you love?
My brother,
my mommy,
my daddy,
Becca,
Erin,
Madison,
Brenden,
Kole,
JODI DOTY!
Etc, etc.
What's your favorite color?
I'd say red.
Ever been kissed under fireworks?
Nope.
Do you wish someone would call you?
Mm, not really.
Is there someone you wanna date right now?
Not really.
Are you usually the heart breaker or the heart broken?
Breaker.
Rejection's the way to go.
Do you have a best friend?
Lots.
Do you believe that what comes around goes around?
Mhm.
Who was the last person you were mad at?
My brother.
What is the last song to make you cry?
None.
Is your best friend pretty?
I think so.
She doesn't.
Have you ever felt like you hit rock bottom?
Mhm.
What do you miss?
It's more who then what.
Do you give out second chances too easily?
Depends on the person,
and what they've done.
Ever felt that no one relates to you?
Mhm.
Had plans and broke them?
Mhm.
When was the last time you saw your grandparents?
Maybe two years ago.
But I talk to my grandma all the time.
Who are you jealous of?
I don't really think I'm jealous of anybody actually.
And that's the end of that,
I'm gonna go see if all of my holes in my ears are still there.
Poets &&Pencil Led.
Six inch walker,
Big shit talker,
I never play the victim,
Id rather be a stalker.
So baby take me in,
I'll disobey the law,
Make sure you frisk me good,
Check my panties and my bra.
January 24 2010
Time: 1:57PM
Music: Rockstar 101 - Rihanna ft. Slash
Mood: Holy crap, I jizzed :)
Kay, so, what's happenin' ma home brah(s)?
I'm wearing a Super Mario shirt with a red one underneath and boxers with owls on them. Do I pull that outfit off?
Quite frankly, yes.
Yes, I do.
So, MLIA is my new idol. Funniest shit I've heard in all my years of living.
Guess what, you guys?
Legally I'll be !# in 2 weeks! And tomorrow's Tandy's birthday. Tandy, standing for Taylor's.
Yesterday, while my parents were gone, my brother's friends came over and started chucking snowballs at our house. It wasn't until they started making a snowman on my window that I got pissed.
Then I went out with my brother and we had a huge ass snowball fight on my driveway. And my brother dumped a crap load of snow down my shirt.
My hair was a complete, utter MESS.
I was bitching them out like no tomorrow.
They were smoking weed [again], so I showered twice to get the stank all off me. And Brad was high enough to comment on my a$$. That boy should lay off the drugs,
And alcohol.
Wouldn't want that little incident happening again.
I got tackled like 4 times. And apparently, I look like my brother only with longer hair.
I was like, "Excuse me? If you haven't noticed, I have boobs and ass, so shut the f-ck up." I should really think before I say anything. Claud was super amused. I don't take people saying I look manly too keenly.
His other friend, I forget his name said, an I quote, "She also have a VERY dirty mouth. But I think we all knew that." I simply flipped him off and threw snow down the front of his shirt and pants.
Just because.
I'm no slut.
They just believe I've lost my virginity.
How they got that idea, I'll never know. ;)
I'm grounded for two weeks. Well, this is my last week. Annnnd, I got my texting taken away.
So pissed.
My life revolves around texting. Well, it DID. Until my brother went over his limit and got both of ours taken away.
I didn't go over my limit, I just used my internet when I wasn't aware. The only reason I got mine taken away was because if he took my brother's away and not mine, my brother would throw a bitch fit, and never talk to me or my father again.
Well, not NEVER. Just for a certain amount of time.
Like, two days.
So I still have a phone, just not internet or texting.
I'm still kinda grateful, more pissed then anything though.
I'm such a spoiled brat.
I should get my art homework done considering it's due Thursday and I'm nowhere near done. My art teacher thinks I talk too much.
Pssh.
She's delusional.
Anyways, I'm off to write chapter twenty-nine of my never ending story.
Black Guitars &&Checkered Nails,
Jess :]
'Cause ain't nothin' in the world,
Better than a drunk and hot girl,
So break it down, down, down,
To the ground ground ground.
January 20, 2010
Time: 5:04PM
Music: Feel It - Three Six Mafia Ft. Sean Kingston Ft. DJ Tiesto Ft. Flo Rida
Mood: Pretty alright.
Kay, so, today was pretty good.
A lot of people were away due to the ski trip happening at my school, so me and another class mixed it up and followed 7E3s scheduled. Yeah, that'd be my class.
So, I was with Erin all day. Which meant we had a pretty spectacular time. And we kept talking through every class.
And in science we made Obleck. It's when you mix 20ml of corn starch with 10ml of water, then you knead it, kinda like cookies, and then when you like hold it up in the air, it'll fall like a liquid, but when you press down on it, it's a solid.
Cool stuff, but really messy.
Alex kept wiping the stuff on me and Erin, and he got some all over my sweater, and my neck and shit. So I got some on his face, barely any though. He actually threw it on Erin's shirt, and then he got some down her shirt.
When she couldn't get it all off, he wiped it off for her. Talk about a very cute moment. And she says that they don't flirt a lot. Pssssh. Bull.
Annd, we learned Alex has HUGE feet. He's a ten in mens', and me and Erin tried on his shoes, and we're like, "Holy shit!"
We also learned Alex is taller then me.
And Ms. C was just about ready to tell us to shut up. And when Ms. C wants to tell somebody to shut up, well then, you're heaps too loud.
And I told Alex about that guy, yeah, the guy I blogged about last time, I believe. And at first we thought he knew him, but it turned out to be the wrong guy.
Oh, also, in art Alex was pulling out pens and shit out of his back pocket, and as if you wouldn't look when somebody's hand is practically in their ass, so he's like, "Jessica, stop staring at my ass. I know it's sexy and all, but really."
So, I'm like, "Oh, yeah. So sexy."
And while we were cleaning up, Alex got all the dust from the corn starch on his pants, so he's telling me about it and he's like, "Holy crap, it's all over my crotch! Look!"
I didn't look, just so you know, but almost.
He got Erin though.
I think they're hot for each other, but it seems their in denial.
I feel like going to the library and checking out some books. Too bad my mom's too busy and my dad's not home.
So, I'm off to see this Jade Pudget guy my friend's obsessing over. He plays the guitar in AFI.
Creatures &&Soul Eaters,
Kisses,
- Jess.
