Here's where I'll be archiving all my personal rants and whatnot, so I suppose an introduction as to who I am is in order.

My name is Alice, and I should probably address the elephant in the room first and foremost. I am a transgender 20-something year old just trying to get myself on my feet so that I can start living for the first time. I'm sure I'll be writing more than my fair share of rants about my situation and the state of my transition, so I'll spare you the details at least in the introductory section.

Now that that's out of the way, I can go into further detail about who I am, rather than what I am. I'm a little bit of a nerd, and definitely a dreamer. I love anime and Pathfinder, which if you are unfamiliar is a re-balanced version of Dungeons and Dragons 3.5 Edition... Which to those still lost is a table-top Role-playing Game with an emphasis on imagination and customization. Imagine an RP with nerdy mathematics to calculate success or failure chance in your OC's actions and that's essentially how the game works :p

I'm also a pretty big gamer and have poured probably more hours than is healthy into TF2, The Binding of Isaac, and Smash Bros Melee.

When I'm not being a lazy piece of garbage, I enjoy researching the paranormal, and writing original work, usually for Pathfinder or my own original tabletop, "Psychoscape", which I very well may use this platform to develop and publish backstory.

So with that, I think that just about covers everything. Feel free to shoot me a PM to talk :D I don't bite, unless of course you bring me food :P

A new beginning

Welp, as it turns out, culinary is not a viable industry to go into... At least in my present location.

So, as much as it pains me to pretty much admit I've wasted the past few years of my life to get a dead-end job, I am doing exactly that and going back to school to change my major.

If all goes according to plan, I'm aiming to get myself a degree in Cyber Security and either become a specialist, or a "White Hat" C.E.H.

Sorry for not updating in a long time, but hopefully I'll be able to bring more content soon... Not that anyone really follows me, but hey, I can hope that maybe someone out there may take an interest in this little blog before my next post to make this apology actually worth something :p

"Rikki, The Reaper's Shadow" soon to come in the character archives.

And of course, happy Easter, everyone :3

Thoughts, feelings, plans, and first impressions on The Otaku

Oh my gosh, this website gives me such nostalgia.

The social side of this place reminds me so much of an old social website that used to be called "Tinierme" that I had to join.

Tinierme meant a lot to me, it helped me through some rough times, and it helped me discover who I really am. I'd give just about anything to bring it back, and after all these years, I hope I've finally found a replacement in the form of The Otaku.

The whole "Worlds" thing is reminiscent of Tinierme's "Diary" system, so I'm learning the interface rather quickly. The only real difference is that here I get to split my blog into up to 4 different sections from the looks of things, now I suppose I have to come up with some more things to create worlds out of.

I've been meaning to keep a dream journal for a while, perhaps one of my worlds will be an archive of sorts of the fantasies that come from my subconscious, although, perhaps I will still have to keep a few of the more private ones to myself... Still, I hear a dream journal is a wonderful way to dream more often, more vividly, and have a higher chance of going lucid, which is the only way in my present situation I will ever be "fully female". Even if it is only an illusion, at least it will be mine to treasure for as long as I can keep it. And perhaps every now and then I can post one of the many dreams I can never forget, either because they inspired me, or taught me, or perhaps simply because I cannot shake their feelings of great import.

The other world will likely be me attempting to create a backstory for a tabletop I am in the process of making titled "Psychoscape." I hope to avoid giving away too much detail on it, however, as I feel its information should be kept in its own world.

And of course, I hope to make friends here... Perhaps there's someone here who typically stays up as late as I do, willing to talk about all the stupid stuff that pops into our heads; well, I suppose there's only one way to find out... I am happy to be here.