Another day gone by and my loneliness continues to grow. I sighed to myself as the thought ran throughout my head.
It was 8:30 in the morning and it was close to being time for school. We had a two hour delay today because of the snow storm that occurred last night but I couldn't say you would care to know anyway... I slid out of bed and headed into the kitchen. I couldn't really hold any food down in the morning, but I at least needed to drink something.
I grabbed a small cup nearby and set it on the counter as I made my way to the fridge. I hoped there'd at least be some milk left, but to my dismay, my brother must've drank the last of it last night because the only drink left was bottled water. I wouldn't expect any less... I looked sadly into the fridge and closed it, going back into my room.
I looked out the window as I drank the water and watched the falling snow hit the window hard like rain. "Get dressed Marie, you're going to be late if we don't leave quick," Mom called.
I looked away from the window and went to my closet. I pulled out some worn jeans and slipped them on, zipping them up before looking for a shirt. The jeans were a little big on me and somewhat baggy, but it seemed fine to me. I reached in again and pulled out a long-sleeved black and white striped shirt. I shrugged because the colors seemed like my mood today. After getting the shirt on, I started to fix my short hair. It didn't take too long, so I had enough time to grab my black jacket and brush my teeth quickly. "Hurry up or I'll leave without you," Mom shouted as I ran out the door and into the truck with my bag and books.
The drive to school was quiet. Mom stared at the road and I looked at my books. "You'd better get your grades up. You've been on honor roll for the past years and I'm not going to let you get a C or D yet, understand?" she said coldly and I nodded my head, looking at the road.
She dropped me off at school without saying good-bye and sped off to get in front of other cars. It was a little colder than what it was at my house, so I zipped my black jacket up and proceeded inside. As always, other kids were waiting for the first bell to ring so they could get to their lockers and also as usual: no one was waiting for me.
I walked down the hallway and cold eyes followed me until I rested on a bare spot of the white hallway and just stood there. The eyes left me and continued back to what they were doing, but when another person entered, none of their eyes would have the cold glare towards them as they did to me. I looked at the ground and the bell ring, so I walked down the hallway quickly so I wouldn't get run down by the others behind me.
I got to my locker and dialed in my combination as the other kids stormed into the locker bay. 32... 15... 28
I opened my locker, only to have it slammed by another girl beside me wanting in her locker. "Watch it, girl." she snapped at me and dialed in her combination.
I dialed in my combination again when she left, setting the books I didn't need within the locker and taking my binder and my Algebra book. Girl...
"Marie? Do you know the answer to the bellwork?" the teacher asked.
I looked up from my drawing. "It's a trick question... holes are round and don't have an area," I replied.
The others within the class groaned when the teacher said I was correct. "That's not the right answer."
"I can't believe I got the wrong answer."
"Marie's the worst when it comes to math, how'd she get that right?" I heard some kids debate in the class.
Worst...
In History, we just took a test and I was nervous about my results. When I got the test back, I groan with disappointment, as well as some of the others did. "What'd you get?"
"I didn't do so well..."
"Here's the good news, I bet we did a lot better than... you know."
Hate...
Classes passed and passed, the usual cycle that I've been through and dealt with. And it was time to leave now... I came to my locker slowly as the others around me shoved and pushed, cussing and doing whatever they could to get through. I waited until the lockers were quiet and bare. I gathered the things I was looking for and needed and packed them into my bag, then I left towards the back doors, where my mother should be waiting...
Doubt...
I walked out the door into a storm of frozen water and snow. Everyone else had left and no one was waiting outside for me as I left the building. I stood in one place and stared as the snow fell from the sky and fell on my head like a crown. It got so cold I had to put my hood on. Then I started to walk home.
The snow crunched underneath me and I was breathing hard. I'd been walking for hours. I coughed and fell down into the snow, laying on my side and not attempting to move. I stared off into the white snow as my eyes closed.
Forgotten... just like a snowflake in a pile of snow...
