Hi, I'm Apanda! This world will have updates about my life and stuffs. So yeah, it'll be pretty boring... Sorry. -_-
My Loveless name is Worthless.
1. lacking in usefulness or value; "a worthless idler" [ant: valuable]
2. morally reprehensible; "would do something as despicable as murder"; "ugly crimes"; "the vile development of slavery appalled them"; "a slimy little liar" [syn: despicable]
My fruit is mango: Though the outer rind is colourful and deeply hued,
Its kevlar-type resistance cannot be consumed. Deep underneath the reddish orange rind though, is so much soul and nutrient compassion.
My new favorit quote's:
1. “Love is something that you’d get hurt about. Getting hurt, feeling pain... if you don’t feel it, then that’s not love.”
2. "You can never have the same love twice. When one love ends... even if you fall in love with someone else...you can never have the same love again. Even love matures. Its like a flower. Cherish it while it blooms."
Quote by Nanba, from Hana-Kimi For you in full bloom.
3. "Pure love means loving only one woman. Shes the one you hold most precious. She's so dear to you that no other woman would even enter your field of vision."
Quote by Makoto, from W Juliet.
4. "Its like I'm always the only one in love here."
Quote by Yukari, from Paradise Kiss.
5. "Watch for that signal, when life as you know it ends."
Quote by Jerry, from P.S. I Love You.
And now here's a song From the new All American Rejects CD that i really like.
Ok so i finally got to see Aimee today, and it was great. it was so good to see her, and she hasnt changed a bit, ^_^ which is awesome. and i finally got to try some weed. >_< and i actually blacked out, lol, it was really scary, i was just standing there and my vision started getting all fuzzy until it was all black, and it started getting hard to hear. so Aimee lead me to the couch and let me sit for a while and after a few minutes my vision and hearing came back... i also had a shot of tequila rose.
anyways, mainly i just helped her unpack her kitchen while we blasted some music and talked some. it was just weird cause we both acted so normal you know. like she hasnt been gone for all this time. lol, i guess its cause we've been talking on the phone so much.
but yeah, im hoping to see her a few more times before she leaves, sense its probably gonna be a while before i get to see her again. T-T
Ok so i just started reading this manga on the internet, and i really like it. and i just got to this one page and i think its just the cutest funnyest thing ever. so here it is.
this guys been waiting forever for this girl to go out with him, and she finally said yes. and just, like if you know his personality its so freaking cute, cause he just doesnt seem like the type of person who would react like that.
lol, if i ever get a girlfriend thats what im gonna do.
*grins*
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anyways, for other news, my moms making me go to alabama for another week, which sucks, the only reason i survived the last time was because i was really happy about some other stuffs. T-T but this time my uncle Davids gonna be there for sure which means im really gonna get my tattoo this time. *squee* i cant wait. ^_^
Heh, sorry, i just noticed that i put that last post in the wrong place. it was supposed to go in the music area. o_o oh well.
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anyways, i had yet another depressing dream, which suprised me. i thought id be fine last night, cause i was pretty happy and excited about today, cause i had plans to see people. (although part of the plan was cancled) so yeah, i thought i would sleep fine...
*sigh*
but uh, yeah, im supposed to be seeing Justine soon. so this is really just a post to help pass the time. -_- cause time is always going to damn slow.
um, i got to talk to aimee again today. she was the other person i had plans with, but she couldnt escape today. T-T which sucks, i was really REALLY looking forward to seeing her. but its ok, i've still got plenty of time to see her. if anything i'll sneak over to her house in the middle of the night and kidnap her. *grins*
and thats really all ive got... so i guess ill go now, im probably gonna go call Justine cause she was supposed to already have called me...
How do you know where you're going
When you don't know where you've been
You hide the shame that you're not showing
And you won't let anyone in
A crowded street can be a quiet place
When you're walking alone
And now you think that you're the only
One who doesn't
[Chorus:]
Have to try
And you won't have to fail
If you're afraid to fight
Then i guess you never will
You hide behind your walls
Of maybe nevers
Forgetting that there's something more
Than just knowing better
Your mistakes do not define you now
They tell you who you're not
You've got to live this life you're given
Like it's the only one you've got
Memories have left you broken
And the scars have never healed
The emptiness in you is growing
But so little left to fill
You're scared to look back on the days before
You're too tired to move on
And now you think that you're the only one who doesn't
[Chorus]
What would it take
To get you to say that i'll try
And what would you say if
This was the last day of your life
You hide behind your walls
Of maybe nevers
Forgetting that there's something more
Than just knowing better
Your mistakes do not define you now
They tell you who you're not
You've got to live this life you're given
Like it's the only one you've got
You hide behind your walls
Of maybe nevers
Forgetting that there's something more
Than just knowing better
Your mistakes do not define you now
They tell you who you're not
You've got to live this life you're given
Like it's the only one you've got
"Your Arms Feel Like Home"
I think i've walked too close to love
And now i'm falling in
Theres so many things this weary soul can't take
Maybe you just caught me by surprise
The first time that i looked into your eyes
There's a life inside of me
That i can feel again
It's the only thing that takes me
Where i've never been
I don't care if i lost everything that i have known
It don't matter where i lay my head tonight
Your arms feel like home
Feel like home
This life aint the fairy tale we both thought it would be
But i can see your smiling face as it's staring back at me
I know we both see these changes now
I know we both understand somehow
There's a life inside of me
That i can feel again
It's the only thing that takes me
Where i've never been
I don't care if i lost everything that i have known
It don't matter where i lay my head tonight
Your arms feel like home
They feel like home
(hold on, you're home to me)
There's a life inside of me
That i can feel again
It's the only thing that takes me
Where i've never been
I don't care if i lost everything that i have known
It don't matter where i lay my head tonight
Your arms feel like home
They feel like home
I go to talk to Aimee today. ^_^ which made me really happy. i talked to her for like an hour on the phone, and shes here, in palatine, for like 2 weeks.
*squee*
i almost got to see her today, i was so freaking close, i was all ready to leave to meet her, but then her mom came home and ruined everything. T-T but i gave her my cell number, and sense my number has an alabama area code. (cause it used to be my aunts when she lived there) she can call me anytime and her dad will think its someone from alabama. *grins* so thats awesome, cause now we'll be able to talk more often, although that also means ill be using a lot of minutes... but oh well, its worth it. ^_^
i also finally got to see Justine today, which was great, i really needed that. but yeah, she was watchin bailly and her other little friend sell lemonad. so i bought some and then just hung out there with them, which was fun. i havent been around a group of people for a while now, and i think it did me good to get out of the house, and away from my computer and books...
then after that the asian came over for a while and we watched a few episodes of host club. and we watched the opening song like 10 times. lol, i love that song. ^-^
anyways, over all today was a pretty good day. and im hoping to hear from Aimee again soon so we can make plans to see each other. and im still waiting for Justine to call, cause she said shed call me on her break and she never did... *glares at phone* but thats fine, ^^ im just glad i got to see her today. and im sure there was a reason for why she didnt call.
