Thinking of you makes my stomach turn. Thinking of you makes that place where my heart once was before you ripped it out and cut it to a thousand little pieces grow dark with anger. Thinking of you is hard not to do but I'll get over you. You obviously are not someone I should have looked up to, I should not have seen you as a role model. I should never have gotten close to you, no, no I should not say that. What I should say is that I should never have allowed you to have gotten so close to me. I don't think that I ever was close to you. Certainly not as close as you led me to believe. I was no where near as close to you as your lies told me I was, I just have seen it. You were using me, you manipulated me and you betrayed me. You stabbed me in the back. I considered you as family, when my dad got remarried I thought you were. You proved with your own actions that I thought wrong. Very wrong indeed. But I'll get over you and what you did to me, how you hurt me, I'll get over that. I'll make sure of that because it is within my power to move on past you, over you, beyond you and to a better place. No matter what you say