Tomorrow school starts again. We had a week off and about 2 months left till summer. That also means about 2 months left till graduation, sure its only my eighth grade graduation, but it means a lot when your with the same kids for like 9 years straight.
As with every school we have our "different" kids, the "popular" kids, the "normal" ones, and those who are themselves and don't care to fall into any of the preivously mentioned groups. Going back after a week off should be fun right? Seeing everyone, catching up, and all that stuff. For the most part it is, that is until i get down to the subject of my 2 "best friends". Yes, i love them like all good friends do, but well lets say we are on different tracks in life, and theres is, well a tad more materialistic than mine. And i'm also a "smart" kid, so when they call for homework help i tend to ask, is this because were friends or because i'm smart. I know i'm probably just paranoid, and if they read this they would be like, "did we really make you feel like that?"
Then comes school in general, well school for us girls anyway. My brother once said that he had a theory that "all girls secretly hate eachother." At the time all i could do was laugh, I mean there is no way that could be true right? Ever since he said that, i started looking closely at friendships, I guess i over-looked my own, and the more i looked the more i realized that he may be onto something. Two girls could be "BFF's" but then say horrible things about eachother when one was gone.
Then there is at least one kid at every school that is, truthfully, normal. As normal as they may be they can't seem to fit in, they are considered annoying, or babyish. Sure I can say that i never was that kid, but i do know 2 kids that could be considered just that. They are the ones that are talked about by everyone, or the ones that people stop talking when they come around. I really feel sorry for these kids, but i'm no better than anyone else i join in these conversaitions or help with jokes. I have no idea why i do. In truth i guess i really do know why, as i mentioned above, my friends & I aren't as close as we once were. I think i join in because i'm afraid that if i don't, i will be the one they talk about.
I don't really care if anyone reads this, after all it is just a random post on my world, but if you do and can relate to anything i meantioned, please comment. This was just a way for me to get some stuff out on paper, or internet...
If you've made it this far, thanks for listening to my ramblings!
And i don't want any smartalic comments from you Hazumi Kaze!(even though you are one funny kid)
Mizuki-Air
