Hi, I'm Apanda! This world will have updates about my life and stuffs. So yeah, it'll be pretty boring... Sorry. -_-
My Loveless name is Worthless.
1. lacking in usefulness or value; "a worthless idler" [ant: valuable]
2. morally reprehensible; "would do something as despicable as murder"; "ugly crimes"; "the vile development of slavery appalled them"; "a slimy little liar" [syn: despicable]
My fruit is mango: Though the outer rind is colourful and deeply hued,
Its kevlar-type resistance cannot be consumed. Deep underneath the reddish orange rind though, is so much soul and nutrient compassion.
My new favorit quote's:
1. “Love is something that you’d get hurt about. Getting hurt, feeling pain... if you don’t feel it, then that’s not love.”
2. "You can never have the same love twice. When one love ends... even if you fall in love with someone else...you can never have the same love again. Even love matures. Its like a flower. Cherish it while it blooms."
Quote by Nanba, from Hana-Kimi For you in full bloom.
3. "Pure love means loving only one woman. Shes the one you hold most precious. She's so dear to you that no other woman would even enter your field of vision."
Quote by Makoto, from W Juliet.
4. "Its like I'm always the only one in love here."
Quote by Yukari, from Paradise Kiss.
5. "Watch for that signal, when life as you know it ends."
Quote by Jerry, from P.S. I Love You.
And now here's a song From the new All American Rejects CD that i really like.
Ok so I went to the mall with the Asian yesterday. I was supposed to go with Michelle and fluffy, but Michelle was busy. So I just went with the Asian... me Michelle and Fluffy are gonna try and go next weekend.
Anyways, I bought the whole box set of burst angel. Katy Perry’s CD (sorry), A panda shirt and wrist band thingy that says "Girls make good pets" at hot topic, AND a gay flag from Spencers. Which I hung on my ceiling above my bed. ^_^
lol, I’ve wanted to do that FOREVER!
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I also worked Saturday and Sunday, and there are a few new people now. So I’m not the newbie anymore. ^-^
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Wait, OMFG, I almost forgot. Yesterday at work, I was on drive through, and a guy pulls up and he’s just like, “there’s a dead turtle in the drive through lane”… and I’m just like WHAT! So after that I go over to the first window with Alison, and sure enough there’s a turtle there that’s about a foot long and its guts are just squirting out of its sides… it was so gross, me and Alison just freaked, and of course while were standing there the next lady pulls up and drives right over it… We were like EWWW. And when the lady drove up to the second window she was just like “What did I just drive over?” and I was like “A turtle…” she just looked at me for a sec and then was like “THAT WAS A TURTLE” OMG she had the most horrified look on her face. lol, it was great... but yeah, it was really gross. and one of the guys there put it in the trash, but some of the guts were still lying there. >_<
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Oh, and I went to the football game on Friday. And that was ok. I got to see Kay so that was pretty cool. And Leslie sat on me for a while, and refused to stay still. (She was very bouncy) so that was weird... I think I understand the whole liking of friction thing now... o_o
My TV isnt working. >_< and i just bought myself 2 more anime DVD boxsets and now i cant even watch them.
T-T
the world is a cruel place.
*cries*
anyways, i bought kiddy grade and jinke extended. they both look kinda yuri like, so yay. although i doubt there will be any REAL yuri. just the subtle hints of it like usual.
*sigh*
they really should make more yuri.
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and, other then that there really isnt anything to say.
Ok so yesterday, like the past 10 days, sucked. And to top it off I had to work with Justine’s mom. And she did exactly what I thought she’d do. She hugged me and asked me not to hate her… and then she said something about still having a cat, and after about half a second it hit me, I’m supposed to watch there pets when there on vacation… I couldn’t believe she even asked me about it. WTF! But anyways, I said that I didn’t think Justine would like that, but she just said that it wasn’t her decision. and then she said that instead of dropping the pets off at my place she could just make a copy of her key and give it to me, and I could just go over there once a day and feed them… now I said id do it, but there’s no way Justine’s gonna be ok with that, and I don’t think my mom would let me, and then I don’t think I’d be able to be in her house without crying…
*sigh*
then her mom also brought cake to work, and even though I know she didn’t mean anything by it, I just kept think that she was celebrating the fact that she doesn’t have to worry about me and Justine anymore… that and she’s probably ecstatic that her daughters normal and straight now. But yeah, I doubt that’s why she brought the cake, but that’s all I could think about. That and I spent the whole time I was there imagining how to murder zinke with every single item in that building. I’d imagine him driving up to the window, and I’d imagine me throwing burning hot oil on his face, or beating him with one of the cooking utensils… and that made me feel like a pretty sick individual…
Anyways, I also cried on Karina’s boobs this morning, which was weird because we’re not very close, but I just broke down and she pressed me into her boobs and just kept saying, “it’ll be alright”, “you’ll get over it”. And now that I think about it, I should have enjoyed that. I mean I was pressed into a perfectly good pair of tits, and all I could think about was how this wasn’t the person I wanted to be holding me, and that made me cry even harder... God I’m so fucking stupid. I also spent a good half hour rummaging through my room trying to find my negatives from when I was in photo… I’m so fucking pathetic. Even if I find them what am I gonna do with them? Just stare at her and cry some more… that’s just stupid. The reason I got rid of her stuff was so I could move on with my life, but now I’m wishing I had kept everything. Usually when I’m really sad I hold one of her stuffed animals, and last night I was really bad, and there was nothing to hold onto…
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Anyways, moving away from that topic now.
I have first and second free, so I spend that time here on the computer next to Ms. Korinko. ( the computer lady) and she’s trying to get me to be a more positive. she just printed me out a thing with 21 things to do on it.
*sigh*
She’s really nice, and I like her, but she’s wasting her time.
Number 14 is “Remember that great love and great achievements involve great risk…”
*sigh*
This is just making me more depressed.
Number 8 is Never laugh at anyone’s dream. People who don’t have dreams don’t have much.
Um, ive been really sleepy lately... i think that has something to do with my depression.
im going to the football game on friday to see kay. so that should be nice. but she said shes gonna be talking to other people too, so i probably wont be able to hang out with her to much.
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i didnt shower last night, cause i was tired and just wanted to go to sleep. so now my hairs all gross... but i guess it doesnt matter. its not like i have anybody to try and look good for anymore.
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i also ran the mile yesterday... well, i walked most of it, and im supposed to re-do it, but im not gonna.
*flips off teacher*
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Oh and this is gross, but i think i got an ingrown toenail... and it really hurts, and the only way to fix it is to get it cut out, and i heard its painfull... but i dont really think ill mind. itd be pretty stupid for a cutter to complain about that kind of pain right?
