Feelin' pretty down recently. Seems like some of my friends feel like they can't talk to me about some important issues going on. They're pretending nothing is happening when meanwhile these issues kindda change everything. I'm feeling like I'm that person that's out of the loop when it comes to the inside joke. I thought we've been together for so long, maybe they'd know that they could trust me with this or at least have the decency to treat me like a good friend.

It breaks my heart to see them turn from the happy-go-lucky and innocent best friend to a sneaky, secretive liar. I used to think I knew what they were thinking, that I knew what was going on inside the works. Now I'm not sure if what I'm seeing is just smoke and mirrors. And I don't think I can look at them the same anymore.

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