"the most unsurpassable love ever; the love of a mother." this picture is dedicated to gie-chan (~kukuyama-des on dA)and her mama, whom i wish may rest in peace. i know for a fact that her mama would want gie to live a happy and fufilling life. her mama will always be watching over her from above and will always protect her from danger. when i read her journal, it got me thinking...life is really just a game to see how many memories you can gather before it is your time. everyone wins, some more than others. but we all bring something with us when we die, and we all leave something for future generations to remember, and that is our memories. when we pass on, we want our future generations to remember the good parts of our lives, as my gramma told me. you can cry when a loved one dies; everyone does. but don't let mourning take over you, or that will make it even harder on the mourned. i cried and cried when i lost half my family last year. bobcat died at the end of the school year, then i lost sugar and the rats right before this school year started. and then steve irwin, my life-long hero, went into the lord's hands right smack-dab in the middle of this year. i remember them and i hold them close in my heart, but i don't go all emo on them and hate god for taking them. i know sugar would always be upset whenever i was sad or crying, so i don't ever want to make him sad when he's in heaven. and my gramma even wants me to hold a party of a sort when she goes, because she doesn't want to see us crying from up there. she wants us to be smiling and to be happy that we at least got to meet her and to keep her in our memories forever. so i have my little character olivia here, whom i love dearly. she is always putting on a happy face and keeping positive thoughts in mind. i thought it would be a good representation of how gie-chan's mama wants her to feel: happy and accomplished. this was really inspired by a deer mouse my friend, hunter, found on friday morning. it's just a baby who has lost its mama and papa when they left to invade houses! but mrs beimer, my science teacher, will be taking care of it like it was her own. so here's livvy with some baby deer mice and a couple of poofum bunnies, raising them and taking care of them like they were her own. life's a confusing matter, that's why i try not to ponder it so much. but i do anyway, just for the fun of figuring out new things everyday. loff, tay photoshopcs2 24+ hrs it was you by ashley ballard & so plush (i loff pokémoooon) PS: high res for gie-chan's mama. PSSSSSSSSS: NO you cannot make icon, NO you cannot make wallpaper, NO YOU CANNOT USE THIS FOR ANYTHING. so DON'T BOTHER asking me.