Well, as everyone should have already read bout me moving in with sum other ppl, that ship is now sinking quickly.
Let's see now. Well, first off we have moved out of the run down house. That is kinda good, but Milo and Nikki are now gone. Milo left and then Nikki left. So now there isn't anyone left except me and Joe. Gah!!!!>.< I hate it. I don't really like him very much. So, now Im like what to do? Heres some things cuz ppl I need help. Here is the summary facts:
1. Im living with a guy I do not like very much. He smokes at least 5-7 packs a day.(So not good for his health or mine. Second hand smoke and all.)
2. I have no job and all, yet I want out from beneathe him.
3. My old guy friend wants me back to staying in his watchful eye and I do want to be around him.
4. My parents don't like my old guy friend and are skeptical of Joe.
5. I can not return to my mother for fear of her not letting me come to the library or get online other than skool work again.
6. We have no money for food or anything. I am almost dehydrated.
7. We have no furniture in our new place.
8. My old guy friend has a place for me to stay with food and everything.
9. I am sick of my parents trying to control my life.
10. The guy Im with never lets me go where I want alone. He gets pissy if I wanna be alone. He yells at me if my family says anything to him bout me. I never get a moments peace from either side.
11. I wanna be free to do as I want and talk to who I want to talk to. I wanna be left alone.
So, I dunno what I should do. I wanna be with my old guy friend who my family doesn't like and all. I do not want to be with the guy I am with, but I do not want to return to my mother's house. So, I am so confused and jumbled up. I am so sick. I am constantly crying and crap. I feel so confined both ways and yet I feel like I am being torn in many directions.
Well, thats all. Someone please help me! SOS MAJOR!!!!!!
~*~*~*~ Meira ~*~*~*~
