yes I know I've been out of the otaku loop for a while,but with good reason!!
first off I've missed you guys and I got a job!!
on a bit of a downsider my relationship with Edward no longer exist!!
he said he wanted to date other women so we went our sperate ways and we were togther for 6 years!!
I was sad,but our relationship had been dwindling for sometime!!
I tried my best to patch our relationship,but all was for nothing because our feelings for another aren't as strong as they used to be and quite frankly he didn't want to have anything to do with me!!
so I think it's best that our relationship has ended and we did not part on bad terms so all is good!!

my friend Ibn has been a sweetheart through the whole ordeal doing everything in his power to cheer me up!!
we've went to the movies twice first time to see hellboy 2 and second time to the darknight!!
he's a very caring,loving sweet guy and I just adore him and last night he really suprised me...he came over to watch movies with me,we watched killer klowns from outerspace,american pyscho,old batman cartoons and azu manga daioh!! we also talked for hours he didn't leave my place until after 5 in the morning,but the real suprise is we were talking about relationships and I told him about some my past relationships and he told me about some of his and than he asked me what his chances were of being in a relationship with me and I told him they were fairly high because I think he's an awesome person and than he leaned over and said now don't bite me and than he kissed me!!

I was blushing like no tomorrow and I still am for that matter!!
I'm still all giddy and what not...he was real sweet and said he wasn't rushing me to be in another relationship that he wanted to take things slow,but he really liked me and that he had to tell me how he felt!!
I really like him too and I've never felt bubbley after a kiss before and I still feel that way even now!!
is it okay to feel this way??
he said he'd wait until I was ready that there was no rush that he just wanted to get his feelings out in the open!!
I had a crush on him when we first became friends but I didn't think I stood a chance...apparently I was wrong!!

I'M confused!!

I hope things have been going well for you guys...things seem to be brightnen up for me!!
take care and have fun!!HUGS!!^_^