this introduction is going to suck, i say this because I've yet to meet my love (Belinda) but here is the back sorry, in 2008 sometime in late may, i was on a website that is the equilavant to the once great Aztecan and Mayan civilizations, Myspace. while on here i met a girl i was 17 going on 18, she had just turned 15, we talked and became good friends, i told her everything that was going on in my relation ships, she told me hers...i may love her now, but back then i only saw her anime display picture and thought "someone who loves anime, I've gotta add her." so i added her and we commented at messaged for year....this blog will have side notes such as past relationships....so it sounds like "how i met your mother" and yes in this story im more of a Barney Stinson than a Ted Mosby...i would put an image, but i dont have anything that i deem worth it at the moment

2008 part 2 +2009

october 2008, started where september ended, except by the 7th liz had a boyfriend, my friend john west, it started as john, liz and me hanging out everyday....but john being the lost puppy that he was/is(i dont keep in touch so i dont know) clinged to liz to protect her from me...cause lets face it i was a whore then, i messaged belinda to explain my anger of my best friend protecting a girl i viewed as a toy, i was jealous...but who wouldnt be, best friend asking a girl out that you have sex with on a regular basis, girl saying yes, msn messenger, myspace...anything i had them on....i cussed them out....angry...determind to hurt them both emotionally....belinda....my only vent, krystal couldnt be vented to or i would be killed...

about mid month was homecoming, krystal and i went, i looked like someone from greenday, but with a dog collar....i wore it to show that i was krystals bitch....but also in honor of liz, liz gave me a collar....but it made me a slave to who i was dating...while there, i walked up to request a song....liz walked near me, krystal wanted to kill her.....and tryed to with her tounge....down liz's throat....spearing her tonsils....from mine and west point of view, it looked like making out..."looked like"

november, my personal live seemed to die down, no more two girls one chris....just me and belinda sending belinda messages on myspace, love advice...panic at the disco and fallout boy wit. poetic wit, cleverness that i longed for....no hope of having back then, i wanted intellect, and love....not stupidity and abuse...messages about love, death of a friend, my first hint that i liked her...being told she ends up hating guys she likes(didnt stop us presently)...life was nice...but fearful....would i ever gain the courage to leave krystal....would i ever meet this person....this beautiful person who i vent my problems too....the crush was nice...but far from me...in everyway....

december, i bought 3 scary movies for krystal, panic! and fallout boy for my little brother. recieved rock band, and messaged belinda about rock band....simple christmas...no more no less

2009, lets fastforward abit....i am messaging belinda about my love for my ex, jessica....me and krystal break up and im stalked for 5 days....annoying phone calls, jessica starts dating me next day....belinda questions me....not too sure myself....closure, wanna watch the world burn?...after that me and belinda stop talking til 2010

2008 part 1

as i said in the intro, this story takes place in late may of 2008, Myspace....blah blah blah, for starters my name is Chris i live in Illinois, Belinda lives in Maryland....its 12 hours apart, okay i was dating a girl named Krystal....i met Belinda, she was a 15 year old who quoted panic! at the disco and fallout boy nonstop....she also kept a blog sense she was 12...that info is something i just recently learned tho, but it will come into play later....she commented thanks for the add, not something someone would normally respond to, but i did and it started a long string of conversations about anime, video games, love(not between me and her...not yet anyways)

Krystal was an abusive girl i dated...her own brand of stupidity, self mutilation and hurting other...as for me i was always a nerd, but to her i was "the worlds leading expert on the dumbest shit" mean as hell,and of June 1st 2008 my father died of a heart attack, and during the funeral she picked on my little brother...hit him in the face with a ball, everything...we were all too much in shock over my fathers death, that we didn't notice....

in august....i started cheating, i mix if disapproval in Krystal and mourning my fathers death...sleeping with a reformed lesbian named Liz, and the whole time i messaged it all to Belinda, she knew my whole story....almost as it was happening...she was my vent...i talked to her nonstop back then, thinking back. there was only one way this could of turned out, but i was too much of an atheist whore with an abusive girlfriend at the time....willing to do anything to know i was loved, Belinda seemed to think my life was like an episode of "one tree hill"....eh i don't know never watched it...

September, my birthday happened, i invited both Liz and Krystal to my birthday....made them promise not to fight, because on the 9th i told Krystal that i was cheating on her with Liz....not my brightest moment, but i was honest....but while at my birthday, an unexpected turn happened....they made out....i told Belinda about it almost in an instant....she was in disbelief, i was a guy getting more action than a pornstar....and to this day i wonder how i manage to be this attractive, belinda thinks i have pheromones that make women want that, but im so self centered....that i think my convidance is what gets them....i will finish this story later....

continue on with october