october 2008, started where september ended, except by the 7th liz had a boyfriend, my friend john west, it started as john, liz and me hanging out everyday....but john being the lost puppy that he was/is(i dont keep in touch so i dont know) clinged to liz to protect her from me...cause lets face it i was a whore then, i messaged belinda to explain my anger of my best friend protecting a girl i viewed as a toy, i was jealous...but who wouldnt be, best friend asking a girl out that you have sex with on a regular basis, girl saying yes, msn messenger, myspace...anything i had them on....i cussed them out....angry...determind to hurt them both emotionally....belinda....my only vent, krystal couldnt be vented to or i would be killed...
about mid month was homecoming, krystal and i went, i looked like someone from greenday, but with a dog collar....i wore it to show that i was krystals bitch....but also in honor of liz, liz gave me a collar....but it made me a slave to who i was dating...while there, i walked up to request a song....liz walked near me, krystal wanted to kill her.....and tryed to with her tounge....down liz's throat....spearing her tonsils....from mine and west point of view, it looked like making out..."looked like"
november, my personal live seemed to die down, no more two girls one chris....just me and belinda sending belinda messages on myspace, love advice...panic at the disco and fallout boy wit. poetic wit, cleverness that i longed for....no hope of having back then, i wanted intellect, and love....not stupidity and abuse...messages about love, death of a friend, my first hint that i liked her...being told she ends up hating guys she likes(didnt stop us presently)...life was nice...but fearful....would i ever gain the courage to leave krystal....would i ever meet this person....this beautiful person who i vent my problems too....the crush was nice...but far from me...in everyway....
december, i bought 3 scary movies for krystal, panic! and fallout boy for my little brother. recieved rock band, and messaged belinda about rock band....simple christmas...no more no less
2009, lets fastforward abit....i am messaging belinda about my love for my ex, jessica....me and krystal break up and im stalked for 5 days....annoying phone calls, jessica starts dating me next day....belinda questions me....not too sure myself....closure, wanna watch the world burn?...after that me and belinda stop talking til 2010
