so the story on this is there's this girl who's madly in love with this boy, a very stupid boy and he's always thinking to himself how unworthy he has to have her and agonizing it is to know he somehow tricked her into loving him when in reality he's just a really nice guy and always feels like a demon when he actually does something for himself for a change.

see that girl, is my girl and she used to be my best friend's girl, but he was a real jerk and i vowed to "rescue her" i didn't intend on falling in love with her, she was my ex's best friend so that was double bad if i liked her, but we've known each other for years and always had a strong bond, we secretly had crushes on each other and it kind of showed between relationships that always ended badly. until it hit me ; my relationships go bad because its not her and maybe it's the same for her. she was dating my best friend for the second time around but he was a jerk this time. and one day he did something real bad, which is why I go by the rule "no means no". so i started my campaign against him and i was there for her and she started to like me more and more beyond a friends' point of view. and of course i was to stupid to even think she'd be interested in me and she thought that there was no way i'd be looking at her that way we were best friends who of opposite sex that was all. but i had a gut feeling i never go by but this time i had to. so i told her "i like this girl", and she looked so sad for a moment but looked away and asked "really? what's she like" and the lore i described her the more she smiled but i tried not to give too much away and finally she commanded i just spit it out and my inability to do so sold me out but it saddened her to see that i couldn't man up and say it. right before she turned the corner and left, i said "it's... you" she stopped and froze she didn't move for what seems like an eternity and finally she turns around and gives me a hug and tells me i have something for you. later i found out that she almost couldn't turn around because it made her so happy to hear those words that she almost fainted. later on that week she gave me her diary and made me read a pert that said she felt the exact same way and didn't want to tell me as to not strain the friendship we had along with a recurring dream she had of me and her. but eventually i had to have as my own and i've felt bad but she keeps reassuring me it's the best thing thats ever happened to her, but i don't know

sorry for the novel