10th October…
It’s been four years since I've started to have a crush on you. But I still don’t have enough courage to tell you the truth that lies deep within my heart... Today’s your birthday, isn’t it? The 10th of October. I’ll never forget that date. I’ll never forget anything related to you. I've knew almost everything about you; your birthday, your favorite beverages, your hobbies, your past, and your love for one of your teammates of team Kakashi, of course.
Yes, her. The one that is very different from me. And the one that is still living in a different world from me, even after your return to Konoha. I’m always here. Behind you. Staring at you in longing. When you left to train with Jiraiya-sama for two years, I often found myself sighing in despair; I missed you. A lot. But as I thought, you haven’t changed even a bit. You were still the same-, not in the physical way, but in your inside; your heart.
You are still kind. You’re still have that big cheeky smile that I like. And also-, you’re still keep on darting your eyes to her. Only her; the strong-willed, brave girl that you loved the most. Not me; the weak, Hyuuga girl, that could only stalk you, hoping that you’ll turn around and greet me.
Just to turn around and greet me. That’s enough. What else can I ask for? Not to mention that I’m hoping you to feel the same way as I do. I’m not even dare to dream about it. Those things almost always made me regret, that I was born to live as a Hyuuga Hinata, the heir of Hyuuga Clan, and not Haruno Sakura, the one that you loved. The fact that I can’t even confess this love --and ended up by stalking you instead-- has proved it. I’m not like Sakura-chan that could easily babbling to -almost- everyone about her affection towards Sasuke-kun. You should have noticed that, right? But even so, you’re still going after her..
Demo, I’ll try to be strong. I’ll try to always do my best, and never give up. You were the one that taught me that, Naruto-kun, back there in the Chuunin exam.
Maybe I’m still cannot get even your slightest attention right now…But until the time comes, when I’ll be able to to tell you what I felt for you since we were twelve.. I hope that you’ll be able to sense my presence. To turn around, saying,”Hi, Hinata-chan!”, and smile to me, as I become stronger, and stronger..for you.
And until someday…I could hope that you feel the same way..or even..maybe i’ll be able to fill a little space in your heart?
- Hyuuga Hinata -
