Hi, I'm Apanda! This world will have updates about my life and stuffs. So yeah, it'll be pretty boring... Sorry. -_-
My Loveless name is Worthless.
1. lacking in usefulness or value; "a worthless idler" [ant: valuable]
2. morally reprehensible; "would do something as despicable as murder"; "ugly crimes"; "the vile development of slavery appalled them"; "a slimy little liar" [syn: despicable]
My fruit is mango: Though the outer rind is colourful and deeply hued,
Its kevlar-type resistance cannot be consumed. Deep underneath the reddish orange rind though, is so much soul and nutrient compassion.
My new favorit quote's:
1. “Love is something that you’d get hurt about. Getting hurt, feeling pain... if you don’t feel it, then that’s not love.”
2. "You can never have the same love twice. When one love ends... even if you fall in love with someone else...you can never have the same love again. Even love matures. Its like a flower. Cherish it while it blooms."
Quote by Nanba, from Hana-Kimi For you in full bloom.
3. "Pure love means loving only one woman. Shes the one you hold most precious. She's so dear to you that no other woman would even enter your field of vision."
Quote by Makoto, from W Juliet.
4. "Its like I'm always the only one in love here."
Quote by Yukari, from Paradise Kiss.
5. "Watch for that signal, when life as you know it ends."
Quote by Jerry, from P.S. I Love You.
And now here's a song From the new All American Rejects CD that i really like.
Ok so i spent $125 of my money at best buy today. i FINALLY got myself an MP3 player, and im putting music on it right now... and i got earphones for it cause i hate the stupid crappy ones that come with them. and i also got the whole Speed Grapher DVD boxset. so im gonna watch that to get my mind off of shit...
and uh, Michelle and Fluffy slept over last night... and that was cool. i was happy when they were here, but once i was left alone the depression took its place again... i also had to work today from 10am to 6pm, so they werent able to stay over very long.
and i work tomorrow too.
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i was actually really close to just quitting today. cause i was just not in the mood to go to work you know. and of course theres a few other reasons why i wanna quit...
Oh and i also ran out of the school yesterday and ditched the assembly. and 2 teachers tried stopping me, but i just walked away from them. i also kinda yelled at them... and i swore... but whatever, i did not wanna be there, so i really dont care. but i am kinda worried about whats gonna happen on monday.
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*sigh*
anyways...
you know i wrote out a huge fucking post the other day, but it got deleted. i fucking hate that... but anyways... well no, itd be weird to try and re-type it. i wouldnt get it right.
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it was just all like, i thought this year was gonna be like a great year, and now i think its gonna be the worst year of my life.
like acen, i thought that was gonna be awesome this year... but now im not even gonna go.
and homecoming... theres no way im going to that.
and then theres senior prom... i was gonna go with Justine in a pink tux, and her in a pink dress, and oddly enough i was really looking forward to that... but once again, theres no way thats EVER gonna happen now. so no prom for me...
*sigh*
i also dont know what im gonna do after high school now either... ill probably just be one of those losers that live with there parents.
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everythings ruined... and i have nothing to look forward to anymore. theres no reason for anything.
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i just dont understand what i did wrong... why is this happening... what did i do to make things turn out like this.
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but i guess this just proves that i was right all along... no one could ever love someone like me.
Ok so we called the tattoo place last night and your not aloud to legally get a tattoo until your 18. even with a parent there. WTF! thats so fucking stupid. i mean there are other people in school with tattoos, where the fuck did they go?
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god im pissed. and i was already in a bad mood to begin with.
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*sigh*
whatever... nobnody cares.
and like, im thinking about stoping the whole otaku thing, cause like, nobody really comes here anymore, and its really just making me more angry... so yeah... if anything, i wont completly leave, ill just post less.
ok so im just gonna tell you all some random news.
im getting a new bed, its one of those futon things that turns into a couch, so thats awesome. ive been wanting one of those for a long time.
then were also getting a new couch, and at the store i really liked it, but i have a feeling its not gonna look good in our apartment... -_-
anyways, were getting those delivered on saturday.
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and, me and my mom... or i guess its my mom and i, (lol) found a tattoo place last night, so we wrote out a few questions for them and my moms supposed to call them tonight. and if everything works out ill have my tattoo on saturday. but im really worried about showing them my back, cause it looks really gross... -_- and im pretty sure the persons gonna be a male, so that sucks too. havin some guys hands on my disgusting back. >_< so gross.
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and the only other news, is that i worked saturday and sunday night... so that kinda sucked.
and work sucks. T-T they finally had me watch some more movies yesterday, so that was cool, cause i didnt have to work as much. ^^ but now im working saturday and sunday night. Z_Z im gonna be so dead...
Um... yesterday i dropped the tongs in the fryer, so i had to get them out with a different pair of tongs, and then i touched the ones that had been in there to soon and now i have a mark on my right ring finger... im not really sure what else to call it, its red, but its not a blister or anything, its weird... o_o also things got really busy after Justine left, and i was working with the one person in there that doesnt speak much english, so i couldnt figure out what was going on, and we had like 10 different orders on the screen, and instead of helping me she just went off and set another grill, so i was taking the burgers off the grill, putting the stuff on them, boxing them, and baging them, and then trying to figure out what went with them all by myself... -_- and i did that for almost an hour... but WTF, why were there that many people there that late at night anyways. COME ON, does nobody have lives anymore.
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*sigh*
i also had a really fucked up dream last night... and im not even sure how to begin explaining it... there was hospital scenes, auditorium scenes, bathroom scenes *giggles*, and disturbing images were involved, and girls with watermelon sized boobs... and there was a nurse that was coming on to me. O_O so yeah, im not even gonna try to type out anymore then that. i dont even understand what was going on. although i did enjoy that whole nurse thing, i kinda suprised her, cause instead of freaking out and not wanting to do anything, i was the one that was all over her, so she was all like WTF.
lol ^-^
yeah she didnt look like this, but her boobs were about that size. lol
Yeah... my feet are killing me, and i feel icky, and im gonna take a shower after i finish this post. -_-
ok so today i actually worked from 4:30 to 10, so i took a break at 7 and called Justine, cause she told me to, BUT SHE NEVER PICKED UP!
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then i called her again at 10 and she didnt pick up then either.
>_<
anyways, i mainly worked on the burgers, but i did do some frying, and they kinda tried to put me on the drive thru thing, but that didnt work... -_- so i just continued with the other stuffs.
and uh, id tell you all more, but i really need to go shower.
