I want to talk again, but I'm annoying myself. I don't even have anything to talk about. Actually, that's a lie, but I don't want to talk about Bakuman. Especially because that's what's annoying me most. Every time I think about it, I go into a whiny rant about how I need to talk to people more. Partially because I don't have enough people to talk to, but mostly because I need a girlfriend so that I have a specific person in mind when I tell myself that I need to work harder so that I can be successful so that when I marry the person I love, I can give her everything she wants. See?! And that's just why I should talk more! Not even I want to listen to myself trying to justify it. But Bakuman is really good and it keeps reminding me that that's why I want to be rich, so I keep thinking about that. Actually, right now simply having more girl friends should be more important than having a girlfriend. Is it odd that I'd rather be friends with girls than guys? I could probably write a whole ton on that, although it would all be speculation.

Ugh.

On a side note, I've actually typed quite a bit. That part about wanting to talk is because of the 6 paragraphs that I deleted prior to typing this up. It's really late, but I wanted to at least make some sort of post today. I want to do more, but I think I'm going to be kinda busy this week. Writing is fun though. I enjoy sending these messages out into the void, even if only three or four people are ever going to read it. It's cathartic, in a good way(Cathartic activities like punching a pillow are actually bad for you, because they get you used to using aggressive behavior to deal with your anger).

Good night everybody!