I was in friend's hospital two years ago because of suicidal thoughts(which i still get). Um, i hate where i'm living. Oh and I lost my older my brother a few months ago, who i haven't seen in years...my grandfather is getting worse. My parents and my brother hate my boyfriend. My parents don't notice I've been cutting again. I barely see my boyfriend. I can't sleep at night anymore because i'm lonely.For the past week I kept waiting for him to hold me but he didn't because he wasn't here and I cried myself to sleep....so....do i seem mentally ok to you?