So I was derping around on Facebook looking for people to talk to when I see two people I'm friends with but I don't usually make an effort to talk to on. Don't read that wrong! I'm not a snob or anything, they're just not people that I could have an easygoing conversation with. :P They're classmates of mine, but they don't know HALF of my obsessions/interests. And they better not find out about certain parts of that half.
Anyways, like I was saying. I don't usually try talking to them because they wouldn't understand what I'm into. But that's when it hit me. Maybe I don't try to because I'm scared to.
My parents are always going on about how brave I am but that's not true. I'm actually really timid when it comes to talking to people around my age. Odd enough, I'm completely cool with talking to adults and people way older than me, but I have a rough time talking to people around my age. Probably because the typical teenager is very judgmental and would be quick to jump and cut my throat (metaphorically) for being different. :( Like, what would a NORMAL person think of a girl like me? Well, let's see with an example. My like LOVE of yaoi.
Yaoi = serious guy on guy relationships = gay guys = f*ggots.
She likes yaoi = she supports f*ggots = freak
Conclusion? In normal people's eyes. I'm a freak. Simple as that.
DISCLAIMER!!!! I do NOT call gay guys that word. I'm just putting it in terms I hear people us ALL THE TIME. I support gay rights, okay? In fact, my cousin is gay and I still love him. After all, I'd be a hypocrite if I was a yaoi fangirl and I didn't support gay guys.
So anyways, end of my rant. If you read, thank you! TTwTT You really didn't have to.
